Stuff Happens

I lost my sweet tooth. Apparently I’ve become sensitive to caffeine. After years of drinking quarts of coffee daily, now it seems to be at least part of the issue with my tachycardia episodes. I also lost 10 pounds within days of the surgery. I’ve always liked vegetables, but I’m craving them like never before.

And so it goes. Physical trauma causes changes, though not always so noticeably. While theories abound, nobody can say for sure, and I don’t think I care specifically why in terms of biochemistry, etc. But I never went into shock while bleeding there on the ground. The shock came later when I received some necessarily difficult handling of the wound in the emergency room — sudden dizziness, breaking out in a sweat, etc. However, I do notice one odd thing: PTSD is not the same for any two people. Some folks stay in some kind of mental shock state, while others just go through less traumatic changes like I did. I am not aware of any studies, but it seems those who are in touch with their own bodies and souls bear it much better.

Need I note that having a heart-led awareness is probably the single biggest factor?

I’m no longer using any prosthetic devices of any kind. For now, the biggest goals in recovery are getting that knee to bend normally and persuading the swelling to go down. It’s slow going for both. The knee is smaller by tiny increments every day, and I’m now bending it somewhere around 80° — progress is progress.