Unilateral Warmth

I’m going to be your friend just to spite you.
Critical to Christian Mysticism is how we blend the Three Pillars together as elements of a single drive. It’s the drive to be, do and manifest the truth. Bringing the truth closer to you, and you closer to it, is in the truth’s best interest and yours. I can’t possibly do any better. Your feelings on the matter are immaterial in that sense.
This commitment is how we have the strength to do Game, for instance. More than simply ignoring what feminism claims, we fight feminism by treating women according to the reality of what Game teaches. It’s in their best interest, and any attempt to reflect on what they may or may not feel about it is all wrong. Same way when women fight feminism in their men. Often enough truth is very hard to enunciate, so we simply live it as best we can and ignore the lies in people’s heads.
Truth makes us care because people are the battlefield, the turf to be won. Truth makes us not care because what people think and feel is almost impossible to change. That is, we know there is no method of reaching inside someone else’s head without breaking from the truth. We can be fully aware of all the entire process, but if we don’t force them to decide for themselves, we have lied.
This is the gospel; this is Game; this is mysticism.
I don’t care what you like or don’t like; I’m going to care about you.

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Ancient Truth: 2 Corinthians Updated

The next volume in the series, Ancient Truth: Paul’s Letters, progresses apace.

Finished content and grammatical revision of Paul’s 2nd Corinthian letter. You can see the results here (site gone) under the appropriate links.

Up next: Galatians.

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TMOC Association

Let’s see what happens…

Welcome to The Mind of Christ (TMOC) Association.

The only reason anyone bothers to organize in any way at all is because some humans share a common concern and want to make things happen, even if all that means is learning and sharing ideas. While TMOC Association hopes to change people, we believe all good change in the world comes from inside people.

TMOC Association arises from the internal changes suggested by the book, The Mind of Christ (TMOC). The book itself strives to make clear no human writing can contain the whole truth, nor in all contexts accurately report the truth. The book is simply one attempt at indicating the truth and giving some form and identity to the association.

Requirements for joining TMOC Association:

1. Commit to reading the book. You don’t have to agree with everything it says, only try to understand it. There must be a common starting point or no association has any meaning.

2. Take seriously the message of the book. Membership in the Association assumes you find some useful possibilities for good changes in the world that arise from the sort of thinking proposed in the book. The book is not the source of truth, just one guide.

3. Promise yourself you’ll make some internal changes based on the book.

4. Generalities: You don’t have to love Jesus nor even believe in Him, but you have to realize the Association membership mostly does. Don’t attack that belief. Don’t take yourself too seriously. If something is said which doesn’t grab you, let it pass. Differences can’t be avoid; what matters is what we share. Don’t be afraid to voice a different understanding on things, but only when it helps things move forward, when it helps others reduce false expectations for you.

5. Be flexible about the Association itself. Rules drift in and out according to the purpose, and changes will always reflect the tenor of who is involved.
Procedures: To join the TMOC Association, simply tell others you are a member, preferably including whomever is keeping track of such things. [That would be me for now.] You leave the Association when you stop saying you are a member, and especially if you announce you aren’t.

The coordinator will record as much membership ID data as you see fit. However the whole purpose is sharing ideas, which assumes a certain amount of communication. Thus, a reasonable minimum would be a nickname and some means of contact.

Update: Nothing happened. The idea died within days and no one joined. Such is life.

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User Abuse

If I can get the Senior Editor’s attention, this article will be posted at Open for Business in the next day or so. My readers here get to see it first.
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I remember my first encounter with a computer was in high school calculus, an Olivetti Programma 101. It was actually part of our curriculum to program the arithmetic steps for summations. A decade later, I was learning DOS on a military computer. Not the underlying technology; I became the training guru for our Enable office suite. I also wrote all the automation scripts in Enable for the forms we had to process. I still use a copy of Enable O/A on my XP laptop.
I also wrote a lot of other instructional material in the military because my superiors said I had a knack for it. Then I got hurt and left the military. Back home, I started writing a book, but the pile of papers quickly grew out of control. When I got a battered old DOS machine, the writing became more serious. As better computers fell into my paltry price range, I found distracting all the newness of Windows and graphical office suites. Going back to college a second time, I encountered WordPerfect in the computer lab and fell in love. I still run a copy of WP 6.1 on my XP laptop; nothing compares to Grammatik, but I can’t afford the more recent versions.
At some point, I discovered Linux. I can recall the thrill of getting my mouse to work when I stumbled across a RedHat 5.0 book with the disks in the back. I always thought Another Level was a great desktop, if lacking the highly integrated functions of Windows. I surfed with Netscape Navigator 3.06 for several months before I discovered updates. Nor can I forget buying Applix 4, then the thrill of getting my hands on the retail box of WordPerfect 8 for Linux. Despite the occasional crash with it on RedHat 6.3, I thought it was wonderful. Applix 5 was cool, too. I still have the boxed sets for WP8, Applix 5, and RH 6.3, but no hardware old enough to run any of it. Then I became really unhappy with font rendering, and it was a major issue over the next few years. Xfree86 4.x came as a real relief.
I was still working on that book, but progress was slow because I was eternally distracted with usability issues. I knew it could be better, and the Open Source community kept promising it would be better. I kept believing.
Meanwhile, I got involved in volunteer computer assistance work. Not so much tech support but I focused on user training. I could fix hardware and software issues, but I spent the vast majority of my time helping people understand what computers could and couldn’t do. I always took the line people were the reason computers existed, not the other way around. I’m not into the joy of computing so much as how it makes some jobs quicker and simpler. Computers have always been just a tool. For someone aspiring to write and teach, it was my best and most important tool, but never more than just a tool.
Over the years, I’ve discovered far, far too many of those most capable with computers were the least capable with people. In the commercial software world, you don’t have to care about the customer, only convince them you do. When it comes to dollars, you have to respond to user input to some degree or lose those dollars. There are people in management and marketing who understand this, and won’t hire developers who don’t at least work toward producing software they can sell to the consumer. In Open Source, the roles are reversed. The coders are demigods and those who serve as management and marketing are dependent, and much closer.
Meanwhile, the user is totally left out in the cold by both types of software production.
I understand the sociology of the software market, how it can both lead and respond to business at the same time. I understand the necessity of both standardization and competition, and how people as a whole get used to whatever dominates the markets they work. It’s no mystery to me Microsoft seems to tolerate a certain measure of piracy simply because it keeps them dominant. It’s basically free advertising at the grass roots level. Just because you have a better idea in terms of how computers themselves work does not mean it’s better in terms of how people work.
You see, users seem to think support is important. They’ll sacrifice some things to get that. It won’t matter how pure and elegant the technology is if they can’t get help with things they don’t understand. That is pretty much my whole mission in volunteer work. It’s always a compromise; I help the user negotiate the possibilities. For example, commercial software companies often provide fixes it seems they never bothered to advertise. Open Source seldom offers fixes to the stuff that gets your attention, only full replacements — “fixed in the next release.” That is anti-user. Too often, that replacement comes with too much relearning of new habits, or a whole range of new breakage. While that’s true to some degree from both sources, Open Source seems almost hostile to user input on the issues.
Very few Open Source project managers understand the concept of stability of a product and fixing the good features already included. Once users incorporate software into their work routine, they don’t want significant changes. They aren’t computer technicians, and cannot be techies if they are to accomplish anything else. It’s enough work just getting used to computers as part of the routine; computers cannot become the whole routine. Wholesale replacement had better be far better than the previous stuff, and not any significantly different in how it works. Users don’t care what constitutes techie habits. They want technology harnessed to their habits. They’ll compromise, but frequent wholesale changes is not compromise, it’s user abuse.
Open Source is the worst about that sort of abuse. Too often intermediaries (distributions) have full replacement control serving entirely different agendas from both the developers and users. Getting the projects to talk to distros is nearly impossible, except when they both agree you have to replace everything. In addition, it’s not just backward compatibility, but there are the maddening complications of getting a new version without having to change everything else. I can replace something the size of Nano editor without much trouble, and older libraries compile newer versions for quite some time moving forward, but the whole desktop? Moreover, the entire system of Linux software provision shifts constantly with vast numbers of players, so that trying to keep track of it is impossible if I am to have any time left for helping people, which is the whole point.
Right now, the very most stable distributions aim only at the corporate server market, not the user desktop. Why do you think people still keep trying to run MS Office 97 on their newer versions of Windows? What they use most needs to change least once it does a respectable job of meeting their needs. It’s the same reason MS Security Essentials is now a dominant anti-malware product; it’s the least intrusive while getting the job done. You simply cannot make high security a priority if it’s too much work. If you want people to use the stuff, keep it within their attention channels. Otherwise, stop pretending the world needs what you have.
It’s bad enough the commercial world is loaded with anti-user behavior. For some years, I’ve used the free email service offered by GMX.net, based in Germany. Excellent stuff and support is great, if you don’t mind chatting with them in German (I don’t mind). I’ve only needed support twice over the years. So why does their UK/US branch, GMX.com, stink so badly? You can get a free account, but the service can be very unreliable, and support response is almost non-existent. They seem to have taken a cue from Yahoo on this, but without the advantage of being so popular and not nearly so usable. There are others; Sega seems to hate their customers, and Sony Entertainment tried to defend their rootkit ploy. Yes, the gods of commerce too often want that total control which intrudes deep into the user’s personal life. Still, if it gives them what they want, people will use it.
The accountability for commercial software comes in the transaction of sales. The consumer has leverage. Accountability in Open Source depends entirely on the random character development of the folks who write the code. The user has no leverage. You count yourself lucky if the worst you get from someone is, “Write the code yourself. I don’t care what you want.” If we could write our own code, we’d have no use for your project, Sir. The problem comes when the common trend of development departs significantly from user need and expectation. Even when Open Source developers decide to listen, too often they leave themselves open only to those who already love the same things. It’s almost incestuous in that sense, because common users find the whole system utterly closed to them. The developers and fanboys are in their own world. The barriers to entrance are excessively high, and the insiders become prickly when users aren’t willing to invest that much. Insiders don’t understand that we’d like to use our computers, not have sex with them.
Therefore, we have a very large community deluded into thinking they can sell Open Source on what they value, as if the world should only rightly value the same things. Open Source developers seem to expect reprogramming users should be as easy as computers. It doesn’t work that way, and the arrogant snippy comments on places like Slashdot demonstrate why there will never be a Year of the Linux Desktop. Demanding every Internet user get a “net user’s license”? It defines the elitist snobbery that makes Macheads look reasonable and friendly.
Telling me I should be bowing-and-scraping grateful because it’s given away freely, and the source code is open for inspection, doesn’t mean much if I can’t use it. Have you ever heard of Google? They try to straddle the line dividing Open Source and commercial profit. If the service or software they offer free is a pain to use, their advertising share goes down. While Open Source typically is not ad supported, most ordinary users really don’t see the difference. Google has something to lose, but Open Source is by nature wholly unresponsive. Sometimes you can get the developer to respond to a genuine bug report, and I’m grateful for those projects. Some of the project managers actually like people, and it’s why they do what they do. Timothy Pearson’s Trinity Desktop Project merits honorable mention on that score. The good guys are always woefully under-supported.
I’m very grateful for VLC, FFmpeg (which I use on the Windows CLI), GIMP, Notepad++, Cygwin for my CLI fix, Vim, The Sword Project, and many other heroes of Open Source. Each project includes folks who respond, either by fixing things, describing workarounds, or reasonable explanations for things. They are accountable, either directly or through their fan base, which works just as well.
So I still use some Open Source software, but I gave up on Linux. When KDE 4 came out, and the developers refused to listen, I started losing interest. When GNOME 3 came out and the developers became hostile to user input, I gave up. XFCE? That’s where I got that snobbish quote above about “code it yourself.” Minimum expectations of computer users require a fully integrated desktop experience, but none of the other desktops on offer comes even close to that level of integration. There are fans for just about every window manager and desktop, but those people have in common almost nothing with ordinary users. For a brief period, I could sell people on Linux, but that was at the end of KDE 3 and GNOME 2, when it seemed developers realized they had to compete for their place on the user’s desktop. That has gone now.
I don’t care if all the new kids on the block are all about the smartphone interface. There are millions of us yet needing to get work done, not simply consume a stream of bytes as entertainment. Windows 8 could easily become the next ME/Vista debacle so long as there are people who do work on their computers.
I’ve spent countless hours with clients and while you can play amateur analyst all you like about what makes people tick, real people will change if what you offer is actually better for their needs. A significant portion of my clients switched to Ubuntu 10.04, but they refuse to use 12.04. Current Linux offerings are no better on any of the measures users notice, and are steadily getting worse. It has nothing to do with what the developers and fanboys think is good stuff; real users want what they want. I don’t try to tell my clients what they want. I do my best to listen and give them what they ask for, including many things I think are utterly stupid. They are in the driver’s seat; it’s their hardware, time and money. I don’t sell Linux any more.
For myself, I finished the book but outgrew it. Instead, I’ve written several more and published them. My budget is nearly zero most of the time; my hardware is nearly all donated, and the software I use came with the hardware or someone gave it to me. I’m using a significant amount of abandonware, lovingly maintained for download by fans from yesteryear. After testing an awful lot of different software and different methods, I discovered for my own use things haven’t gotten that much better since WordPerfect 6 for Windows. Yes, display and interface have improved with later releases, but actual function for writing is not any better, certainly not quicker and simpler. However, my publisher insists on Word format, so I use OpenOffice as the last step in processing books for submission. LibreOffice is not the same as OpenOffice in terms of my experience, nor the same as the commercial offerings. I did rather enjoy the predecessor, Star Office, and still keep a copy of 5.1 and 5.2. Libre is not easier for me, requires way too much work getting it customized for my needs, and offers display problems that distract me and seem only to get worse with each release — ghosts, misalignments, freezing elements, etc. I don’t have them in Apache-OpenOffice.
Abiword is coming along nicely, might get there in a few more years, and Calligra Suite shows promise. If someone ever makes Kmail so it’s not buggier than all other mail clients in existence, and it’s possible to use it on Windows, I’d love to switch. The concept is marvelous. I’m keeping an eye on that stuff, but I don’t really expect much, because the entire KDE project has been the buggiest nightmare ever to intrude on my dreams. From what I can see, the distance between new features and debugging grows exponentially. Jumping to GNOME 2 from KDE 3 was a real let down, but it was the least painful alternative. Now, all the Linux alternatives are too painful.
I’m through testing Linux. If anyone ever builds something like INX and keeps it relatively current, I’ll make sure I can run that on at least one computer I own. I’m sick of what the graphical desktop has become on Linux, a sentiment I’ve long shared with at least a few dozen people with whom I’ve chatted. Unfortunately, it seems none of us is a developer. Again, there’s always the gap between Open Source users and developers. And I don’t have time to build it up from Debian or anything else; I have work to do.
Sure, I’d be glad to review newer versions of the commercial productivity software I use, but I can’t afford them. I’ll stick with what does the job for me, and I have an awful lot of stuff I need to write.

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Still Responsible

The divine calling of elder brings a burden. It means you care for no earthly reason, and your caring cannot be expected to follow any human logic.
On the one hand, you can see how easily the sheeple love lies. Yes, the myths are preferred over truth. You’ve probably heard about the Mayan Calendar business. The popular version among the sheeple is the world will end on the 21st on this month. That would be fine with me, but I rather doubt it. That’s because the truth about the Mayan Calendar is simply a matter of celestial accounting, in which the next new cycle begins on that date. Even that isn’t unanimous among those clinging to that religion. So while the fake fear spread like wildfire, and still burns wildly out of control, the honest correction is not just ignored, but covered up by the sheeple. People in the main are stupid — defined as refusing to listen to the truth.
Calling them “sheeple” is not necessarily an insult, unless you consider it an insult to sheep.
But you can’t therefore dismiss them, much less hate them. The divine calling starts from the recognition people are stupid. That’s why they need elders, and it’s why God laid down the Covenant of Noah. Not just revealing the Laws, but adding a means to enforcement. It requires constant watching, just as shepherds do with stupid sheep. These days, that includes using dogs to keep them in line, which fits very nicely in the parabolic image. What we learn from proper divine symbolic logic is His plan for government under Noah was nothing resembling democracy. It calls for elders, ostensibly blood kin to whom everyone would tend to feel a sense of accountability, to make decisions based a wise understanding his flock will tend to be stupid.
The more of them there are, the more stupid they are. Not in every way, because with a strong presence of social training and pressure, most people prefer to stick to the customs. They are too focused on things which don’t matter all that much, but it’s as much as they understand. Sheep generally confine themselves to eating, drinking and making more sheep. While there are some good applications of that parabolic image, it’s also the bad truth of humanity. A big difference is how they are intelligent sheep better at getting themselves hurt. Yes, it’s cynicism, and it’s what God expects of His called elders. Indeed, a critical element in our cynicism is we need to constantly remind people God intended us to live in a tribal social system. They are current very stupid about that, but I keep trying.
That’s because I love as God loves. I don’t have any love He didn’t give me, so it pretty much has to look like His. Knowing the vast majority will not accept the truth, I keep promoting the truth with the same patience as any shepherd. Good will surely come out of it, but it’s a dirty job. It’s easy to just throw it all aside and walk away, but I can’t. I simply cannot do that. Nor can I change the sheep from being sheep. It’s not efficient by anyone’s standard, but it’s what we have to work with, and it won’t get any better — ever. Not in this realm, at least. So while on the one hand it sounds elitist to speak of them as sheeple, on the other hand, elders are the antithesis of the predators in elitist circles.
Allowing a resentment to grow will cripple your service as elder. I wrote a couple of days ago how many called elders are simply rejecting any sheep they can’t lead easily, by charging high fees for their shepherding (psychotherapists and life coaches). Charge a high fee and you can pick and choose your clients. Real elders don’t work like that. We take what comes, expect the worst simply as a matter of routine, and rejoice at the few moments when someone gets it. Meanwhile, we let the general climate of resistance from the sheep, and even hostility, just roll off our backs.
There are limits to the parable, of course. I don’t go after a wandering sheep with physical force, but with words and moral persuasion. If the Spirit of God doesn’t keep you in safe pasture, there’s nothing I can do for you. I’m not a leader; it’s not the same thing as elder. It’s the worldly component of what we all imagine pastors do when they serve properly. Pastors serve in the same fashion, but on a spiritual level. While my aim is spiritual, my calling is to work on the worldly level of operations. Pastors do the same work on a spiritual level. Our work overlaps a lot, but it requires both of us; that’s how God does things. He has a civil leader and a ritual leader. It’s part of Zechariah 4. That’s how churches are organized in the New Testament, but Western Christians never understood this.
You come to the point you love like God, knowing it is mostly one-way, a unilateral love where you give, and they sometimes notice that it is love. You don’t let frustration ruin it for you, because you are the storehouse of sacrificial love. You don’t really need them in the human sense; you need the sanity of obeying your calling.
You still love them, and you are still responsible.

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Zechariah 4

While the previous chapter was to encourage Joshua in his role as priest, here we see a message to keep Zerubbabel on fire. The prophet visualizes being awakened from sleep, and the Angel of the Lord asks him to describe what he sees. The golden menorah stands fed by pipes from two olive trees. We know the menorah represents the revelation of God primarily through Israel. They were called to be a light to the world, brining His divine message through their obedience to the Covenant. Returning now from Exile, Zechariah has reminded them repeatedly to cling to that covenant, because God has promised to bring back every blessing of the past, raising the restored Judah to an even higher standing in world affairs, but only if they would obey.
Thus, the Angel affirms this whole future of possibilities will come not by any human achievements, but by God’s personal Presence in His people. The two trees are the civil and ritual offices, king and priest, who witness to the power of God’s spirit. By their faithfulness, they will be the primary source which feeds the lamp of God’s revelation.
The mountains would flatten themselves before Zerubbabel, making sure he had easy access to the stones needed for the Temple. Having already laid the foundation, the prophet now proclaims it is this king who would finish the work, placing the final capstone. He would chant about the power of God’s grace. Again, Zechariah calls on the king to recognize God sees not with man’s eyes, but sees things most men cannot. The relative small size and simplicity of this new Temple could still be the House of God if Judah would make Him feel welcome there.
Finally, the Angel specifically explains the symbolism of the two trees, the two roles of priest and king that witness to God’s driving power behind their leadership. If they would faithfully and confidently lead this people in obedience, they would see God flatten any resistance. They had nothing to fear.

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Divine Symbiosis

God acts unilaterally. That’s part of being Creator of all things.
In the matrix of His unilateral decisions, He has decided to place an awful lot of things in our hands. At the same time, He has kept back a lot of things. Our single biggest challenge as those who teach His revelation is helping people understand what He has put in our hands, and what He has not. A critical element in that is understanding we cannot possibly formulate some parts of that, but have to learn to sense it from our spirits.
For example, there are some people with divine appointments, and plenty who appear on our radar without any appointments. Could the Pharaoh of Exodus have found spiritual redemption? That’s the wrong question. In theory, we realize he could have eventually turned things around, but at this point we aren’t even certain who he was, much less how his life ended in spiritual terms. Meanwhile, his divine appointment was to raise Egypt to a climax of power and wealth, only to have it plundered and broken by failure of the sort Egyptians never recorded in their historical records.
The second biggest challenge is getting people to understand the Two Realms — inasmuch as we are going to understand them. I prefer to talk in terms of morality for the lower realm, and spirituality for the higher. I try to keep them in proper perspective, to explain their relative applications. Revelation explains pretty well, for those willing to see it, how repentance under the Laws of God (morality) do not bring us into Heaven directly (spirituality), but are a necessary element in the process. It’s not cause and effect, but much more fuzzy than that. What we do know is people who reject repentance aren’t going to Heaven, because whatever change takes place in spiritual terms, it includes a change of moral consciousness about such things. Spiritual life results in concrete manifestations everyone can recognize on one level or another. Otherwise, we are told it didn’t happen.
Thus, contrasting with Pharaoh we learn about Manasseh (2 Kings 21), the king who gave fifty years of his reign over Judah to the most depraved idolatry imaginable. So deep was the moral darkness, the worship of Molech with the burning of infants returned. The people literally forgot the Covenant. Manasseh’s grandson was shocked when he read a copy of the Covenant of Moses; he’d never heard anything about it. Yet we are also told at the end of his life, King Manasseh repented and turned to the truth. Too late to save the kingdom from God’s wrath, but he saved his own moral destiny. Whether that means he went to Heaven we can’t say, but he did repent.
Two political kingdoms were destroyed as a pretty plain result of God’s wrath against moral failure on a massive scale. Manasseh and Pharaoh defied God’s Laws as applicable to their contexts. Different covenants, different standards in one sense, yet fundamentally the same thing. Each chose to reject the offer of cooperation with God. Paul tells us in his letter to Roman Christians Pharaoh had no choice in some ways, but in the wider revelation of Scripture, we are taught to believe he eventually could have turned and repented at some point. Once his appointment was made, it was up to him. You come to that realization if you read the Bible as a whole.
Life is crappy. There is a certain amount you are handed by God’s unilateral decision. His standards of justice for you are not something you can turn and apply back to Him. You can deal with the God who is, or the god you dream up for yourself. In the latter case, it won’t be too effective.
I tend to care about people because it’s written in my character, but it would not have come to life had I not first been changed by God. Even when there’s nothing I can do, I still feel some of the pain I see in others. That’s the way I am now. While I espouse some esoteric pursuit of God’s glory, admitting up front I can’t always explain what that means, I can more easily explain how that pursuit of His glory makes me care. My caring is constrained by what I understand are the limits He has established for me. Those limits include a constant struggle to explain the things I can, and indicate something about the things I can’t explain. I sincerely do want you to have all the wonders I have, and I have some idea how you might get there.
I can’t do it for you. You have to find your own symbiosis with Him. I’ll do anything and everything I can to get you there, but it’s really in your hands, in the sense you have to work it out with God, not with me. I can’t know if your spirit is alive, and certainly can’t do anything to make that happen, but I figure I have a burden of responsibility to help you on whatever level I can. So I’ll spend a lot of time talking about how I see His Laws working. I’ll do what I can to get you as much as you can have, and my best understanding is that means helping you know and apply His Laws.
I love you because God does.

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Friday Book Report 4

I’ve had to do a lot of work on my own computers. I’ll spare you the gory details, but it ate up three days. Other days were eaten by intrusions of real life on behalf of others. At any rate, just today I finished 1 Corinthians from Paul’s letters. I’ll post the revisions on my static site tomorrow.
I’m still praying for a copy of WordPerfect newer than this ancient 6.1 for Windows I have right now. I use the Grammatik component to catch grammar errors I should already know not to make. Then I run it through Word because that’s what Smashwords requires. I’m using Word 97 because it’s all I can find prior to Word 2003, which I can’t stand, nor anything after it. I’m asking my readers to check the CD stashes they have or can get hold of to find MS Office 2000 or XP, and any version of WordPerfect from 8.0 and up, all in English, of course.
The free books already published keep going, at least two per week on each one. Frankly, that’s more than I expected. I still can’t get into the GMX.com account I had set up for this whole project. Their support is still unresponsive to requests. I’m going to write an article about lack of accountability to users and they’ll be featured in it as a major example, which I’ll the try to publish at Open for Business.
Peace and sanity to you all.

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The Life of a Prophet

Someone asked me what it was like being a prophet. I’m a prophet, so I guess I can answer the question, but only for myself.
It’s work.
I am by nature pretty lazy and selfish. I would prefer to spend endless hours reading and watching things which entertain. I’ve cleaned out whole sections of libraries, particularly the Science Fiction and Fantasy sections. I’ve read tons of physics and some history, played with peculiar math stuff. I’ve also wasted more time on computer technology than was really all that useful. I loved teaching, but I hated grading. I didn’t mind reading the papers, but I was mostly interested in seeing how well I was coming across. It was also a good way to get to know the kids.
I’ve always enjoyed horsing around outside. I’d love to just travel and travel and travel, and it wouldn’t bother me to suffer the most Spartan accommodations so long as it wasn’t risky in terms of harassment. You could stick me on a MAC flight with only nylon jump seats, take me to all kinds of places with only what I could carry, and if I could get any kind of food at all, I’d be happy for weeks. I love hiking and biking through every kind of terrain possible, just to see what’s there. I rather enjoy random encounters with humanity, too.
I don’t mind being ignored and not actually having to deal with people for long periods.
It’s not to say I no longer have any fun, but the driving force in my soul isn’t really that interested in it any more. It’s taken the same weak and lazy nature and run it through a meat grinder and a wringer, frozen then roasted, and while I’m still the same man, I’m changed beyond recognition to some. I don’t read too many books any more, because nobody much wants to talk about what drives me. When I go out for a ride or walk, it’s only so I can keep my ego busy while my spirit does all the work it can’t get done any other way. I am driven to eat very carefully, and seldom eat out because I don’t trust most places, but I sure do wish I had more time for work. If I’m not burned out at bed time, my brain is still running at warp factor 10, and I’m tempted to get up and work some more.
Most of my work is either studying or writing. My current context keeps me from doing a lot of oral presentation, so I write and write some more. And it’s never enough. It’s not enough to give vent to all the stuff bursting out of my soul. My long suffering wife has to put up with my ranting too much.
Try to understand how my entire motivational frame of reference has been hijacked. On the one hand, this is not what I want to do, but the wanting in me has been bulldozed repeatedly, and it’s not making much noise any more. Meanwhile, some overpowering force runs through me and I can’t stop. If your definition of “work” is limited to something which tends to earn a paycheck, then I’m doing nothing at all. I do get donations of stuff now and then, and only rarely money, but I’m not really keeping accounts of anything except the bare minimum necessary to keep eating and paying for the roof over my head. Were it not for family living with me, I’d not be too careful about anything but food. Maybe not even that.
This thing drags me along and I’m powerless to resist. From the time I open my eyes before dawn until they finally close in sleep, I’m running and running and running, but only in the sense of giving attention to the prophetic discernment of all things and what I can communicate about that discernment. I never take a break until my body and my brain just can’t keep up. I take a nap maybe, or just find something which will distract the flesh until my spirit finds a way to move forward.
By any reasonable human measure, I’m completely wacko. That’s my job, and it’s endless work. It’s also the only way I can find any peace.

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Psychotherapy: It's Personal

I won’t tell you this is a warning from God. I’ll tell you it is nonetheless entirely too close to serving the Devil.
I’ve said before I am somewhat a fan of Dr. Thomas Szasz. He didn’t go far enough, in my opinion, but of all the therapists I’ve read, he comes closer to the truth than any of the rest. I say that as someone who walked through the Valley of Death and the Fires of Hell with the gasoline underwear. When I finally clawed my way back to reality, the experience as a whole showed me what an awful lying fraud is psychotherapy as a profession. Since that time I’ve helped people who received serious spiritual wounds from psychotherapy. I’m not likely to be calm and friendly to most therapists and “life coach” type people who love to line their pockets while crippling people morally.
They are all part and parcel with the AA Empire, teaching you to trade one form of bondage for another. Having been through the wringer and having worked closely with mental health professionals, I will warn you, particularly if you claim to follow Christ: Aside from a tiny handful of genuine medical issues, virtually all adjustment problems are addressed in the Bible. If you can just understand and apply Scripture, it would put therapists out of work tomorrow.
Jesus never charged a dime. His success rate, as men measure such things, was pretty low, and His demise is not what any man would call “success” — unless that man was spiritual. I don’t charge any money for the help I offer. One of the most hideous claims made by therapists is how high fees ensure you take it seriously and “get good results”. High fees serve to eliminate folks who aren’t already highly motivated in one way or another to believe the materialist assumptions upon which all psychotherapy is built. You don’t get what you pay for, unless you understand a materialistic system will surely make you more materialistic for the right price.
When you really need peace against that nagging gnawing hunger in your soul, materialism is the enemy. It’s one thing to recognize you need to do certain things to make it in this world; it’s another thing entirely to recognize it honestly isn’t always worth it. This world is a lie, and Jesus put a lot of effort into making sure people understood that. So I’m quite happy when my “success rate” matches that of my Savior. I’m quite willing to take all comers, even when I know certainly the client won’t benefit directly. I don’t charge high fees to keep the losers at a distance. I’ll tell you to pay a high price of another sort, without lining my pockets with graft.
I’m not better than those therapists, but my spirit despises them for all the harm I’ve seen them do. My Bible says what they do is evil, and I have to avoid it.
Addenda: Short response to an offline question — All this life coach and materialistic psychotherapy is essentially the same happy, successful, socially acceptable slop Joel Osteen is selling. It’s a shallow attempt to quiet the spiritual awareness and the prodding of the conscience by overwhelming it with sewage.

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