It wasn’t working right. My “new” laptop was behaving inconsistently with Xubuntu, so I had to test other options. Every time there was update, it broke something. Win7 certainly didn’t work; the manufacturer’s drivers kept breaking the file system and Win7 kept having to rewind back to where it was freshly installed just to boot up. That was worthless. Scientific Linux 6.4 was nice, but it kept freezing, a complete I/O lockup that required a hard reset after just a few minutes of operation. Finally, I tried Debian Wheezy. It’s working fine now.
In the process, I managed to break the tip of the charger adapter. So I had to get a new one. I won’t recount the gory details, but I ended up with first-class hardware at a very low price, and managed to stop and service a client while hunting for it. But now my shoulder is hurting all the time and it’s enough to wake me in the night. Still, I won’t stop the workouts; I just use various pain relief ointments and keep trucking.
The point is not what I went through, really. God is at work; I’m simply doing my best to stay involved in what I see His hand performing.
What matters here is that the misery through which I pass when I’m not sure what God has in mind is a critical part of the process. The purpose of sorrow is to alienate us farther from this world and to drive us into His arms. Do you imagine that computer stuff really matters? Not a whit. It’s just a collection of tools for use in His Kingdom business. His business is changing me and sometimes some of the things around me. But without a doubt, the human discomfort is a necessity for me and you. Learn to embrace it.
