It Has to Find You

A life worth living is the one you’ll sacrifice.

I’ll refer you to this article. You need to understand it for yourself, on your own terms. In my case, I’m perfectly willing to let society continue on its path to destruction because I know beyond all doubt that it cannot be changed. What can be changed is the atmosphere in which it happens.

This world is broken and cannot be fixed. But we know that a few individuals within this world can be saved as individuals. Saving them involves a shift in awareness, a different consciousness. That’s about as close as we can come to having a worldly purpose: to take people out of this world. That is, we don’t seek to end their lives, but to breathe Life into their existence.

The very most we can hope for is a grant of space, a sort of nodding acceptance that we as freaks can’t be changed back into the standard social mold for the majority. If we can just get them to leave us alone, we have won as much as we are going to win. But even that isn’t really a goal, just a hope. The whole idea behind the image of Armageddon is that they can’t just let us be; they have to vanquish our difference.

This thing we do with faith has to be big enough that we will die for it. It has to be more important than our lives. It has to burn inside each of us or it’s not real. This is why “organizing” means helping each other get used to the radical difference this cultivates in our souls. That’s the whole game — getting used to the otherworldly norm. We come together to reinforce our separateness, or what the Bible calls “holiness.”

This is why I avoid anything that smacks of “leadership.” If this isn’t an organic shift in you as individuals, then there’s nothing I can do to make it work for you. You have to find it on your own terms; it has to find you. It has to come from your heart.