American Military Fiction

Posted on December 26, 2011 by ehurst

The most effective combat troops in the US military are those least military.
There is a place for a highly uniform military service. It’s the perfect place for those who simply lack the character and personality to become professional troops. Truly professional military men don’t need the tight order, and it robs them of precious time and effort better spent getting the job done.
The bright flashes of success in the US military activity in various places of the world come when some rebel is at the helm on some level. There has been a concerted effort to root them out, but despite their best efforts, the bean-counting managers can’t keep real men from enlisting in the lower ranks, or escaping officer training intact. These real men put up with all the crap and go on to get the job done. What we aren’t being told is how few of such men there are compared to the mass of barely usable bodies. TPTB have worked mightily to reduce everything in America which tends to produce such men. Since they didn’t succeed in preventing them from forming, they have been trying to kill them in combat.
Having a single unified structure with a hateful and arrogant command bureaucracy began very early in American history. We can blame Washington. The only reason he won any battles is because of sheer luck, but more often because the enemy command was less competent. He crushed the fighting spirit of his own men and imported the very worst habits of European militaries in blithering stupidity, arrogantly ignoring every lesson he could have learned from his own experiences during the Revolution.
We can only assume God Himself was determined to have the American Revolution succeed, because it was against all odds. It was not at all due to any greatness in our leadership. To this day, most of our military successes have to do with more money. The majority of the US federal budget still goes into the military. When there simply is no more money to throw at our troops, we will quickly see how our guys compare with the enemy. It won’t be pretty.
Here’s a warning: God isn’t with us any more.

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Revealed As Black Ops (Updated)

Posted on December 25, 2011 by ehurst

Updated at bottom…
The amorphous hacker collective “Anonymous” can now be regarded as controlled opposition.
When it was just a matter of information and cracking servers, that was simply part of the Internet. I’ve always said, if you digitize information, you might as well give it away to the public, and you are evil for thinking you can keep it secret or private. Nobody in their right minds would put secure information on a machine connected to the Internet. Up to the point of simple penetration and information divulgence, I was more or less neutral.
Using stolen credit card information is crossing the line. Regardless what you call it in technical terms, the effect on the victim is theft — “Thou shalt not steal” regardless how it’s used. Not that there’s anything I can do about it, but let’s at least clarify the morality of the issue. This is too obviously “thus saith the Lord.”
Further, it shows this is surely carried out on behalf of someone with a vested interest. If there is anything they could have done which helps to justify SOPA and PIPA, this would be it. Since they are too politically savvy to not know that, we can conclude they are working for the Dark Side. That is, someone involved is a pro-government thug, someone who stands to gain by making the proposed Internet crackdowns look reasonable and necessary.
Barring some kind of disavowal, I would say we can no longer pretend “Anonymous” is just amoral activists. They are not working for the good of the Net or the Netizen/Geek community, but are the enemy.
Update: We have a disavowal. The problem is, we no longer have any reliable way of trusting either the original claims nor the disavowal as truly representative of “the real Anonymous.” I’m left having to go back and review what I have seen over the past few years. I conclude my original analysis is correct except for associating it with Anonymous. It’s not their style or signature, so far as I know.
Update 2: The term “Anonymous” has never really been defined, and that is by intent. When you see the likes of Barrett Brown speaking for Anonymous, bring your salt shaker; he has a vested interest. You’ll have to make up your own mind about Anonymous, squabbles and divisions within whatever it is, and so forth. What we do know is the business of cracking into Statfor does not work out for the good of the rest of us.

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No Holiday for Some

Posted on December 25, 2011 by ehurst

I’m going to ruin your day.
On this Christmas Day, I’d like to ask one small gift of you. Take just a moment to think about the private prison industry in California. I’ll make it simple: Virtually every human in that system who isn’t a prisoner is easily more evil than any prisoner they hold. They all know what’s going on. Most of us do not. It’s torture, demons, and the whole mess.
I don’t doubt some of the inmates have no business on the streets. That’s not the point. Do you not realize the drug war as we know it was born at the same time, carefully designed by the same people who gave birth to the private prison industry? That we imprison the highest raw number of people, and the highest proportion of our population of all countries on the earth says more about our national cultural rot than anything else. The system is entirely run for profit, so the whole thing is dedicated to artificially forcing every body possible into the most expensive status — solitary confinement — while flagrantly violating every law and rule regarding prisoner maintenance. Not just uncomfortable, but it crosses the line into downright torture.
It’s so bad, the prisoners all got together and went on hunger strike to force the state government to pay attention. These prisoners uniformly agreed it would be better to starve to death than face the horror of what this system was doing. They’ve been in and out of this protest several times, because the state kept ignoring them, and the private prison corporations are unspeakably truculent about ratcheting up the torture for those who dared to get involved in anything that smacks of protesting the torture. Prisoners faced torture if one of their relatives so much as signed a petition.
And realize, at least some of this goes on in all private prisons, and a great many government run prisons, and all the lies about “coddling criminals” grant demons the right to live in those who say such things. Before God Almighty, it would be more humane to execute most criminals than what we do to them now. But there’s no profit in that.
This is what’s in store for a lot of folks, not just those unlucky enough to make a policeman angry, as the government system becomes less and less accountable to the people. It’s not just police, but judges and juries, and every bureaucrat involved in this system. We only just barely stand in a place where we dare to criticize the government of North Korea. Soon, they may be more godly than the US.
Merry Christmas; if the earth were to open up and swallow us alive, it would be less than we deserve as a nation.

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The Real Enemy

Posted on December 24, 2011 by ehurst

I’m not going to help you much with fixing what’s wrong with the world.
We are at war. Only a fool would deny it. Bad things are going to happen and your life will be afflicted with unwanted changes, and the changes will be radical and quick. That’s what wars do. But going after a tank with a sharp stick is not very effective. Even though we are at war, it remains mere background noise against the real danger.
I read seriously on the Net. There is a list of regular sites; I scan them for items which actually interest me. If I find such an item, I read deeply. I take time to follow links and dawdle over comments, etc. I may even research terms and ideas which arise from such reading. A great deal of my reading does include keeping an eye on all the awful things being done to us by TPTB. More, I want to drill down to how those threats are actually going to change my life.
Unlike most of the sites I read, I seldom have any interest in what I can do to stop them. I’ve lived long enough, and read enough history all the way back to ancient times, to realize that’s the wrong approach. Granted, it’s partly my individual character, my philosophical orientation, etc. But even though I know how to use some pretty serious weaponry, even if I had access to such, I’d not likely use it much. Indeed, even though I affirm by my own moral standards TPTB deserve to die by the hands of those they oppress, it really isn’t going to do much good.
I rather expect there will be a significant armed resistance at some point here in the US, even as there already is and has been in other parts of the world. I have no idea what will serve as the straw that breaks the camel’s back, nor on what scale or degree of effectiveness the resistance will be. I’m also utterly convinced the outcome won’t change anything really important to me.
For those who are just passing by, or you haven’t been paying much attention, when I discuss the awful things coming our way, and the vast evil global conspiracies against mankind, it’s not with an eye to physical countermeasures. Sure, I intend to resist in virtual space by keeping at hand the computer tools needed to maintain as much personal prerogative as possible. I’ll be glad to tell you all I know about that. But I also rather expect my particular use for the Net will be considerably ruined by future events. I can’t predict whether future events will provide an outlet for my urge to write and publish. I intend to take advantage of what is. My emphasis is not changing the world around me, but keeping control of what really matters internally. I want that for you, too.
I won’t spill too many electrons advising you how to change your world. I’m going to blather for days and years without end about how to change yourself. Even when I talk about physical fitness and survival, the real aim is not readiness to strike back against external threats. We have all we can do overcoming the problems we make for ourselves.
The real enemy is the person in the mirror.

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The Gift of Truth for Christmas

Posted on December 24, 2011 by ehurst

Most of my regular readers probably understand this already, but what I offer is a written formulation which may help fill your Santa’s bag of truth so you can share with others.

First, I have to reveal something of myself for this to make sense. Sometime in my late 40s, some of my nerve wiring broke — my libido pretty much died. Here where I live in a mobile home park, I am surrounded by feminine beauty. On one side there are two teenage cuties, and they flaunt it. On the other side is a hot single mom, another across the street, and a fairly attractive 20-something next to that. They all flaunt it to some degree. When they flaunt it, I simply turn away. My wife has nothing to worry about. While I easily recognize their feminine glory, and realize many men would die for a chance to live in this situation, that portion of my wiring is no longer connected to the part which directs the hormones.

My wife remains the center of my attention, not because she can compete in that sense, but because the only thing which turns me on is her many years of unfailing devotion to my mission. She does by instinct what most women have to study quite awhile to understand Game. She’s one of the few women I’ve ever met whose words can be taken at face value most of the time. There is no insane subtext to deal with. It doesn’t get any better for someone like me.

Compared to the soap operas my wife describes from her Facebook friends (I never go there), this is heaven on earth. But I haven’t forgotten what it’s like to walk around trying to hide that erection resulting from some exhibitionist or manipulative flirt. I can recall vividly the thrilling misery of having to live with out of control testosterone thrumming the wires of my consciousness.

I never forget how I got here. While I surely qualify as a Gamma by nature, I managed to wade through a fairly high measure of romantic experience by the time I entered college, in part because I started so very young. I never passed through that normal developmental period when boys don’t like girls. I’ve always preferred female company over males. But a critical element in my introversion was some measure of realism, and in college I finally understood and could explain it: Genuine romantic love worth having can be built from a sane choice of partner. I knew full well that first rush of excitement was a huge lie, and was usually more wrong than right. I knew full well love would grow from commitment, that most people got it backwards. I married on that basis, because I knew beyond all doubt this woman was the best choice.

At the same time, I’ll be the first to tell you there were surely others who could have filled the bill. It would have taken quite some time to find another like her, but there are any number of fine gradations and reasonable choices. Marriage is not about love, but about partnership and building a future. Love which results from clear thinking is not the same as blinding passion which takes random choices. A lesser romance would have been acceptable and manageable. I was blessed with a rare opportunity, but the same God is capable of carrying me through just about anything He wants for me. Nothing in Scripture teaches there is only one woman or man for you; there are wise choices in each context. The critical element is rejecting those who don’t meet the minimum standard.

For those who are struggling to find some romantic solace in this mad world, here is a bare outline of truth most people are likely to reject while their hormones are surging, and loneliness weighs heavy upon their souls:

1. Learn Game. Know the reality of human wiring; reject the entire fairy castle in the sky which is Western Civilization’s fantasies about how human sexuality works. All TV and movies are lies, as are most books on the subject.

2. Hormones lie. Don’t let them vote. When you make a wise choice, they’ll fall in line and do their job. They’ll grouse the whole way, and continue demanding things which cannot do you any good, but they’ll do their job. (This is why rationalization is possible.)

3. Utopia means “no such place exists.” There is no such thing as “The One.” There are a whole range of probabilities which might work well enough, and just a few who are a near perfect match. There’s a whole bunch who will deceive you, then turn into complete nightmares. Get past the initial cathexis and let reality come back before you make any decisions. Better yet, stay away from anyone who creates cathexis, because a partner really worth having isn’t likely to do that to you.

4. Don’t sell yourself cheaply. That’s another way of saying you need some self respect and healthy self love. You can’t do that unless you know who you are and what you really must do with your life. Never compromise your mission.
Merry Christmas.

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The Final Defense of Sanity

Posted on December 23, 2011 by ehurst

According to the basic guidelines of civility, the proper response to impertinent questions and suggestions is to laugh.
For quite some time, innocence has been no defense in the US. On the one hand, there are enough intentionally confusing and contradictory laws you can always be found guilty of something when an investigator pokes long enough into your life. On the other hand, police are increasingly getting away with made-up charges not on any law books anywhere in the country. You can literally be charged for not properly reading the investigating/arresting officers’ mind.
That’s not counting the persecution and harassment for rather serious crimes you’d never commit, but for which someone has simply decided you are guilty and deserve it. Try to imagine how easy it is for someone who sounds and acts like a movie hero FBI agent to describe a non-existent, but plausible dossier on your past sins. Imagine how associates, coworkers, neighbors, even family members can be made to believe stuff you’d never do.
But sometimes the easiest path is simply manipulating you into saying or doing something stupid. To this end, a very large number of law enforcement thugs have been trained in getting people bent out of shape. I know this because I’ve sat through the training, and you can be sure it has improved markedly since the early 1990s. It’s easy to push most people’s buttons because they wear them in plain sight.
The defense comes in two steps, two levels.
One: Expect it. That is, don’t be surprised if something like this happens. You tread a fine line between mistaking a run of bad luck for intentional harassment, so you first have to learn to expect bad fortune, and deal with it. There’s this thing called “legitimate human suffering.” But dealing with it is pretty much the same whether it’s your turn for random acts of human meanness and bad timing, or someone is out to get you — keep your cool. Yes, it helps if you can uncover a genuine plot, but in very real terms, it won’t matter that much. If they want you, they’ll get you. The one thing you can do is not let it warp your grip on reality. The world is crappy and we are all going to taste a lot more crap as the cycle of history brings around a collapse in one civilization as another rises.
Two: Stop caring. Specifically, reassess all the things you consider important, perhaps on a regular basis. Will it really be the end of your sanity if you are falsely arrested? Adjust your expectations, yes, but also adjust your sense of what matters. Most of the world around you is desperately dependent on certain conditions for peace and happiness. Don’t be one of those people. When you can reduce your life necessities down to those things by which you remain uniquely yourself, set as your real priorities those things essential to your very character as a human being, then it’s a whole lot easier to let most of that crap go.
Some of us may well face a very real threat to our integrity from the diabolical tools governments have been developing over the past few decades. There are already patented devices which can make you hear voices, see things not there, experience false sensations, and you won’t have any idea because they don’t require the physical proximity you might expect. There are drugs which, even in tiny doses, can totally disassociate what little coherence we might hold between various sections of our brains. Would it surprise you to know every hospital has government and private thugs working there, ready and willing to torture you by creatively altering standard medical treatments? I personally know many church pastors and chaplains who are part of “the program.” You aren’t paranoid enough.
Short of such extraordinary measures, you can deny TPTB the pleasure of breaking you down by simply not giving a crap for what matters to them. Most of the time it’s just too easy to give them what they think they have to have, and not sense any particular compromise in your personal integrity. It’s sort of an extension of “pearls before swine.”
Pigs are among the more intelligent animals, but they are still animals. They can sniff out truffles or anything else you can imagine. You can teach them to get food and physical pleasures as a reward for all sorts of extravagant behavior patterns, but you can’t teach them the difference between pearls and plastic beads. They really don’t care if the sky is blue, much less why. Some people find the truth threatening. You find yourself in the difficult place of trying to figure out what they really have to have to function and try to deliver that. Sometimes you might be the pig who can’t tell pearls, so you don’t worry about questions of absolute truth too much. Figure out what you really have to have and do, and focus on that. Be ready to adjust your assessment from time to time as you experience new assaults on your sanity.
Most of the time, just keep your thoughts to yourself and laugh behind their backs, because you can’t fix stupid.

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Delusion Defense

Posted on December 22, 2011 by ehurst

When the world is mad, what happens to the sane?
First and foremost, your best defense internally is not taking yourself too seriously. Never forget: It’s always possible you are mistaken, even deluded, about any number of things. Fundamental to the problem is the utter necessity of referencing those around us. Even if we come to think the world is crazy and can prove to our satisfaction the very facts of reality against the world, we had to get to that place with a little help from someone who taught us. It is simply not humanly possible to start from scratch in reasoning. Even your very real experiences are flavored by a certain amount of conditioning about what your physical pain and injuries mean, if anything. At a certain fundamental level, it’s not a question of what is real, but what can you work with, and what you have to ignore.
Second, there is little or nothing you can do to correct insanity on any scale, whether a single individual or all humanity. You can’t fix stupid, either. It’s hard enough fixing mere ignorance when people are asking you for information. You are not the truth police; that’s the fallacy which traps Gammas outside the mainstream with everything, not just human sexual response. Demand as much as you dare, but don’t expect much, in the sense you are ready for the worst.
Be ready to laugh whenever someone says something utterly stupid. Be ready to laugh a lot, because right now, there is a rising pervasive attack on our perceptions by those in powerful positions. Some of the most ridiculous crap is coming out of the MSM and controlled opposition right now, to the point you wonder if you woke up on the wrong planet, or perhaps an alternate reality. It’s ramping up even as I type this, where people ostensibly belonging to the alternative press are writing some of the most outlandish things.
One serious commentator actually says the dollar is not a credit instrument, and that credit cannot be said to push the demand curve outward. Every single dollar in existence, either as paper or numbers on a computer, is borrowed from the Fed, a private lending institution. Every dollar in existence is a debt owed to the people who own the Fed. And if credit does not artificially pull consumption earlier in time, we would never call it “stimulus.”
Meanwhile, I’d keep a serious bug-out bag handy.

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Losing the Race

Posted on December 21, 2011 by ehurst

We don’t even have a good definition for “race” as it pertains to humans.
Racism is neither good nor bad; it is a human instinct. It simply is. As with any instinct, it can be coupled with conditioning to produce moral good or bad, and typically a mixture of both. Hatred and abuse can arise from any excuse, but the hateful oppression by one group of another is as old as the Fall. The notion there is no difference is false on the face of it. If there were no difference, there would be nothing to write about.
Fairness is impossible among humans for the very simple reason no two are alike. If I treat you precisely the same as I do some other, I am ignoring your God given uniqueness. To be human is to be different; it’s part of the definition, built into the very existence of humanity. Each person thinks and acts uniquely, but we can detect commonalities. It is entirely silly to think commonalities don’t exist. In any given realm of human thinking and behavior, we will always categorize people based on what can be observed of them.
To suppose certain obvious physical traits do not also come packaged with certain other commonalities is ignoring reality. It justifies calling one “stupid” — ignorance fortified by intent. It’s human nature itself to crave distinction; it simply is. In any given context, we emphasize whatever it is which makes us different from some others, paradoxically by choosing to associate with yet others. This is not good or bad; it is reality.
I need not justify associating Western Civilization with white skin, any more than I need to justify other cultures with other colors of skin. There was a time in human history when white faces were associated with some incredible lack of civilization. At some time in the future, the cycle will roll past the whites and they will join the other “has been” civilizations on the dust heap of history. It is possible future dominant civilizations will not be associated with any particular race, but I wouldn’t bet on it.
The very notion of “history” is itself culturally derived, because it requires certain value judgments as to what justifies keeping a record. This in itself remains the single greatest barrier, as I often note, for folks today understanding the Bible. Reading your cultural bias back into another is about as racist as it gets. To judge any past civilization by your own civilization’s biases about what constitutes success is arrogance on the level of blasphemy.
So the real problem is not noticing there are differences, but in thinking your race, team, state, tribe, etc., is better in the ultimate sense. If it were simple cheerleading, we could understand and forgive, but when the fans of one team commit parking lot violence against the fans or team members of the other, we can justify saying it’s evil.
In the grand cycle of things, whites will disappear. Not Caucasian DNA, but as a significant presence on the earth. This is the first racial group which is breeding itself out of existence, by becoming too addicted to the personal comfort which arises from not having enough kids to replace your generation. Kids are an expensive habit, and gets in the way of fancy cars and big TVs.
If I were to guess today, I’d say the future belongs to the Hispanic folks, specifically South and Central America. If you stop to think for a moment what places any race or culture atop the foodchain, you’ll understand why. As with all those granted by God a chance to dominate the humanscape, they will face His justice the same as all those past. At some point He has promised to bring it all to an end, and only He has any idea when it will come, and who will be on top. Given enough time, the categories will drift into areas we can hardly comprehend.
Meanwhile, divine justice has found the White West exceptionally odious, and our fall will be magnificent.

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The Shape of Oppression

Posted on December 20, 2011 by ehurst

Around here, I’ve seen very little harassment from the government.
As noted previously on this blog, I was under some kind of bumbling surveillance at one point around the turn of the millennium. It included tapping my phone, some ham-fisted questioning about me in the one-dog town where I went to church, and some other forms of pressure. Oddly, this was what set me free from the blinders of supporting my government without much thought. I had nothing to do with the guy they were after. They were watching me for all the wrong things, and could have discovered their mistake with a lot less destruction in my life, not to mention with a lot less expense to the government. All the information was already in their hands, but they couldn’t be bothered to read it.
That day, when my Christian ministry was destroyed by their sloppy investigation, I became a dissident.
Since then, the harassment has been of a more technical nature. That is, instead of some conscious human decision to mess with me, it was automated. As one who has kept a broadband connection to the Internet whenever physically possible, I have spent some time learning the technology involved in keeping it working. More than once, immediately upon visiting certain kinds of webpages, that connection was broken.
So far, it’s been the kind of thing where I poke and prod the equipment, and reset this or that, and it all came back. This is not the same kind of issues we all have with random service disruption. The issue I’m describing has been fairly consistent with an automated surveillance. When I visit something which would provide a new and dangerous skill (breaking out of flex cuffs, shimming padlocks, etc.) or certain revelations of leaked government secrets, the connection promptly went sour for everyone in the house, but none of my neighbors. It didn’t matter if it was cable or DSL. Way back when I was using dialup, and it was hard to be sure, since the connection was already pretty shaky, but it happened there, too.
Without knowing where the breakpoint is, I can’t determine how closely it targets me or if it targets others based on choosing the same page. It’s been the same regardless of what I use for a router, what operating system I run on the router or the computers involved, and it has followed me across a half-dozen widely scattered addresses. I can’t predict when some page I visit will trigger this, but I recognize it for what it is because it is absolutely not random.
Two things: (1) I’d love to know if others have run into this particular thing. Then, even if only a few can confirm it, (2) I would suggest this is just the first symptom of things to come for all of us, particularly Americans.

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Trusting Cynicism; Cynical Trust

Posted on December 20, 2011 by ehurst

We aren’t cynical enough and we don’t trust enough.
Warning: This is a blatantly Christian post. You can substitute your own religious verbiage, but I believe you’ll find the principles universal. Our human logic is typically insufficiently cynical. A the same time, our spiritual logic often fails to trust sufficiently the forces and things which make life worth living.
Someone in meat space asked me if I was going to invest some time in creating a network in case I need to flee the injustice of our government. The first answer is logical cynicism. That is, while I surely believe I am a likely target for some sort of harassment, I doubt there is sufficient competence in the system to be a real threat on the level of facing a SWAT Team or something so overwhelming as that. I doubt I’m worth that much trouble, so I’ll be relegated to the handling of the overworked idiots such a system always attracts.
No, I am actually hardly any threat at all. I don’t use encryption; I hide nothing. Everything I honestly think is out in the open. Cloning my harddrives would hardly reveal anything not already posted publicly on the Net, aside from useless private mutterings which would surprise no one, but bore most. However, the system is diabolical and cares nothing for the truth of things. The system is the god of those who serve it, but it’s the poorest and most incompetent god you can imagine. Challenge it directly and you’ll face the best it has to offer, but that tends to be a precious commodity. So your challenge will have to carry a genuine threat to the god’s convenience. So in my complete honesty, I’m not even bothering with so-called smart tactics. Having served on both sides of this question, I know what to expect, and the Truth which grips me is not likely to cause the system much trouble.
I could miscalculate, but I’m using the best information I have. So far, those calculations have proven rather accurate most of the time. The failure points are when I forget how utterly stupid the system can be in failing to address very real threats. For every Bradley Manning they catch, there’s a dozen very competent leakers taking their time and not getting caught, plus a half-dozen official leakers letting fake information out as bait. It’s all very complex.
There is a basic principle among those who research information security, and it applies for those who research the likes of underground patriot forums. Every effort to milk the system by its weaknesses will always have at least one infiltrator. If you can find the refuge, so can the bad guys. Those moles can take any number of disguises. Perhaps you are aware, for example, most of the Klan and White Power groups are actually led by moles. That is, were it not for FBI agents pretending to be KKK, there might not be any Klan groups organized at all.
Real racists aren’t that stupid. That’s in part because there really is no such thing as a racist, if you use the common definition. Prejudice and racism overlap, but they are not the same thing. A genuine white racist gets along fine in most mixed race settings; they know the difference between fantasy and reality. The real Klan is almost in alliance with the Nation of Islam, because their goals are actually harmonious to some degree. In other words, the real thing is always far more complicated than you would expect. The decision to trust someone who appears to be a fellow-traveler, in whatever you pursue which is officially frowned upon, is always risky.
Should it be necessary for me to flee, it won’t help to have confederates stashed here and there across the map. The needs of the moment are entirely too variable. The thing which grips me so tightly I’ll dare offend the tyrants is the very same thing which says there is a God in Heaven watching over me, and the entire range of prerogatives are in His hands. I’ll make plans based on the evolving situation, but the evolution includes a huge reliance on that mystical union which resides far above my human logic, and serves to drive the sort of behavior which gets me in trouble in the first place. Having come to this place by faith, I’m not going to keep it running by my wits alone. My faith warns me my best plans won’t do much good. Should my Master need me inside the detention system, I’ll be there despite my best efforts. Should He need me out of it, I’ll be moved to take just enough evasive action to remain free.
If you are driven by some other kind of religious devotion, at least be self-honest enough to face what comes with the package. Right now, that means I keep mouthing off as before. I keep my eye upon a consistent application of the same fundamental moral apprehensions and apply them to whatever new idiocy and evil arises. The same God who promotes this brazen prophecy from me is the same God who stood with Daniel in the lions’ den. If I’m wrong, I’ll never know the difference until some time and place when it no longer matters. I’ve already made it obvious I really don’t much care to remain here on earth any longer than is convenient for the God I serve, so my demise is a goal of sorts. That is, I’m looking forward to it, but I’ll endure until the time is right. It’s worth that much to me.
And it still surprises me every day what sort of half-assed stuff works great, and what grand efforts fail.

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