About That Booklet

Some of you have emailed me privately about the proposed booklet on Radix Fidem. I was hoping to use encouraging words, but I think some of you are resisting conviction on this, so I’ll be blunt: God will not let me do this by myself. If my readers don’t contribute to this little project, then it won’t happen. I’m not going to point fingers because I’m not God, but I’m willing to bet He’s tapping some of you on the shoulder. Some of you seem willing to give money, but we don’t need money for this (not until we have something to print). What does money mean if you can’t pitch in a little labor of love? How do you know God can’t use you to write if you never try?

So if I never get any submissions — send it any way you like — I’ll have to let it die.

Update: Just a reminder that this is a booklet that offers a slightly longer explanation of Radix Fidem than what we already have in the pamphlet. I would like to see a few paragraphs on each item in the list of features, or you can write something totally different that explains something about how it works. We need to tell the world, in broad generic terms, what sets us apart from all the other labels they already know about.

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Reviewing Paul’s Letters

I’m currently working back through my book on Paul’s Letters, updating and clarifying some things. A couple of items stick out.

Sovereignty — It’s not Calvinism. Calvin was hardly the first to notice that God is sovereign; Luther wrote a book about it that Lutherans refuse to read. You can find more obscure references from earlier times. The point is that Paul flatly asserts it in Romans 9, and he does not differentiate between eternal destiny and earthly existence. Paul cites several well-known examples of people God destined before birth to face His wrath. He doesn’t have to explain Himself to any of us. I wrote:

We may well argue about what the term "divine sovereignty" means, but trying to dodge the implication is blasphemous — it reduces God from His own lofty revealed self-portrayal. You can’t make Paul say something he didn’t say in this chapter. The key to understanding predestination is embracing it as a personal truth, as the choice of God to reclaim you individually from the flood of damnation rushing down to Hell. To see it as some impersonal principle is blasphemous, just as objectifying the Law was blasphemous. Jesus was the Law personified, and His own nation rejected Him. They rejected the Law as surely as they closed themselves off from its ultimate purpose.

And in the first few chapters of 1 Corinthians Paul completely destroys the very thing most Western churches do today by mimicking the secular “professional standards” for staffing and using similar guidelines for organizing and running the church operations. They insist there has to be something concretely verifying progress and success so humans who care nothing about God can measure it. Why do we care about their opinions; why do we live as though mere human approval mattered at all? Do these religious leaders imagine that somehow those secular standards are something they control?

This is all based on some false assumption that there could even be such a thing as a “Christian nation.” One more time: “My Kingdom is not of this world,” said Christ. All systems of human government in actual existence (forget your pretty theories) are uniformly damned. True, America was at one time an Enlightenment nation, but it was never a Christian nation for even one second, because the Enlightenment was heathen to the very core. When your fundamental assumptions about reality — when your epistemology — starts with human-centered reason, you cannot pretend it arose from revelation.

Today’s Western Christianity stands condemned by the Bible it waves at everyone.

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Can’t Fix Everything

Some things you can fix. Some parts of my battered Volvo seem like they’ll work until Christ comes back. Other stuff was so poorly engineered that you start having fantasies about pummeling the designers with your bare hands. But the one single greatest blessing of Volvo cars is the very narrow range of models and options, and the huge fan base of guys and gals with mechanical wisdom. So for just about everything that Volvo does poorly and requires fixing, there’s almost always a video explaining and showing how to do it. Sometimes they’ll show you exactly why the particular part fails.

Today I managed to find a video like that for the seat belt retraction spindle on the driver’s side. It was pretty simple to remove the plastic covers and discover that some fool had messed with it already and bungled it. But I knew how it was put together from the video and came up with a temporary fix to prevent the thing from jamming and refusing to pay out the belt so we can use it. And getting a replacement part from the salvage yard will now only take mere minutes, once I find one.

I wish there were videos with instructions for dealing with ambulance companies. If you are ever in any part of Oklahoma serviced by EMSA, you are better off crawling to the hospital.

Don’t get me wrong: The ambulance staff will give you some of the best attentive care you can get from paramedics. But the management of the company is a bunch of vampires. They will gladly save your life and turn you into a blood host for as long as you live. For a five mile non-emergency ride after I got hurt, they wanted $1348.00. If they can’t bill some insurance company for that outrageous amount, they simply turn it over to a collection agency before you can attempt to use credit laws to compel them to take small payments. They save you only to kill you. Yes, I know that you can pay their extortion fees for a membership that you may never use. I don’t live in their low-rate area. I told the Parks and Rec folks I was willing to ride in the back of a pickup to get the VA.

Unless you are wealthy, you might be better off dying. Don’t ride with EMSA. I certainly won’t do it again.

Addenda: By “extortionate fees” I mean the lowest you can pay is $45/month, and in some areas it’s $65/month. That’s food off my table.

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Scars on My Soul

My right knee is beginning to look like a roadmap. But scars in the flesh mean next to nothing in the bigger picture. It’s the scars on my soul that still bother me.

Today I spent time with a dear friend and brother in Christ. Aside from matters of personal faith, we also discussed some shared experiences in a highly politicized church culture in our area. The details aren’t that important; there is nothing to gain from repeating lurid tales of bad experiences. But near the end of the conversation, I voiced the conclusion that I still believe to this day that a certain number of right-wing activists in these churches would not hesitate to resort to violence, perhaps even murder, to ensure events followed a certain course. I say that because of what I learned from other victims of their ways.

It’s almost always about money in the long run. Even when it’s politics, it’s about the money and the comforts it buys. They claim it’s all about honoring God, but their idea of God is closer to Mammon. No god is more demanding of extreme acts of loyalty.

So I confess that I discovered some of my religious ideas after fleeing that atmosphere. That is, it fires my determination to ensure that no one holds any kind of power over the others, that no one amasses wealth by manipulative fund-raising, that we remain utterly decentralized and completely without any real estate interests or other physical facilities of any consequence. If God Himself does not hold us together, nothing else should.

I still weep sometimes when I think of those bad old days.

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Stuff Happens

I lost my sweet tooth. Apparently I’ve become sensitive to caffeine. After years of drinking quarts of coffee daily, now it seems to be at least part of the issue with my tachycardia episodes. I also lost 10 pounds within days of the surgery. I’ve always liked vegetables, but I’m craving them like never before.

And so it goes. Physical trauma causes changes, though not always so noticeably. While theories abound, nobody can say for sure, and I don’t think I care specifically why in terms of biochemistry, etc. But I never went into shock while bleeding there on the ground. The shock came later when I received some necessarily difficult handling of the wound in the emergency room — sudden dizziness, breaking out in a sweat, etc. However, I do notice one odd thing: PTSD is not the same for any two people. Some folks stay in some kind of mental shock state, while others just go through less traumatic changes like I did. I am not aware of any studies, but it seems those who are in touch with their own bodies and souls bear it much better.

Need I note that having a heart-led awareness is probably the single biggest factor?

I’m no longer using any prosthetic devices of any kind. For now, the biggest goals in recovery are getting that knee to bend normally and persuading the swelling to go down. It’s slow going for both. The knee is smaller by tiny increments every day, and I’m now bending it somewhere around 80° — progress is progress.

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Heart-led Parables

Our mysticism is not as their mysticism.

One of the most confusing things we deal with is a vast legacy of Western-style mysticism. The Western version remains cerebral; it does not target a heart-led understanding. Instead, there is some nebulous goal of reaching a higher level of intellect. So you see a lot of Western mystics using tortured grammar in a bid to bump the mind into a higher orbit, as it were.

Consider the Parable of the Sower in Matthew 13. It’s a parable about parables, in one sense. The Twelve did not yet operate from their heart-minds, so they didn’t understand the parable. Jesus gave an explanation that was contextual for His disciples. The wording of the parable itself is contextual, but the spiritual truth within belongs to a higher realm. We don’t bump into higher orbits with our minds; we step into another dimension with our hearts. We aren’t elevating the mind, but subjecting it to a higher faculty.

Parables are seeds of the truth. They echo against our convictions. People with no link to their hearts cannot sense the convictions that God writes on every human heart. Parables beckon to that higher faculty. The Twelve were in that interval between an awakened sense of conviction, but minds poorly trained to respond to faith. Explaining the parable in their own context helped train their minds. The seeds were sown and took root. It waited until the rain of the Holy Spirit sent from above to bring forth fruit.

Did you see how I did that? Can you recognize how what I wrote above was at least an attempt to do what Jesus did for His disciples? I actually mixed two entirely different parabolic images, one from our modern space-faring context and one used by Jesus in His ancient agrarian society. If your awareness is in touch with your convictions, you should have little trouble seizing upon the moral imperatives indicated by my choice of words. You don’t need me to draw boundaries with words, but to indicate paths of exploration. That’s the difference between descriptive language (drawing boundaries around ideas) and indicative language (pointing to something that is boundless).

While we do face a little ambiguity with the term “symbolic logic” due to it’s association with math, there is a well-established meaning from the study of antiquities, a term philosophers use to point out a different approach to language and thinking. That second meaning of the term “symbolic logic” is equivalent to “parabolic logic” — logic of parables. In this case, the symbols are defined in the parabolic imagery of the Old Testament. This is why we need a big dose of ANE studies to bring those Old Testament parables to life. That’s a major intent of Bible study. We strive to breathe life into the ancient tales, to plow the field of the intellect and make it ready to receive divine truth and bear fruit to God’s glory.

But in the end, the truth indicated by parables does not rest on any language. We seek to escape the entire realm of linguistic boundaries. We use whatever language we have to paint signs that invite people to explore places no tongue can go. Our mysticism does not rest in words that the mind can grapple with, but calls for the mind to rest while the heart takes dominion.

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Don’t Get Too Comfortable

(More on the booklet background and our fundamental assumptions…)

I’m hoping you can see the connection between otherworldliness and the principle of disentanglement (my third pillar of Christian Mysticism). All Creation is just a tool for His glory — everything in your human existence in this world is tentative, a disposable tool. That includes every human relationship, even your blood kinships. Jesus said in so many words that if your family ties conflict with His calling in your life, then you’ll have to sacrifice those family ties (Matthew 10:34-40). It’s sad when something God granted as a blessing is so perverted you can’t use it for Him, but that’s the Curse of the Fall.

The accusation of “worldliness” means being too attached to this world. Like Lot’s wife, if you can’t sacrifice everything you know, you are the sacrifice. If you don’t begin to live from your heart by moving your sense of identity into the higher realm of moral discernment, then your own mind becomes the biggest chain of all. You cannot possibly manage your share of Creation’s assets as God intended because you end up blocking out the voice of God. It’s monumental arrogance to demand that God speak to your conscious intellect when He’s made it clear that only your heart is capable of hearing His voice.

This world is not my home;
I’m just a-passin’ through.
My treasures are laid up somewhere beyond the blue.
The angels beckoned me from Heaven’s open door,
and I can’t feel at home in this world any more.

(words and music by Jim Reeves)

It’s not that we always have to accept the worst of this world’s accommodations, but that we invest no lasting interest in them. Does God provide a really fancy facility with lots of money and people? Don’t be trapped by that provision when He next asks you to do something that means abandoning all of that. Don’t allow the people involved to assume — even unconsciously — that the trappings of organization mean anything. That’s not “God’s House;” you are God’s House. If you can’t freely give something, then God can’t replace it with something better. Be aware of the moral context.

The particulars of how the first New Testament churches did things are not sacred. The narrative is loaded with contextual adaptations that may not fit our world today. Don’t make an idol of the things God has created for His glory; serve the Creator and see His glory without the stuff. This is the only way we can hope to bring His glory to life in our own context as we enter a time of great tribulation.

His glory is all the matters in this life.

Addenda: As a matter of vocabulary, please distinguish between “this world” and “Creation.” The former is a biblical figure of speech referring to the prevailing human culture, typical in defiance or ignorance of revelation. Creation is a term for everything that isn’t God’s divine Person. There is a connotation that Creation refers mostly to the unfallen part of our world, whereas “this world” is most distinctly fallen. If you are aware of these as specific terms, the context will usually indicate how these and related terms are used.

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Booklet Background

Let’s review some perspective we already know.

Religion is the struggle to answer a spiritual imperative.

Radix Fidem is not actually a religion, but an exercise in meta-religion. We strive to shed light on the process of answering the divine call. Everyone must develop their own religion; it is immoral to pass the job off to someone else. God calls individuals through the heart of convictions, and no other human can decide what God requires of you. What ties us together in communion is a contextual overlap in the results of that individual struggle. Our communion under the name “Radix Fidem” is a simple matter of sharing a certain amount of conviction about how one sets about the task of responding to God.

We all start under the Curse of the Fall. God calls us and we respond from within that context of our first awareness. Something in us comes to life and begins to hunger and thirst for His revelation; we truly want to please Him. It seems only natural that whatever religion grows from that desire will be like any other living thing, always growing and changing as we slowly escape the effects of the Curse. We seek to conform to His divine character and it cannot happen at once. Indeed, the promises in His revelation assume a life dedicated to endless seeking for a closer communion with Him.

But we never walk alone in this world. A critical element in revelation is the assurance that we will share a strong family kinship with others who are determined to please the same God. His revelation is actually quite functional in this matter. We do not allow our impulse to formalize our personal religion to serve as an excuse to push others away. Instead, we seek to discern just what can be shared and cooperate on that basis. Some will be closer than others; sometimes it’s life long and other times only until we are driven in different directions by our individual growth. We don’t cease caring about someone called onto a different path, but we cannot waste our Father’s resources chasing a human relationship that He didn’t grant.

But the purpose was never efficiency or accomplishment as humans measure such things. It was always a matter of shedding just one more layer of death and deception from our lives. It’s about living according to His divine character in communion with the rest of Creation. The mind does not rule; it was meant to serve the moral imperatives of conviction written in our hearts. We seek to conform to the divine character of God, to glorify Him by claiming all the blessings inherent in His revelation.

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Proposal: Radix Fidem Booklet

You knew I was plotting something, right?

I believe we need a booklet that expands on our Radix Fidem pamphlet. I suppose the simplest way to go about it is try to produce a short chapter for each item.

This is a parish wide call for participation. I don’t care if you’ve never so much as clicked “like” on one the posts here; you are welcome to participate. Those of you most active will at least need to be ready to act as an editorial board, so to speak.

I don’t want to restrict how people do this, only that we enter into a cooperative spirit. You can decide to collaborate if that’s your style, or take charge of one or more chapters, but whatever the case, you should obviously feel driven by conviction to get involved. However, a primary qualification is that you tend to feel unworthy. That’s the starting place for all my blather on this blog. It’s the apprehension that you will likely fail but you just can’t say “no” to God’s calling.

Take some time to pray. In the near future I’ll try to help set the tone by drafting some kind of introduction, or at least a preface. And if you would prefer to steal that role, jump right on it. This is my blog, but it’s your parish. It’s a parish because you choose to participate, and I want to ensure readers of this proposed pamphlet know it’s not a one-man cult-like thing.

Whaddaya say?

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Realm without Words

What can I tell you?

I don’t want meaning. I want peace and faith. I want a connection to the Creator so that I can discern His character directly in Creation. What my mind can make of these things is useless until I know the ultimate value God places on everything. So you can keep your content, words and meaning; I’m looking for something that is too powerful for words, too big for mere thought.

In a previous post I proposed a theory of sorts about why I felt so driven to take pictures. It’s not simply that a picture is worth a thousand words, but that some pictures speak a language above the intellect. Nobody has to admire my camera work; don’t look unless you feel something beyond your mind telling you there is something you need to see. That’s because those pictures are nothing more than a feeble attempt to grab something that calls to me on that higher level. I don’t claim it’s skill or talent, but an imperative that drives me from far above myself. God speaks without words, at least words as we know them.

I can’t tell you anything that really matters. My words, pictures and other output here might serve to indicate things that matter, but they don’t matter themselves. That’s the nature of parable and symbolism in the Bible. What really matters is in the realm of the heart. Everything else is, at best, just sign posts indicating a path for exploration. They beckon you to enter that Land without Words.

All I can tell you is my own reaction to what I find. Go, look for yourself.

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