The Language of Heaven

In some circles, it is almost trite to say it: “Praise is the language spoken in Heaven.”

That’s because it typically refers to some scripted exercise in emotional manipulation. Yet it remains true that a genuine moment of worship will reestablish your moral priorities and lift your soul from ambient sorrows. I have worked in church music since my teen years. Not because I’m such a great musician — I’m simply competent — but I’m loud and I don’t mind taking the lead.

This is the one thing about virtual communion that I miss most. A recording is still just a recording; it’s not the same as a live experience of communion in worship. What we do here is not a complete spiritual life, but it does indicate the rest. There is a whole big slice of implied fellowship and joy that simply cannot be shared directly via this medium.

And there is also a whole big slice of experiential faith, where you simply live what you believe, things I could never see in the feedback you might offer. You can indicate it by telling it, but you can’t share it directly. It is something we all have to assume takes place, because it has no meaning otherwise.

We can pray for each other, but none of us can lay our hands on each other to share that flaming touch of the Spirit. God can certainly heal long distance, as the Centurion learned when He asked Jesus to heal his servant, but nothing can replace that personal presence of two or more rising just high enough in the Spirit to catch a glimpse of what can and will be.

Revelation is for application, not merely interpretation.

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What Might Have Been

This is the initial post I wrote for that goofy magazine. You’ll notice that it takes a slightly different tack than what I post here, but still retains the essence of our mission.

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Every human aspiration to make the world a better place carries the seeds of its own destruction.

It becomes particularly obvious when we examine the rise and fall of empires and civilizations. Yet, even on the smaller scale of various political endeavors of our time, we see the same tendency to rot from within. What begins as a driving hunger against the existing system, once it succeeds and becomes mainstream, hardens into a bureaucracy that seeks to prevent change in the status quo. The creative genius of visionaries is replaced with the dehumanizing hive-mind — sometimes within the very same set of people who started the whole thing. This is the nature of human political activity.

We should hardly be surprised to find ourselves today at the ragged end of Western Civilization. Like it or not, this thing has run its course. Those who would seek to preserve what they deem the purity and vitality of past glories complain of all the invasive new trends that are obviously shredding things, but they fail to see that the destructive tendencies were there all along. Today’s whiny college dweeb scrabbling for an emotional safe space from micro-aggressions is not some insidious new attack on mainstream culture; it’s a direct derivative of the fundamental weaknesses. Every human endeavor has its own strengths and weaknesses, and Western Civilization is no exception.

The blindness to that truth comes from being too deeply absorbed into the ambient cultural myths. You cannot usefully evaluate Western Civilization using Western values. We can probably justify suggesting that the Enlightenment was the pinnacle of Western creative ferment, but if you can’t step outside of your admiration for it, you can’t see the inevitable breakage hidden within. For those pickled in the glory of it, the flaws don’t matter. Perhaps the early leading minds of the Enlightenment could turn a cynical eye to the mirror, but that died when it became the mainstream. You cannot mainstream a wise self-cynicism.

At least, you cannot do that in Western Civilization. You can write it as the essential rhetoric of the culture, but there’s nothing you can do to write it on the human soul if your culture fundamentally rejects the notion of the soul. The signal flaw of Western Civilization is the essential materialism of all assumptions. It presumes a reality confined to this universe, confined to what our reason and senses can handle. Could you step outside the cultural biases of the West, you would realize that even the vast varieties of Christian religion are locked into this narrow outlook. For all the talk of Heaven and Hell, the entire belief structure still drags them down into this realm of existence.

As you might expect, even as people begin to lose their sense of belonging to Western Civilization, church membership as a whole declines. At the same time, religious sensibilities are rising. Atheism is dying, too, because it arose from the same intellectual fabric as Western Christian religion. Even the most radical new wave of churches still share entirely too much with the dying culture. Can we remake religion as a human activity so that it better answers the evolving sense of spiritual pull for whatever follows Western Civilization?

By no means do I pretend I am some visionary genius about what’s coming toward us. Rather, I’m a pretty ordinary clergyman — using even that label cautiously. Of what I am far more certain is a sense of where I have to go in my calling, something that made me unpalatable to the existing institutional Christian structures. A painful departure, to be sure, but that was a decade in the past. Since then, I believe I’ve found a place that answers the driving convictions of my faith. That it works so well for me made it worth telling others. That others have since joined me seems to justify sharing it more widely, in that they appear to have found the same sense of peace.

What makes it revolutionary in any sense at all is what holds us together. We are a virtual parish, none of us having ever met in the flesh. It’s about as decentralized as it can be and still retain any sense of community. We’ve adapted to changing human social habits. Instead of grousing about people everywhere having their eyes glued to some electronic device, we strive to understand it and use it. That’s where people are; instead of failing at dragging them back, we take the whole thing into that world.

We also try to understand how it was that the the vitality was stolen away from those first few congregations in the First Century Mediterranean Basin. It’s part of the same robbery we see repeated over the centuries of church history. How did a wholly non-Western religion fall victim to the materialistic orientation of the West? It’s not as if we can go back and reclaim all the trappings of those times, but maybe we can at least discern some essential character that is more wired into human nature itself. So instead of working so hard to define a religion, we aim more at meta-religion. What makes a religion work? If we define “religion” as a human response to some ineffable spiritual drive, can we then capture something from those First Century churches that answers that drive in our context today? Can we make the cynical eye on the mirror normative and not lose track of higher purpose?

I like to believe that it’s possible to treat religion as fungible and discard whatever can’t follow us into tomorrow, and eventually into eternity.

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Not Trendy

I was invited by the secretive and ghostly unnamed party running My Trending Stories to join their stable of writers. I gave them an honest shot, even going so far as writing a first article to post.

But I couldn’t post. I couldn’t even fill out the basic profile. Their site refused to let me post a bio or upload any photos. I informed them, but there was no response. Failure to acknowledge trouble is a very bad sign of unprofessional handling of an operation that pretends to be that big.

Worse, this site prods writers to engage the bogus trendy noise of Facebook, Twitter and other meaningless social crap. Somewhere around my third planned article I would have been directly castigating the management for promoting the very thing you and I know is part of what’s wrong with our world. Yes, they tried to seduce me into moral failure.

A good metaphor would be the difference between Paul using the Roman Roads to travel the empire and spread the gospel, versus trying to join the Roman Army for whom those roads were built. It’s not a question of whether Roman soldiers could find redemption, but it would lead eventually to shedding that uniform one way or another. Paul was beyond that and moving farther.

I don’t fit in the trendy social media uniform, either.

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Depressing Deception

Our declining Western culture is shot through with false dichotomies. Sometimes it’s a prophetic duty to point them out.

We are neither part of the Green religion, nor do we support blind exploitation of natural resources. We believe the heart will tell you about as much as you can ever know about nature, and that we are under no moral obligation to construct a detailed agreement to act in unison. Consensus is enough for fellowship and moral communion among humans and with the natural world around us.

God created for His own ineffable pleasure. We characterize that as “for His glory.” The key to understanding anything is seeking to please God. Whatever bundle of feelings that image provokes in you is a reflection of your own fallen nature. The point is that our fundamental nature as humans is wired and programmed to seek His favor. The subjective experience is part of nature, a part of Creation and tainted by the Fall.

Your own flesh and your conscious awareness are natural resources, too. They exist to use for His glory. The complex of things that pass through your head, in a certain sense, cannot be sorted easily into good and bad, certainly not in any objective sense. There is no objective good and evil; it’s always contextual.

At the same time, we are forced to understand a cultural context that we wish we didn’t have to face. If we don’t keep a hand on the false Western perspective, we can’t speak to those still soaking in it on how to climb out. It’s a painful tension for us to live in our hearts and remember what it felt like to wallow in the pitiful blindness of living only in our heads. There is no miracle cure to take away that tension.

Each of us feels different kinds of sorrow about that. I share with some of you a tendency to depression. Sometimes I’m closer to anger. A part of the blessing here is to realize that feelings are just feelings, neither evil nor good. They can be instructive, serving as clues to meditate for a heart-led step up in holiness. Sometimes it just hurts and there’s nothing to do but wait while doing what you know is right. Faithfulness comes from somewhere beyond even the heart, higher up in the Spirit Realm. The heart’s job is to decide, to commit and keep driving the flesh to live in purity. The actual power is purely divine.

Our cultural mythology doesn’t understand depression. We attack it like some evil, instead of recognizing that it’s part of our natural world. It doesn’t require eradication; it requires careful consideration as to what part it should play. Yes, I know that in some ways depression means feeling nothing at all. It’s a painful lack of vitality. Something inside is dying and we don’t know how to mourn because we don’t even know what it is. Human flesh has no power to deal with that, but the heart is a level of Life that need not be trapped that way.

The heart-mind is not a magic pill. It is a singular potential; nothing else available to us here in this world can match it. It takes a long time to get used to focusing awareness without data, but the heart doesn’t trade much in data; heart-led awareness transcends mere thought. It is an entirely different kind of thing without words.

Depression is the cry of the flesh in precisely the same way that a nasty algae bloom is a cry of nature that something is terribly out of sync with God’s plans for us. Neither is particularly evil, just a part of the natural continuum of consequences for choices within the context of the Fall. It stinks and you don’t want to be around it, but are you going to just leave that mess for someone else? The only evil here is the choice to avoid taking responsibility. We should learn to expect such things, given the context.

A critical element in the Fall is denying it. Whatever redemption is available requires embracing the truth of the Fall. The notion that we shouldn’t have to deal with all the pain is a lie. The notion that we shouldn’t encounter depression is a lie that prevents the most blessed possible solution God has for it. Have you ever noticed that you can be slogging through depression and still touch that joy unspeakable? Your heart knows it’s true.

And if you don’t face depression, count your blessings and keep an eye out for some other painful consequence of the Fall. Either way, we need to stop norming on a happy and pain-free existence, because that image is a lie.

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Political Failure

God reigns and supports no existing political party; He simply uses human political activity to carry out His plans on earth. However, His Law Covenants make it clear that if you want Him to actually bless your political activity, you need to make Him a party to them. And the only way He’ll participate is as Lord over an Eastern feudal setting. In other words, God’s politics are in the family.

It’s not as if families can’t fail. Instead, if there is one social and political structure that stands a chance of God’s approval, it starts with the family, and families work best adhering to ANE feudal customs.

All other political structures always fail. They all bear the seeds of their own destruction. That’s because they all have some kind of goal, some endeavor to change this world. Families don’t need a goal; the family itself is the only cause the matters. But non-family political efforts are inherently flawed in one way or another. You cannot come up with a political dream that isn’t broken and subject to God’s wrath in the long run.

You’ve seen it all before. At the lower end of the scale, someone comes up with a dream to fix something and invite others to get involved. They are the underdogs, up against the system. Those that succeed at all do so only by making a space in the mainstream or by hijacking the mainstream, but sooner or later they become the mainstream. Once they do, they are now forced to defend against some other underdog. The former revolutionaries are now conservative bureaucrats. It’s not about the people, but their relative position in the system.

Families may strive to change their situation, but the purpose is not the change they seek, but the prosperity of the family. Next week might see some other campaign on behalf of the family. And a covenant family is still a family, if the members can truly commit the way families do by instinct.

Have you noticed that way too many churches don’t act like families, but more like political movements?

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More Writing Work? (Busted)

Try as I might, whatever it is I actually do from day to day requires I spend more time in front of a computer than is optimal for human flesh. This is where I serve in the sense of touching humanity with His truth. I joke that I’ll be found dead slumped over my keyboard someday. I no longer love messing with computers, so maybe that signals I’m in the place to get more done with them instead of on them. As we head into the Networking Age, there is nothing I can do to avoid the exposure to the EMF, so what’s left is perhaps mitigation. God knows how much I’d rather do this face to face with humans in meat space.

Somehow this blog has gotten some attention I had not anticipated. Not the trolls; they’ve always been around. I’m referring to some kind online magazine. The person contacting me says it’s based in New York City, and that they hope to begin advertising this site soon. As you might expect I’m a little skeptical, but I suppose it won’t hurt to accept their invitation to submit a couple of articles weekly for awhile to see what happens. They promise it’s not restrictive like the old media would be, and I would surrender neither creative nor copyright control. I’ll be one of many writers, but the site claims to expect a high profile.

But rather than repost stuff from here, I sense this might be a good time to restate what this parish is all about while addressing a somewhat different audience. Looks to me like it’s a far younger audience that already has little loyalty to Western Civilization, but perhaps refined enough to know that is. But when I post something there, I’ll link back here when it’s published.

If you happen to know something about that site, feel free to comment. I haven’t discovered who is behind it because they are masked by GoDaddy and no one else seems to know. At any rate, I’ll let you know how this turns out.

Update: It’s a failure. I’m updating in a separate post.

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Virtual Touch

Religion is in your head; faith is in your heart. True religion from faith is in your hands.

I realize how difficult it is to portray faith in mere words on a computer screen. If all we have is the intellectual exchange, then we have nothing at all. And yet, Christ had full confidence that His parables were sufficient to guide people who didn’t know anything about Him. He insisted that parables were a reliable way of passing signals to hearts. Maybe it would help if you read some of this stuff aloud to yourself. We are taught in school that it’s inefficient for data transmission, but I’m not really interested in that. I’m trying to show you my heart, not my thoughts.

Try reading the Bible aloud instead of silently. Then again, some of us are internally vocal — when I read Scripture, there’s a voice in my head reading the words in ways that tend to hinder my hearing of ambient sounds in my physical space. My mind assigns a voice. And naturally, some people tell me that my writing comes across as narrative, which is wholly intentional. The point is that there is a mystical connection in the aural reception and our hearts. I’m aware of the various modes of learning and how people tend to one or another — visual, tactile, auditory and textual — but from what I’ve seen, the heart is best connected to the narrative. The narrative is a manifestation of interpersonal acquaintance, something on an entirely different level of learning.

So when I sit down to write, I often have only some germ of an idea what I need to address. But once I start writing, my heart gets involved and it often goes in wholly unexpected directions. Sometimes I’m embarrassed to discover that my mind has forgotten things I’ve written. My heart still knows and reaffirms what I wrote in the background, but my brain seems to have lost track. It still represents me, but it may not have lodged firmly in my intellect.

It reminds me that the intellect is part of the flesh and affected by the Fall. Intellect gladly forgets some things that are hard to bear, or simply beyond the grasp of reason. My human curiosity loves to explore and catalog ideas and concepts, but my heart grows weary of traveling too far afield from the thoughts that connect to my faith and calling. So my clinical training has an effect on my thinking, but I’m far more interested in actual people. If your comments reach toward a narrative that unveils your soul, I’m much more absorbed and attentive. Despite the restrictions of the medium, your online persona is much more important to my heart than what’s in your head.

The nature of moral discernment is personal, because it’s always a manifestation of God’s personal character. It’s that knowing on a different level. So your beliefs hold meaning to me only as they are embedded in your character. I’m not interested in comparing theology. I want to know you. I need to build an image of you as a person. While you are splattering bits and bytes onto a server through the hardware channels of the Internet, my heart is looking for things it can recognize. You do well to put your heart in command of your typing, because that’s what my heart is looking for.

And if you can trust the medium enough to offer other clues to your personal identity, it always helps me love you better. Sure, we have way too much of folks dumping countless selfies on social media the way a child rattles verbally everything that crosses his/her mind. But I’m not sure we can carry on as a parish if we live in fear of some evil presence on the Net lurking to catalog your consumer or terrorist profile (yes, they have a whole scoring system for each). And you can send email or even text and call my cellphone; just ask.

Let’s touch each other’s lives as best we can to discover more about God living in Creation.

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Bibliography

Aside from the lightweight references I used in my A Course in Biblical Mysticism, some of you may take an interest in looking more at some of my studies on the background of the Bible.

Old Testament Survey: The Message, Form, and Background of the Old Testament; William Sanford LaSor, David Allan Hubbard and Frederick William Bush; 1982 William B. Eerdmans Publishing Company; ISBN 0-9028-3556-2. Online prices vary around $30 US. It’s about as cheap as you’ll get for a graduate level text on OT History and related material.

The Life and Times of Jesus the Messiah; Alfred Edersheim. You can find it free online and some print editions are available; I have a PDF copy on my FTP server. Among other things, this is where you can find precise documentation from a converted rabbi on how the rabbinical schools circa 300 BC began buying into Hellenism.

Eerdman’s Handbook to the Bible; ed. David Alexander and Pat Alexander; 1973 William B. Eerdmans Publishing Company; ISBN 0-8028-3436-1. Several editions and printings exist and they are cheap. It’s good stuff for a quick overview, with lovely charts showing timelines, feasts, weights and measures, coinage, etc.

You can read Josephus if you keep in mind that his work isn’t self-consistent and is loaded with hearsay. The point is to catch glimpse of a Hellenized rabbinical scholar of Jesus’ time.

Finally, for those of you learning to study the Bible heart-led, I discovered some time ago that I am not the only guy who can read an interlinear text of the Bible and absorb things that my mind doesn’t recognize until later. I won’t pretend to explain it, but when I prepare my study notes for posting and for publication in the Ancient Truth series, I spend time reading through the text in both Greek and Hebrew interlinear translations and it made a difference, particular with Hebrew. You have to remember that it reads right to left in the text, but even that seems to be part of triggering something deep in the human soul…

The Interlinear Bible; Jay P. Green, Sr.; 1986 2nd Edition is printed by Hendrickson Publishers; ISBN 0-913573-25-6. It’s expensive; I stumbled across a copy for sale in the foyer of a Charismatic church in Aachen, Germany and thought it was a good buy at $50 US. You might stumble across a used copy for as little as $35, but it’s not often, last time I checked. Beware that some editions are only the New Testament and I’ve seen it offered deceptively because demand is still pretty strong.

This might be a good start. Nothing beats a good solid course with someone who really knows this stuff, but this will help you decide if a bigger investment is worth it. As always, you need to consciously develop your own biases, because we all have them.

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Another Frivolous Post

Yours truly.

Yours truly.

I’m updating my picture since I’ve started growing the hair and beard. This was shot with my wife’s cellphone. Not that it matters that much, but I note in passing that the marvelous little Coolpix camera I’ve been using is dying on me. It locks up and requires frequent resets by pulling that battery. I suppose this is what I’ll use my PayPal account for because, come what may, I’m not finished with photography. Oh, and this one of the few “Christian message” shirts I actually approve of.

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RIP: Jess Hurst

My younger brother, Jessie T. Hurst passed today around 6:30 PM, at age 46.

We were close in the sense of siblings. He shared none of my interest in religion, but was grateful that I would always visit him when things were tough. He lived a hard and rebellious life from his youth, with time in federal and state confinement. He was far more intelligent than I, but very strong willed. Over the past few years his health deteriorated, but he refused to seek treatment. Knowing how he did things, all we could do was stand back and watch him die slowly. Today things went critical and his wife called to ask if I would come drag him to the hospital, since he refused her urging. By the time I arrived, I found him unresponsive, no pulse or breath, and cold. I tried CPR but his lungs were blocked. The paramedics worked for a while, but to no avail.

He is survived by his wife Leslie, and teenage daughters Katie and Allison.

While I appreciate your condolences, you might guess that I’m not particularly distraught. I’ll miss him, but he made his choices fully informed. I’ve mourned him for years and now it’s all done. He’s in the hands of God.

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