I’m an introvert. This short list covers it well enough in my case. For example, I can preach to a huge audience and get them to listen; people tell me I have energy and charisma in the pulpit. But I’m not much good for awhile after the message is delivered. Chitchat is hard work for me, and I really hate talking on the phone. I’ll do it because I care about people, but it’s a discipline. I really don’t enjoy it unless it’s something very absorbing.
Perhaps you notice that most of those traits don’t mean anything online. If all you know about me is what you experience from my virtual persona, my introverted personality may never register with you. Still, a physical church congregation is highly unlikely to coalesce around me here because that is not how I’m wired. I’ll do what I can to help folks around me with whatever they need, but it simply isn’t in me to gather a congregation. That requires talents I don’t have. More importantly, it requires a calling I don’t have.
My calling is prophetic in effect; prophets have typically been introverts. Not every one of them, not all the time, but it’s a trend you can spot in how they operate in their social context. There were moments in Jesus’ life when He seemed introverted, though it’s not consistent. A part of me would rather be gregarious and involved, but I’d get nothing done that matters to me. I tend to believe it’s a symptom, not a fundamental cause in itself. I’m not tormented by introversion; I don’t pray for “healing” from that. I’ve been tormented and healed from far worse things, and I’m praying others are healed, too.
What matters most to me is setting people free from artificial constraints so that they can discover their heart-mind. While my personal orientation is clearly flavored by my evangelical background, but you’ll never catch me telling you that it’s the only possible way you can be heart-led. In fact, I don’t even insist you pay attention to the Bible or Christian religion at all. The issue with my religion is letting you know that, if you hang around here, that’s what you’ll get. As long as you can humor me, there’s nothing to prevent however much involvement as you can swallow. More important than echoing me is that I see evidence you are living with your reason subservient to your heart.
On the other hand, I do know that walking heart-led tends to manifest in certain moral trends. So I teach those as the norm from my limited perspective. We might not agree in detail; it may take a while for you to decide you get what I’m saying. However, it has been pretty consistent that people who get the heart-led existence tend to share certain larger moral concerns. If nothing else, you are likely to embrace the danger of relying on human reason. You won’t put too much trust in what people say is reasonable and just when it clearly comes from a moral logic that excludes the leadership of the heart-mind. In the broadest terms, we all seem to agree that materialism and its resulting philosophical orientation is a serious mistake.
And the content of any moral decisions based on that orientation isn’t the point. I don’t care what side you root for; chances are they are all wrong because they are all based on something far below a heart-led morality. Show me a government that so much as permits a tribal social structure and some limited feudal government natural to that setting and I’ll migrate and pledge allegiance today. Until then, my loyalty to any government is conditional, and I’m likely to avoid their attention as much as possible. And agitation or attempts to demand an opportunity to live by biblical morals is simply not a heart-led moral choice. I’m not interested in bringing down any government, either.
That includes the modern State of Israel. That includes the political movement we call Zionism. I don’t like those things, but it’s because they are based on certain deceptions that I consider worse than most. In other words, the real issue is the dead-heart morality behind Israel and Zionism, and the resulting heretical theology of Dispensationalism.
I’m praying for God to bring His wrath to bear against sin globally, in part because I’m convinced the cycle of His actions are headed in that direction. I’m quite certain it will mean radical changes in the political landscape. I don’t pretend to know the details, only that it’s consistent with how God has acted throughout history. I’m pretty sure of my prophetic word that the current governing system of the US will be destroyed, but I can’t pretend to know how it will look on the ground. I assume it will mean social instability and some increased bloodshed for awhile, and I’m going to guess that the US will be broken into smaller regional states, but that’s just my brain trying to make sense of something my heart knows. I assume it also indicates that the little country of Israel will be destroyed in a similar sense, though perhaps with a much harsher collapse.
I suppose there’s nothing wrong with praying for or against any particular nation, as you feel led by your heart, but that’s not the focus of my writing here. I’m focused on breaking the mass of Christian believers free from the bondage to a false belief. Not that they would believe what I believe, but that whatever they believe, it’s the result of being led by their hearts, not someone else’s reasoning and logic. I want to see Dispensational Theology discredited in some way that Christians are given a chance to hear and see a different belief. Dispensationalism rests on human reasoning, not on Scripture and certainly not from any heart-mind awareness.
It would be nice if Western Christianity as a whole were to divorce itself from this fake Israel, I would consider it an answered prayer if believers simply have to chance to see it for what it is. Let them see what a hollow, inflated bag of nonsense this is, and decide for themselves if they can walk away from that. Just having the lies exposed would be the single biggest miracle I can imagine.
