The Real Worry

What happens after I’m gone?

By no means do I anticipate expiring anytime soon. I’m just showing what’s in my heart. It is inevitable that a biblical community of faith will take on somewhat the character of its elder. That’s how it is supposed to work, so let’s drop the pretense of objectivity. If we had a genuine pastor, it would reflect his character, as well. So I don’t pretend that my ideas are so powerful as to overwhelm my personal influence.

At the same time, I don’t take myself that seriously. It’s not that my role is fungible, but I am. Maybe things would change if my demise shut this blog down, but there’s nothing to keep someone from taking up the eldership and carrying things forward through some other virtual connection.

You won’t catch me trying to gin up some kind of organization to outlive me. If you folks don’t make it happen by your own natural heart leading, then it shouldn’t happen. This isn’t about me and my legacy. It’s about those still alive trying to make the most of God’s provision for life after the Fall and prior to the Final Redemption.

So it’s okay that some of you sense a strong personal bond with me, but let’s not get stupid and raise some monument to that. Nor should you harbor dreams of that for yourself. Indeed, I doubt I’ll shed any tears in Heaven if everyone forgets the name “Radix Fidem,” either. Call it what you like; that’s something I came up with one day because people kept asking what to name this thing we share. The radical commitment to faith can live on by any other name.

Yep, I’ll take your donations and try to keep following where the hand of God leads me. But at some point all that stuff I buy with it will wind up in the dump somewhere and my body is likely to be ashes. We don’t need another organization with some funny name keeping a gilded lie alive with sacred phrases binding people who never knew me.

I’m more worried about this thing being corrupted and institutionalized than I am about seeing it fall apart.

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Reconfigured

They are still calling me.

Just before the bike crash, I was wondering how I could add some fresh diversity to my cycling photography. I had pretty much run the limit of my riding range, and the day of the crash, I was on my way into the City to shoot some urban images. That isn’t really what I like, but it would have been hard to do anything different within cycling range.

Now, I want you to know that there was mercy in that crash. It’s quite likely I would have encountered the heart trouble on some huge long ride and would have run the risk of not getting timely help. Keep in mind that this isn’t a heart-problem as most men have them, but a wiring issue within an otherwise very healthy heart. The wiring problem was coming to a head and I had no way of knowing that. Human parts wear out in their own time and in their own way, and God isn’t through with me, so this was a merciful way of bringing about changes.

So now the long rides are out of the picture, and my heart no longer desires them at all. What I desire is riding that mountain bike for the sake of access to places I couldn’t drive. I had already planned on extending the range of my riding by using my bike carrier on the car. I now believe that was an incomplete picture.

You might imagine that I have given a lot of prayer and contemplation to what all these changes indicate in terms of how to move forward. I’m still here and I have a powerful desire to keep exploring with my camera. My heart calls me to push out farther, but not by riding from home. There is something still very powerful happening between nature and the camera in my hands. There are places out there not yet seen calling my name.

I have come to believe that I need to pray for a pickup, and some way to pay for keeping and running another vehicle. This will make it easy to take the bike out with me, among other things. There are a hundred details yet to reveal themselves, but this is the direction I feel called. And while I don’t take myself too seriously — this could be a mere pipe-dream — it’s where my expectations are pointing and where I’m praying.

Even more important is that something in my soul signals that we really need to pray for more writers to join our faith community. We have yet another contribution to the booklet project pending and I’m sincerely hoping that we can use tools like this booklet to reach out to other folks who are just waiting for the message we bear.

Sure, we all love the idea that this could become more universal, but it’s not time for that yet. Right now it’s just a matter of reaching those relative few out there already seeking what we have. There is a sense in which they already belong, but the awareness hasn’t connected. Pray the Lord grant us more souls discovering this grand freedom in His Spirit.

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Reprise: High Tension Exercises

A few folks have asked me recently to explain the high tension exercises again. The nickname is isotonics, drawn from isolation toning. Your muscles are working against each other, not against some external force (i.e., gravity with free weights or against a machine). My objective is less about toning and more about promoting circulation for my whole body. Keep in mind that, with one exception as noted below, you strive for a full range of motion. If you suffer from arthritis, this routine should actually help things.

So what motions do I perform?

We start with the largest muscle groups and work to the smallest. That means legs first. Put your arms in a comfortable place, such as across your chest. Tense the muscles in your legs and squat down as far as you can while keeping the tension on your leg muscles. It may take some time to discern subjectively how much tension it takes, but the objective means hitting 12 repetitions before it’s just too much to keep going. With my bad knee, you can imagine I don’t go very deep, so adjust according to your needs. This engages the whole leg and lower back.

Next, I stand in front of something like an armchair and lean forward to grip the arm rests. Then, I tense my legs and rise on my toes just a bit. Switching off between legs, I raise one behind me with that same tension as before, then pull it back down. Alternate back and forth to hit around 12 repetitions. This isolates more on just the thigh muscles.

Finally, for the lower leg it works best if you have some kind of step. You need to stand with just your toes on the step and your heels hanging over the open space below. Use something high enough that your heels can’t touch the floor. Tense up your calf and shin muscles, drop down as low as possible, then push up to fully extend to your toes. Repeat for 12.

For the abdominals and back muscles, simply stand up straight, feet shoulder-width apart, with your arms across the chest again. Tense your midriff and back, bend slowly from the hips, not across the belly itself. Bow yourself forward, then attempt to pull backward somewhat past upright. Breathe out as you move one way, stop and breath in tightly through tense muscles, then breathe out again the other way. Most people say this one “hurts” a little, so be careful to control the arch at the bottom of your spine. Again, bend from the hips while keeping the lower back locked in a slight arch.

Now for the upper torso. Mentally, you can divide your shoulder girdle between pushing and pulling, imagining that your hands are holding a bar. Each motion engages the upper back, chest and shoulder muscles. However, you need to mentally engage your whole body somewhat as if you were working against real resistance. That means rotating the shoulders a bit when you change directions between pushing and pulling. Try to feel it like a true press or rowing motion. I do five different angles: straight out in front, straight overhead, straight down, and at a 45º angle up and down in front of me. I do them in that order, but it really doesn’t matter. Start with your arms extended, pull back against your own tension to about the chest (as far as you can pull), then push back out.

Next I try to isolate the shoulder girdle just a bit by doing straight-arm swings in three axes: back and forth at chest height in front of me (“fly” we call it), up and down to the sides (but stop before you get much above shoulder level), and a full range up and down in front of me (chopping).

Finally, because I have a serious need for keeping my hands working well, I do arms. First I hold them straight up overhead and curl back down behind my head. Then I do curls from hips up to my chest. Finally, I reverse my grip with palms facing down and do another set from the hips. Then, to keep my grip alive, I do a combined motion starting with my hands raised just a bit facing palm down, fingers extended and spread. Tense up the hands and forearms and close the fingers slowly, then turn the fist around to palm-up position, return back and slowly extend the fingers against tension. This is sort of a grab motion.

For my own personal needs, I often finish with a pair of abdominal hardening exercises. Men in particular lose their abdominal strength quickly with age and it’s not good for your internal organs to bulge out like that. So I lay supine on a padded surface with my elbows half-way out from my sides and hands raised straight up. Rising half-way up with my torso, I reach out one hand across to meet the opposing toe as I raise my leg simultaneous with my torso. The non-reaching arm swings out a bit and I turn my face toward it. Thus, we are doing a full v-up with a twist, and this works the entire belly-band muscles. Drop down and alternate to the other side. Try not to cheat by pushing against the floor with your non-reaching elbow. Some folks seem to have a tough time coordinating raising both the torso and one leg, but if you can learn it, it’s a wonderful exercise. Do as many as you can in alternating pairs.

I typically finish with flutter kicks: Lie supine with hands palm down under your butt for balance. Stiffen the legs and hold your feet dorsiflexed (toe pulled up toward you). Raise both legs just a few inches off the floor and don’t let them drop. Alternate kicking up just a little farther than the length of your foot. Do as many as you can.

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The Lie of Open Society

Perhaps you’ve heard of the Open Society concept. Despite all the sweet sounding rhetorical promises, it’s a lie from Satan. It presumes the perfectibility of man, a flat rejection of God’s revelation. The major flaw is the rejection of man’s tribal nature. Under the Curse of the Fall, God insists that we must live in a tribal society; it is hard-wired into Creation itself. The Open Society denies God by rejecting His revelation.

Despite the basic theory of democratic advancement, that once people learn of Open Society principles they cannot go back to the tribe, you will find a great many ideologues promoting the Open Society by force. Since we won’t voluntarily merge into one global world without borders, we must be forced. Thus, it’s proponents are eager to destroy the global economy and provoke global bloodshed to make it happen.

Of course, any efforts to politically promote God’s Law is pointless, for the most part. That is, we cannot make it a countering agenda and take up arms to defend our national borders against the proponents of Open Society. You as an individual moral agent can find yourself called to some activity that serves an ostensible political end, but you cannot pretend that calling is somehow mandatory to other believers.

What we can and should do is promote the truth of God’s Word. His entire revelation of Law Covenants stands on the assumption of Eastern feudal tribal lifestyle. You cannot pretend to understand His Laws any other way. We are called to live His Laws in the microcosm of our faith fellowship and communion — in our churches. This is how we demonstrate His truth and reflect His glory. How the rest of the world responds isn’t really our concern; that belongs to our Sovereign Lord. We can pray and teach the truth, and know beyond all doubt this is what is in every human’s best interest, but until their own heart calls them to this truth, there is little else we can do the help them.

Don’t accept the false dichotomy that we have to defend “our nation” against this attempt at global government. The Open Society is an evil, to be sure, because it represents an anti-American global human oppression. It is also anti-faith, the core of Western intellectual arrogance. However, the opposition to it here in the US would just as quickly seize global oppressive power in the name of American culture and prosperity. It’s real interests are basically Wall Street. There is yet another team at work, which is the global banking agenda, along with others harder to characterize in a short discussion. None of them represent the genuine interests of the citizens of any country, much less Americans.

Our Father knows what He’s doing, steering these events according to His divine wisdom. Watch and understand as much as you can, but keep your hands on your own calling.

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Banks Finished

NorthBankThat reconstruction project on the North Canadian River banks where it passed under Midwest Boulevard is just about finished. It’s nowhere near as interesting because the results are just a bit disappointing. I can see why they put up the barbed-wire fence with all the expensive planting, turfing and so forth, but it keeps people out. The river is supposed to be a recreation area.

The fence also made it difficult to get any good shooting angles. That first image is standing at the maintenance gate looking out over the newly planted trees and shrubs, with the river almost hidden from view in the middle ground.

CurveFinishedThis second image shows the finished work on that curve coming around toward the bridge; this is viewing upriver. This was where the majority of the heavy earth-moving took place when I first spotted the construction activity more than a year ago. The massive layer of boulders is now hidden under green cover.

SouthBankThe south bank was where the biggest washout occurred, and you can see where they are filling it all back in behind the reconstructed bank. This is where I came out on that epic mountain bike ride through the muddy back trails. In the background is a ligh-colored sandy trail where I emerged from the woods. Just to the left of that was the path of the temporary flood from a lake back a ways up in the grassland. That artificial lake breached it’s own dam and created a temporary creek that prevented me coming on out, so I had to go all the way back through the muddy crap the way I came, about 1.5 miles.

SummerDressNow you can see the fresh red soil coloring where the crew is restoring the original bank and it will completely block that flow from recurring, even if the land owners up that little wash don’t fix their lake breach. But with all this artificial reconstruction and window dressing, about the only thing left of any interest visually is this shot of the woodline on the far bank through which that muddy path travels. Here is the far bank in her summer dress.

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Answering Book Published

The official title is Radix Fidem: Faith Arising at the End of Western Civilization. The title is linked to the landing page at Smashwords. I’ll have the copies up on the static site and on my FTP server later today; I’m still working on the HTML and plain text versions.

You can find the HTML version here on the static server at soulkiln.org. The other formats are all on the FTP server now. Other formats are available upon request via email.

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More Camera Testing

It was just less than blistering hot Sunday, so I took a stroll with the camera.

CedarFriendsJust across Reno to our north is a long dead-end paved street that ends at the foot of one of the oldest cell towers in our area. Along the east side of this street grows a strip of trees, mostly cedars. On the other side of them is a huge open field, the largest unoccupied space in our immediate area, with only one house in the middle hidden by more trees. Every time I walk past these cedars I hear them whispering in the breeze.

MWards01Turning away from the tower westward takes me across a mostly unused parking lot. Just across Air Depot is the old Heritage Park Mall. It symbolizes both a cultural shift away from shopping malls, but also the economic decline in America. On the north side, which is sort of the back of the place, you can still see vestiges of what was once a very fine department store, Montgomery Wards. I have had some car work done a couple of times in their automotive shop, seen extending out to the right of the main building.

About the time the mall began to die, it was bought out by some slimy property management outfit in California. They have disdained all the local laws, refusing to perform any of their obligations. I’m not sure what sort of legal barriers exist, but the local city government is not that far from seizing the whole thing and converting it to a municipal office campus. Meanwhile, there are just two actual occupants in this whole vast structure.

HeritageParkMallViewed from the south face, the “front” side of the mall, you can see that Sears still operates from the near end (east end) because they own that portion of the building. It’s not busy, but Sears hasn’t made noises about closing it yet. At the far end, what was once a Dillard’s store, is the Midwest City campus of LifeChurch.tv. I believe they have bought their end of the building, so what’s left is a long intervening strip of stores along the inner mall-way strewn with the debris of a hasty closure of all the businesses. Could you go inside the central hall, you would see kiosks with cheap merchandise scattered all over the place. Some of the food vendors left some very fine equipment behind, but now obsolete. The mall has been dead for quite some years.

You can see the whole thing from any mapping service on the Net, at the intersection of Reno Avenue and Air Depot Boulevard in Midwest City, OK, on the northeast corner. Right now, it’s a very nice place for a quiet stroll almost any time day or night, if you don’t mind whole acres of unmaintained blacktop. But the lonely pavement-locked trees will still greet you as you pass.

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Ignore This Political Blather

Truly, if you have no particular interest in politics you should ignore this post. It’s just a hobby and God gives me some interesting insights that make sense, perhaps only to me, and I can’t just shut up about it. Humor me.

First, a few reminders of how I look at this. We have the government everyone sees, the leaders who have to use their charisma and charm to remain in power. They really aren’t that much in power, but they do have a little leverage and some hope of getting rich and protecting their interests. The real power is the bureaucracy with it’s paranoid national security mind set. But among those who pretend to be leaders is a bunch of competing teams that agree to certain basic rules, but don’t actually get along that well. They are partisan in ways our mainstream press never discusses. Republicans and Democrats, along with minor parties that come and go, mean nothing in reality.

Second, there is no such thing as good politics. We can probably point out certain elements that we like. Sometimes we like them because they do make room for heart-led holiness, or simply reflect a somewhat better moral choice. However, the same politician can represent three kinds of good and ten kinds of bad, all on different levels or angles of consideration. The same political choice can be multiples of moral good and bad simply because such choices are never simple. Everything has repercussions in multiple threads. We are nobody’s cheering squad because nobody wants to know what God says about human politics.

Now, something has changed in the presidential campaign. I previously felt that Trump would have a tough time with the bureaucratic shadow government. No longer. Partly it’s because he has courted the bureaucrats behind the scenes, but partly because the alternative — supporting Clinton — has become entirely untenable. The recent investigation into her email server opened a lot of other avenues of investigation that turned into broad highways. The Clinton Foundation is like a massive nuke floating over our heads.

If you have read my blather about The Cult, you recall that a primary aim is to make government so bad that the masses would be willing to accept any global leader offering a plausible hope for relief. Some of the folks who serve The Cult are willing to rip at the fabric of national identity even before it gets that far. So we have folks like George Soros ideologically committed to a borderless world. And he’s not just a wishful thinker; he has wormed his way into Western government structures. He’s the one who funded the massive Muslim migration into Europe. Truly, this invasion would not have happened without his efforts to promote it.

Hillary is his gal. She is all for this Open Society stuff simply because Soros pays her. Whatever the Clinton Foundation does is mostly the work of Soros. And it touches virtually every part of the US government. To open this up to prosecution would end the US government, one way or another. The leaders are scared; the bureaucracy is in panic — neither exists without the other. They have to block Clinton, never mind whether she is prosecuted. But they really need to be careful and not blow open the whole story, because it means the system comes apart. So they have to find some way to let this stuff leak into the open in little tiny bits that don’t hurt much of anyone but her and Obama and company.

And Obama and company know it. So this is why the current administration is trying to provoke martial law. Soros wants it. He has become a threat to the system. You see, the bureaucrats and some of the leaders know something important. Having studied this in detail for some years, the shadow government knows that provoking a revolt, as martial law would do, would end the system forever. There is a long list of whys, but what it amounts to is that the system is terribly unstable and wholly exposed in ways they don’t tell us. For example, the hive-mind is convinced that most of the US military would refuse to obey any orders to fight a revolt. And the bulk of the FBI is already turning against Obama and company. Oh, and you know there are predators outside the US just waiting to support a revolt against the US government, and they have the resources to make it happen. A revolt or civil war in the US would be long and bloody.

The hive-mind would rather face whatever Trump might do to them than to risk letting Clinton destroy everything. So they have to fight off the Soros-sponsored activities without starting a civil war. Their propagandists are already at work spreading the word to ignore the business of her stupid mail server and focus on the Clinton Foundation. They say everything we need to know is already out there on the Net, so they want the activists to just start digging. For example, check out the Tavistock Institute, owned by Soros. The hive-mind pins its hopes on the nationalism of the main population, and the leadership’s survival instincts to sever ties with Tavistock and the Clinton Foundation.

Thus, we come to that right-wing backlash I figured was coming a long time ago. At almost any price, the hive-mind is willing to crush the BLM (Black Lives Matter) to squelch the kind of general uprising that Soros would love to see. And it has nothing to do with being liberal versus conservative. Did you notice the BLM stupidly provoked the LGBT folks in Canda? They just blew off a natural ally. Look for the LGBT to become orphaned darlings of the right.

Never mind whether you believe the BLM complaints are justified; things are not going to go well for them. And all those migrants crowding into the US who lack conservative middle-class values? They are about to face that same backlash. In terms of worldly wisdom, this is a good time to keep a low profile. I’m betting against Soros and I don’t expect a civil war, but there will be some nasty politics up near the top.

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Simple Goal

Keep in mind that spiritual birth and heart-led are not the same. There is a correlation, but they are not the same thing. People can most certainly have one without the other.

We would love for everyone to enjoy spiritual birth. However, Scripture tells us flatly that God alone handles this and we cannot comprehend how it works. The best we can do is become aware of our own spiritual birth.

We have a lot better chance of helping folks by awakening the heart-mind connection. We still cannot do it for them, but we at least can grasp something of the process and work with it on our level here. And we have the blessed assurance that once awakened, it will virtually ensure fulfillment of all the promises in God’s Laws. That is, the heart-mind opens the door to the whole meaning of divine revelation. If we can just get across the message of living by the heart, we can afford to back off and see what comes of it.

It’s not foolproof, but it works so well that it is sufficient as our all-encompassing emphasis. It’s our evangelism. God speaks so eloquently from Creation that we can simply let go at that point, and trust Him for the results of anyone making that connection inside themselves. It’s the gateway for escaping the Curse of the Fall. Best of all, it correlates with spiritual birth.

If spreading the Life of heart-led is all we do, His glory shines.

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Reprise: Jay’s Contribution to the Booklet Project

Here we are again with Jay’s entry for our Radix Fidem booklet. It’s been edited a bit and he added a final paragraph that ties it all up nicely. Now if I could just get a few more of you to take up a part of this…

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2. Fundamentally super-rational, not cerebral (working above the intellect)

Faith, and how humans “come to” faith lies, ultimately, beyond human comprehension. The workings of the metaphysical domain are conducted on a level humanity is not able to fully understand — though, obviously, we are able to experience it in some manner while living in our fallen condition, in our current, physical, domain. Much like how we react to an object of beauty or wonder, it’s perhaps best described as an experience (a continuum of experiences, really) and not a series of objects apprehended with our material reasoning toolkit.

With all of the technological advances in the last hundred years or so, it may seem that the idea that, eventually, we will arrive at a comprehensive view of the universe is a recent one. This idea was around long before modern times, in many different forms and degrees. Nowadays it has taken the form of “scientism,” where one places an undue burden on the process of scientific discovery as a means of discovering all things that are knowable. If so inclined, you can trace and find bits of the idea all throughout the various trends of thought in history, from the ancient Greeks, to the medieval era through Francis Bacon and the Enlightenment, and into the modern technological age. Whatever form it takes, it involves a very important assumption: that all knowable things are within the reach of human intellect. This idea is incompatible with the internal workings of faith, since only God can implant faith, hence it doesn’t arrive to us, or is sensed, by material means. Scientism, since it fails to acknowledge God as a possibility through it’s very framework, falls under the rubric of “idolatry,” effectively removing God from the throne and putting something else in His place. In this case, it’s placing the scientific process as the ultimate source of something — knowledge — instead of God.

Logic and reasoning are limited tools, for sure, but this idea isn’t limited to spiritually-minded folks — common sense bears it out. Humans operate mostly through non-logical means, being guided through most of our days via a mix of the senses, memory and routine, heuristics, reliable authority, and instinct, with limited instances of the two logic forms (inductive and deductive) to tackle things like unfamiliar situations. Pure reasoning is notoriously ineffective when dealing with things that aren’t immediately contextual and “bite-sized.” Take something that demands mountains of logic to accomplish, like any kind of large-scale engineering project. It requires lots of engineers, of differing expertise and strengths, to work on individual components of the device, plus another layer of lead engineers, quality assurance folks, and managers to make sure all those small parts work together. One man alone, even the smartest of us, would require a whole lifetime (or more) of calculating, building, and testing to come up with something of equal complexity. How, then, could one come to “know” a being infinitely more vast, such as God, if this were the case?

Forgetting the coldness of logic for a minute here… if we consider God to be a person, which He is, then material reasoning will come up wanting for the kind of knowledge God requires of us. We speak of “knowing” another person in ways that go well beyond a list of understanding some facts about them. We come to know and love, for instance, our friends or spouses through a incomprehensible webwork of epistemological inputs and a good dose of time and reflection. If we were to use this as an analog for approaching how we could understand God, as a personal being, our “sense” of God would be more properly aligned.

If one reads through enough writings of the faithful through the centuries, not to mention scripture itself, one could glean a bare-bones idea of genuine faith and the knowledge of God, and the way it works. In many ways, it could be a basic form of knowledge: faith doesn’t rest on something else — like others’ perceptions, material facts of the universe, or the sentiments of a culture — in order for it to work as intended. Faith is its own creature, an incomprehensible gift from the Creator. The “head knowledge” of how faith works comes to us a skeleton; it’s up to us to flesh it out by putting faith into actual practice.

Jay DiNitto

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