I’m the victim of pharmaceutical pollution and poisoning. Not that I plan any campaign or lawsuits; that’s not how the Lord moves me. Some of it is my own folly and ignorance during the time I could have prevented most of this. At this point, I wait on faith to tell me what God plans to heal, while I simply acknowledge that some things will never be fixed. Such is life. Context is everything and holiness is pursuing God’s moral character in the context.
So during “normal” healthy operations I would avoid fasting because it would actually be painful. I’ve tried it. But when something comes along and shuts down my digestion — such as it is — fasting is about all that’s left. Chances are that something I ate had wheat in it or some other GMO and food vendors are seldom honest about such things. They and the regulatory agencies are incestuous, a revolving door that ensures it’s all the same bunch of folks either way, all of them without a lick of moral conscience. God will handle them in His own good time.
So for the past few days I’ve been on a semi-fast. At first, I ate nothing until my stomach quit hurting so much. Now I’m eating about enough to make one meal over the course of the day. While I don’t recommend it as a weight-loss strategy, you can guess that I’m considerably lighter when the chute is all empty all the time. I currently run a high metabolism, so my system will burn some of whatever fat still hangs around.
But it leaves me rather weak and working out is pretty tough. Yesterday’s short 22-mile ride was harder than twice that distance is normally. Today’s yard work was one trip to the gravel pile for rocks to fill a soft spot, and nothing more. You get the picture. At my worst, I’m grouchy in the sense that I try to get people to leave me alone. It’s an instinct; I know I’m not good company and I hate pampering nursing. Let me suffer in silence.
I’m waiting on my system to reset and begin actually digesting food instead of merely passing it through. There’s nothing to gain by impatience and I refuse to whine. Instead, I’ll grouch and run you off.
What this means to you? The most important thing you’ll ever do is look in the mirror of God’s moral truth and recognize what sort of fallen nature you have and make the most of His blessings as well as His wrath. God’s active Presence in your life is a net good regardless of your subjective response. However, if you embrace what you are, it puts you in a far better position to learn His ways for you.
