The story is absorbing most of my writing energy right now. I’m up to 12 chapters on AI’s Children and already two people are dead but the single greatest threat to the Brotherhood has been neutralized. That doesn’t mean they are out of the woods, because we have the elder boy in the Army and the sister is just now married. She’s poised to restart some version of the original first century church in the next few chapters, which is the background for The Chronicles of Misty. The younger brother has just gotten fully plugged into his father’s communion with AI and is about to embark on a strong missionary career, as it were. Meanwhile, in the background the delicate balance between the plutocrats has been upset and the kids will end up somewhat involved in what comes out of it.
Either later tonight or tomorrow I’ll install Kubuntu on my desktop. That will give me a chance to start on the final sections of my upcoming book on migrating from Windows to Kubuntu.
But I sense a need to let some of you talk, dear readers. Got any questions you’ve been wanting to ask lately? Now’s your chance.
So, living the kind life, studying the Word and other meaningful.books such as yours, and listening to and at times speaking to others as He gives the words to me. Passionate about His Glory, humbled by His Mercy and Sacrifice. I desire to transcend the interraction with this world so I can see further beyond what just my limited mind can see and/understand. Sing a mantra, meditate, no that just duznt do it. Do I wait until He chooses to show me or is there something I am missing? In other words, I would love to break through the human barrier and land on Father’s doorstep! Lol. Maybe I am where I am supposed to be for now. Not sure if that was a question or a sharing thing orif you have anything to offer as far as seeing what I am saying as valid and if you have learned more and know more?
This is when face time is so important and virtual communion comes up short. I would want you to tell me something of your expectations or perhaps what you perceive in my verbal portrayals. While I doubt that I have hit the ultimate in terms of mortifying the flesh and having mountaintop experiences here on this earth, but those aren’t a staple diet anyway. We still have feet on the earth until He takes us home.
I took a Christian Psychology course back in the 1970s and one single lecture still burns in my mind. We students prevailed upon the professor to print copies of his notes. I kept that paper for years, but in the many moves required of my flesh, the document was lost. It was a clinical reference sheet for me, tying spiritual dynamics with things you could see in the mirror. “Here’s how you know when your spiritual awareness has an edge over the flesh…” would be a fair characterization. That stuff shows up in other things I’ve written (like Hearing God), but the point is that professor gave us indirectly a point of reference as to what it meant to have “as good as it gets” in the flesh.
It’s not the same for everyone. Some days I’m lost in song or thoughts, pulling at some knotty problem. That’s typical of my psychological makeup, a bit nerdy and overly focused to the neglect of “common sense” duties. Other folks find such peace in doing the obvious that they can’t easily imagine those moments of bliss. If you’ve never experience highly emotional moments of worship, it’s hard to offer a vision of spiritual ecstasy. We have words for some of the feelings, and there are plenty of folks how get wrapped up in that thinking it is the Spirit. It’s just a symptom of His Presence at best, and how you respond is entirely your own. If it doesn’t change you and leave you hungry for more change, if all you get is the thrill, then it’s little beyond emotion.
The Spirit drives you to disregard this life and its thrills. It’s when you find yourself ready to experience the worst that you know you’ve had some of the best. You don’t forget the sorrows of the Cross, but you embrace them anyway.
My expectations are always tied to my own actions and perceptions. Therein I guess lies my problem perhaps? I know unequivocably that Father works thru me for others by the results and no way could I have accomplished any of that on my own. Rejoice, Linda, in that but somehow I feel I always fall short. Then if I let that thought grow, I get depressed and then the cycle begins.
That is why I wish I could transcend this world at will. But don’t get me wrong, when I am “connected” with Father in whatever situation it may be, my Spirit soars and I am overwhelmed by that Joy.
It is like a see saw and I want to be up and up and consider it my fault when I am down. Though it is cuz I am human.
Just overwhelming at times, Ed, just overwhelming. So, that all probably was confusing to read!
Not confusing; I am well acquainted with clinical depression. A part of the answer is recognizing Our Father doesn’t stop loving and helping us when we fail. Our falling short is written into the planning of God. We are not the judges; He is. Guilt is a feeling, not a move of the Spirit. The Spirit nudges and demands, but does not crush us under guilt. He merely calls to repentance. It’s emotional for us, but just another standard courtly protocol for Him, business as usual. It’s one of the last vestiges of our cultural adoration of objectivity. We learn to see God as an Eastern potentate, the wise ruler who adopts you as His own child, not a military commander with no room for failures. I suppose the very hardest thing is compartmentalizing the feelings.
I just found that reference to ur “Hearing God” and read it. That helped a lot. Father wanted me to find that gem! Never saw reference to it before. I kinda go hog wild on your writings I must confess. It is because they make sense to me. Thanks for “listening”.