This is tribulation. Things are going to come apart. That’s how it works; the Lord is testing His people. But He’s testing a lot of other things, as well, so there’s going to be a lot of breakage. We all get to see how much certain things in our lives matter.
There’s no way to avoid making it unpleasant. The only way you can guard against losing your mind is to be ready in your mind to lose everything. That includes losing people you love. It includes losing activities and options you grew all too comfortable with. You may lose parts of your life that you thought were the reason for living. You’ll have to be ready to find new reasons.
Here’s the thing: It’s okay if you don’t really have a strong sense of mission and calling. What you really need is simply a sense of being chosen for the Kingdom. The purpose of the Kingdom is really simple: God’s glory. It’s the glory of pointing back to Him as the One who made it all and explained it as much as anyone can understand.
It’s the glory of living Biblical Law by the leading of your convictions. It’s reclaiming your lost divine heritage. It’s laying hold of Covenant shalom. And keep in mind that shalom is not a place, but a desire in your soul.
If you can just get hold of that, if you can let it get hold of you, that’s all that really matters. The rest of it will take care of itself. That way you’ll be clinging to the Father and nothing can really hurt you. Don’t question His will; question everything but that.
