Transience

A measure of uncertainty is our certitude.

Recall that fundamental to the Fall was human presumption on divine prerogative. Creation remains in a variable state; it is in one sense nothing more than the contextual extension of God’s imagination. It does not exist in its own right. At the point where God tires of this game, the whole thing evaporates (Colossians 1:17). Thus, a critical element in the Fall is that crazy notion that reality is somehow its own thing, and that by extension, truth is a self-existent quality discernible by the greatness of human intellect.

Not only was this adopted and institutionalized wholly into the foundations of Western Civilization, but virtually every element of the West stands on it. Take that away and it quickly becomes apparent the West is one big lie. The truth is that God keeps things in a usable state and that He promises to maintain His direct interest in things until some point of ripeness. However, He has amply warned that His holding things together does not include any theoretical stasis. The whole of Creation remains subject to His whims. If you can’t see that in His Word, it’s because you refuse to read it as He wrote it.

Even looking in the mirror, I find ideas that don’t belong in God’s revelation of reality. Who will rescue me from myself? I can write all these books and read the threads of human history, but I find in myself the instinct to inject my hands into that stream and affect the flow. Such a notion is the Fruit of the Tree of Knowledge. It’s so very tempting to play the role of reformer.

The antidote to that poison is a frequent reminder that, if we keep playing such silly games, we will lose touch with our identity. Not the self-image we all try to shape and repaint, but the identity of who we are in Christ. Do you suppose Paul set out the change history? I submit that he was only trying to be obedient, day by day. Oh, but we sing sweet songs about that ethic:

(Lyrics here.)

The whole question has been analyzed to death with a body of theory (“time preference”) that mostly misses the point. Scripture presses a particular kind of time focus that is missing from all the official studies — “give us this day our daily bread.” That translates poorly into English because it’s a figure of speech. In the context of Jesus’ Model Prayer, it built on the Roman soldier’s daily ration. At the end of each day a trooper was given just enough food to last through the next day. It kept him dependent, not as a slave, but as a servant of his commander; it was quite personal. We take precious little from their military traditions these days.

But the practice was older than Rome. It arose from the expeditionary life, where the servant was on the road with his master, regardless of the ostensible purpose. It left the servant free to work unsupervised, but generally unable to run off very far without serious help. But it was more than a mere transfer of rations, because the moment renewed the personal bond between the two. It was a time to chat and interact, and a large lore of literature indicates judges were not too keen on punishing servants who ran away from serving assholes. It was more common than you might think that the wealthy and powerful held themselves to a high noble standard that saw a regular passing of temporary debt servants over into permanent slavery entirely by choice.

There is nothing in the West that touches on any of this, including the ethic of trusting some higher power to track the broader strategy and just mind your own mission for the day. It doesn’t mean you ignore the times and seasons, or that you ignore history. It means you avoid dreaming of being a big hero. That conscious choice is a critical element in rejecting the big lie of the West. It rejects the assumption that reality can be tracked reliably, that you can account for the factors and steer things on a course that you can understand.

David said nothing regarding dreaming about his throne or what he would accomplish as king. Instead, he constantly wrote poems and songs to remind himself that his greatest accomplishment was walking in the law during any current day. Molding yourself to God’s moral character and remaining in close communion with the living and breathing creation around you should be your highest aspiration. Even if you could reliably predict human nature at large in terms of historical trends as they occur, it doesn’t make you able to steer any part of it. There remains a wealth of natural phenomena you are fortunate only to observe and experience.

We are just along for the ride, and already have more than we can do just living the Laws of God.

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Locus Focus Hocus Pocus

(Posted early as tomorrow’s message.)

I’ve tried to warn my readers that we should study the Ancient Hebrew mindset as best we can, but never pretend it is necessary or even possible to duplicate it in ourselves. We do not ape the particulars. We do our best to awaken the moral and spiritual power within our own context, so the language of the Bible is advisory in that respect. As it is, we are reading an English rendering which might have passed through any number of layers from the originals, and we have no originals. We are accountable to the Bible, but we do not worship it. Instead, we have the Author and His unambiguous promise to guide and use us based on what we read there.

Nor is it possible to totally cease from every jot and tittle of our Western heritage. Again, it’s a matter of rightly dividing the Word as it applies in our discernment of Western influences. On the one hand, without the West we would not have computers and the Internet. Then again, without the West, we would not need them. We have the West and we have computers. The only righteous question is: What would Our Lord have us do right now?

I have often tried to explain that we can theoretically divide human nature into body, mind, and spirit. In practice, we can probably become aware of the soul as something far more than our minds, but have no direct awareness of the spirit. In broader terms, we can move the focus of our conscious awareness up out of the limits of the intellect. Thus, in recent months my mention of the sensory heart as part of the soul, part of our broader sense of who we are. Nonetheless, I still tend to describe the intellect as a tool for organizing and implementing the work of the flesh in obedience to the requirements discerned in the moral consciousness of the heart.

Sometimes, the flesh-mind simply cannot play along.

In clinical depression, the mind protests that it cannot embrace something demanded on some other level of the soul. If we give the focus of our awareness to the mind’s sense of failure, its sense of being overwhelmed and unable to keep up, we find ourselves deeply embedded in the misery of depression. The lack of a sensory heart gives rise to the standard cosmic numbness of clinical depression. If we possess a soul that is broader than the mind, we are at least in a position to draw back a bit from the crushing inertia and recognize: My flesh has run out of resources for this. It can’t go on any farther.

Despite the particular wording of some English translations, it is not a sin if your soul realizes your mind simply cannot believe God’s promises. Your flesh has limits and may need some space to heal from — well, only you would know that. But there’s nothing wrong with your higher awareness simply saying: “Fine. You can’t handle this. So stop; stop trying to plan and implement and just back off. Take a break.” And you can turn to face God and say, “Sorry Lord, but I just can’t believe that.” In that sense, “belief” is a cerebral exercise. So long as your intellect is not the limits of your consciousness, I assure you that God is not insulted by that. He knows all too well, given what His Son went through in the Garden of Gethsemane, and later on the Cross.

That’s not meant to shame anyone. We are fortunate if we can simply admit to ourselves that we hammered in His nails, in a certain sense. He did this for us because we could never do it for ourselves. That’s the whole point. When your faith rises above the cerebral, you realize that you aren’t required to make your head go along with things only your heart can comprehend. Do what you can to recognize the limits of your flesh and don’t tempt it beyond what it is able. Don’t lay that false guilt trip on your mind for its inability to keep up. By the same token, don’t let it interfere with the joys of your heart awakening to the cosmic sweetness of divine justice.

This is a long way from schizophrenia, where the mind itself is divided and confused, compartmentalized in dangerous ways. When you live in your heart, you remain quite cynical about your own mind, not to mention the flesh and its desires. The question is more the level and locus of your conscious awareness.

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Psalm 40

Most of this is a rather didactic psalm. About the only reason we might suggest for finding Psalm 70 tacked on the end (verses 13-17 here) is that it serves as an example of the kind of prayer God answered to justify the first part of this message.

David had no where else to turn. It didn’t matter what he might have felt compelled to do on the human level; if his God was not behind things, nothing would have saved David. He offers the image of being rescued from quicksand or a mud-pit, a sort of wet clay trap, quite deep and with slimy sloped sides. It was quite impossible to escape, even for substantially larger and stronger animals. David says that God allowed his feet to find a rocky extension so he could climb out.

A refreshing rescue calls for a fresh composition, so David sings a new song. The intent was to catch people’s attention with this heartfelt testimony. While it is impossible to overstate God’s trustworthiness, David contrasts that with those who boasted in lies even in small ways. Big talk did not compare well with God’s deliverance. Where does David being? How does he narrow down the vast record of God’s power?

A difficulty in verse 6 is the noteworthy variation between existing manuscripts. The New Testament (Hebrews 10:5) quotes from the Septuagint version of this verse and that is reason enough to prefer it. This places the emphasis on a form of Hebrew parallelism. David says that ritual offerings were never about the offering, but sacrifice itself. A more meaningful sacrifice would be your own obedient flesh while you live, not some dead animal. So David says, “Here I am, Lord! I embrace Your revelation as binding on me!” David sees Covenant Law as a privilege, not a duty.

Such is the message David preaches in the hearing of the nation at every possible opportunity. David felt that was his highest duty as king. Yet he is a king who suffers little from arrogance, because he quickly transitions to calling on God’s mercy as a penitent. For all his royal power, David could not defeat his own sins alone.

In most English translations it is not hard to see how the addition of Psalm 70 fits right in here. With such a feeble moral constitution, David is frantic for God’s delivering hand. He pleads with God as he often does, that his enemies not be allowed to win. David has no fear of death, but worries that an embarrassing end would darken God’s reputation, too. So he asks that God would simply keep on giving His people every excuse to praise His name. They have no where else to turn, either.

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Beyond Words

There is not a damned thing they can do to stop us.

This is a tough write, today. I paint with words, but the metaphor promptly dies right there. Painting and writing are both completely different in how they work, and my writing in particular is aimed at a sort of artistry not seen in Western history, but common enough outside of it. The ultimate subversion is rejecting reality itself — that’s the approximate effect of what I’m doing in our world. As a basic prerequisite to everything else I have to say, if I can get you to embrace the sensory heart, then you have already rejected the whole of Western Civilization (see my book, Redemption and Sexual Identity, chapter 1). That means you’ve already left behind the deepest part of the prison dungeon, and the rest of the way into freedom is much simpler.

It’s also more dangerous.

Dangerous for you because a lifetime of mental habits still belong in the dungeon. They won’t fit out here in the daylight. It’s the difference between feeling your way around versus seeing your new path running over the crest on the far ridge line.

The oppressors guarding the world against our freedom are also limited to feeling their way around. If you can use the eyes of your heart, it’s not much of a task to elude their grasp. The sensory heart is the eye of the soul; it sees the moral landscape as God made it. It works best if you actually focus your consciousness through that faculty, instead of allowing Western social mythology to blind you. But learning to make sense of what this new faculty tells you is a monumental task.

That’s because the foundation is realizing that no two of us will see the same colors, lines, shapes or anything. The whole point is that each of us must be set free to understand the landscape in our own way. So I have this herculean task of explaining vision itself without a common viewpoint possible. You cannot possibly experience the moral realm the same way I do.

What makes it safer is that those who target our freedom can’t see it at all. Then again, they insist you can’t really see what you see, either. But they keep communicating in that same language of tactile certainty, versus your own quirky vision of moral truth. It’s multiple layers of falsehood. We could share a lot of truth, but first have to redefine sharing. Unity is not uniformity. What holds you and I together is our shared rejection of uniformity. We also have to reject the mythology that individuality is inherently isolationist.

We redefine love itself. Again, it’s dangerous ground — a tough write — because the English language is bereft of meaning on that word from having crammed entirely too much into it. Let’s try the language of paradox: As long as you need my affection, you can’t have it, can’t make any use of it. My genuine heartfelt commitment to your welfare means nothing until you see it with your heart. My real-life hug won’t mean a thing until you can sense my love through this blog post first. Not because I say the words, but because you can read the power of the thing itself when I don’t use the words.

When the thing we share is incomprehensible to our enemies, when our greatest power has nothing to do with anything they recognize at all, we have become the mightiest army of God on this earth. Open your heart-eyes. Only then can you see the mighty promises of God as He actually gave them. This thing feeds itself; His divine moral nature as “Law” is its own reward. If it is not sweeter than words on its own terms, you haven’t tasted it yet.

Nothing on earth can stop it.

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World of the Damned

Christ considered death on the Cross as His greatest victory.

Stop reading things like that as religious language with its own sacred meaning. Read that as you would any normal English communication. What our world still thinks of as a tragic failure is Our Savior’s success in His mission. How often do we find all this happy Christian talk of victory that carefully excludes human failure?

When the Lord burned into my consciousness the realization that I had to reject Western Civilization in order to walk with Him, I knew it was a Quixotic mission to tell others. I had no doubt I would share some of Jeremiah’s sense of accomplishment. Indeed, I rather doubt I’ll see nearly as much fulfillment of forewarned wrath that he saw directly with his eyes. And just how much “proof” did Abraham have that God truly intended to make his descendents owners of that land?

So I know how Sister Christine feels in a certain sense. Is it any wonder we both find more comfort from wildlife and foliage than we do from our fellow humans? We are still people and we still need that loving touch somewhere. Jeremiah had supporters who would haul him out of a pit and Abraham had his own private army. We share online a lot because we can hardly get anyone in the flesh to listen.

It really is God’s problem whether anyone listens. We don’t rejoice that the world we know first-hand prefers the big lies. That’s the part that hurts the most, because we know it’s wholly unnecessary. We also know the limits of or calling and the dominion that God has delivered into our hands. You’d be seriously mistaking something if you sensed the least bit of elitism or superiority in our work. Every day we are confronted with the overwhelming evidence of just what kind of Hell we have escaped in this life.

The Apostle John warned that it would only get worse, and that we should get used to it. So we let our light shine into the darkness and count ourselves so utterly fortunate to know what light is. The craft of called elders is to hold out God’s answer for those willing and able to take it. God is the One who actually chooses.

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Grouch No More

Here’s the real miracle: Not that I don’t get sick but that sickness doesn’t get me.

I’ve always tried to face it with humor, but the protective barricades were weak. Thus, I’ve done my best to hide away when ill because I was never fit company for anyone else. Someone trying to play the attentive nursemaid risked my wrath, and my talent for verbal abuse can be really quite substantial, I sadly admit.

In my effort to pray for the next mission in my life, I asked frequently for a softer demeanor. Having a divine calling as a loner need not include a prickly exterior. The whole idea was to avoid making unreasonable demands of others, even while asserting that solitude is a very reasonable choice. If I can’t get away from them, let me at least be more tolerable, O Lord, so that faith shines through.

I am grateful that God’s mercy has reduced my susceptibility to common seasonal sickness, but He never promised there would be none. He designed viruses, too. In previous generations I’d have been long dead from one or more of my various genetic predispositions to infections of various kinds. As a child it was frequent ear infections; as an adult it’s my sinuses taking great delight in sealing up against all efforts at relief and growing bacteria. I’ve gotten better at defeating that using fairly benign means, but none of them are foolproof.

This time through, I’ve managed to keep that at bay. However, this is a tough virus with a long lifespan. My heart told me this was all God’s good training for the mission. In previous times, I would not have been able to accept, much less hear such a message. So instead of grouching, I’m worshiping and longing for a nice walk in the woods.

And that I am able to focus long enough to write this should indicate I’m starting to mend. It’s slow, but His patience is enough for me.

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Sick and Sore

I won’t bore you with the gritty details, but it went like this: Last Wednesday I tore a muscle (Vastus Lateralis) in my left leg at the gym. It wasn’t the sort of thing where I noticed it all at once, but became quite painful later. The next day I got very sick with some kind of cold virus. Both of these have persisted hindering my normal activities through today. I’m okay and I’m generally not sharing my misery with others. When I feel bad I try very hard to be alone, scarce, etc. I am of no use to anyone else right now. Spend more time chasing Robert’s wonderful links from my previous blog post.

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100 useful websites

You gotta see this, from my friend, Robert Lee in Hong Kong.

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Two Wings of the Same Vulture

It became popular some years ago to refer to the two primary US political parties as the red and blue wings on a doomed aircraft. It didn’t’ matter which color you favored, the destination was the same. Only a fool fails to recognize the truth in that.

It’s a very old con game to take down a victim. One pretends to be your enemy and the other your friend, but they are working together for the same goal of manipulating you into something to benefit them and harm you. When you multiply the victim times millions of people, it doesn’t change the technique, it just adds more drama. You gain a wide range of folks who buy into one story or the other, in varying degrees of useful idiocy. Meanwhile, the elites at the top are competing on a different structure entirely than what we see portrayed in the press.

That same con game is everywhere you look. I downloaded and read the original 2009 version of Which Path to Persia from the Brookings Institute. It’s dreary stuff, but you can find it outlined in many places on the Net. It lays out the strategy of broad based warfare against a range of nations that have the audacity to operate independently from the US and her allies. All it does is formalize previous long-term plans, and there has been scarcely any departure from it since publication. One of the better sources for tracking this stuff is Tony Cartalucci’s “Land Destroyer” blog. In a recent post he noted that the current noise about Obama threatening to shoot down Israeli jets attacking Iran is just an other aspect of that old con game — it’s a false story.

The folks using this obscene script already know that all they really have to do is create a plausible story. Anyone who objects too strenuously would face their “justified wrath.” It’s part of the popular mythology that they fear rioting and revolt here in the US, but I’ve long believed that was another bogus story. Here again we have the effect of two con-men manipulating a victim, in the shape of controlled opposition, particularly the activist-conspiracy press. The victim is a subdivided mass and each identifiable group has faces their own brand of manipulation.

Recently the “resistance” activists have been making noise again about the alleged Clergy Response Teams organized by FEMA. The story goes that a bunch of clergy have been seduced, and perhaps even subtly coerced, into agreeing beforehand to assist FEMA in calming the populace when martial law is declared and folks are rounded up en masse for detention in camps. This extends an older story based on the alleged REX 86 and all those FEMA camps that nobody can find. Yes, I’ve seen the list and, locally here in OKC at least, it is preposterous. That doesn’t mean that the US government has no camps at all, and wouldn’t round folks up into those camps. They’ve already done it, but it was ad hoc. Remember Hurricane Katrina and New Orleans? It’ll be better organized next time, but that’s a picture of how our government acts. Especially should you remember the horror stories about blocking aid sent by WalMart, cutting emergency communications cables for isolated communities, and other forms of unconscionable oppression.

The hateful actions by FEMA weren’t all planned and coordinated so much as the natural result of hiring psychopaths to run things. Psychopaths are particularly poor at organizing competent agencies because they tend to hire the lowest grade of idiots with meaningless degrees who can be manipulated and controlled with ease. So what you have is FEMA composed of incredibly incompetent and stupid people who only understand taking control and keeping it at all costs to the lives and safety of folks they “serve.” One more time, readers: This is the norm.

Meanwhile, there is really very little support for the myth of the Clergy Response Teams. You’ll find a single news report dating back in 2007 from a station in Louisiana that actually talks about something else, but it confuses the story to make it sound bigger than it is. Some local fire department organized an emergency Clergy Response Team of their own through the work of a couple of volunteer chaplains. It’s the usual meaningless community coordination stuff you’ll find all over the world that tends to fall apart because it rests on fairly informal agreements hashed out with folks who often move on before anything happens. So when they actually got some partial cooperation from clergy who lived in areas not heavily damaged by a local emergency, it somehow morphed into a sinister plot. The only other evidence was cooked up by Alex Jones at Prison Planet. There is a packet of documents assembled into a PDF that looks like a sinister plot, but is actually pretty weak evidence if you know anything about the way clergy operate.

And FEMA hasn’t bothered to confirm or deny the story officially, so it smells like the usual noise and hype that was actually promoted behind the scenes to feed the propaganda machine. In case you aren’t already aware of it: Alex Jones serves the same folks who are pushing for war against Iran. Without their support he would have been in jail or dead long ago. Genuine informed opposition gets you killed if you can’t be marginalized.

Let’s get this real: Mass round-ups of residential populations work only when there has been a disaster that makes the local dependent class unhappy. It requires a critical mass of whiny-butts. If FEMA tried to pull a Katrina on the area where I live, there would be a significant armed resistance and they know it. They at least understand that much. They knew the portion of New Orleans flooded was loaded with dependent folks. I’m not too sure the Corps of Engineers didn’t allow the flooding, or even encourage it, for that section of New Orleans. The government is loaded with people who would do that sort of thing if orders came down the chain. But trying to create a panic where folks are more independent minded is wasted effort, and I’m pretty sure the FEMA folks know that. All the more so when you have some idea how thinly stretched are the personnel necessary for that kind of control even in communities likely to panic. FEMA had to hire mercenaries to disarm that small section of New Orleans they targeted for evacuation. Don’t try that in my neighborhood, even if a tornado rips the place apart and cuts off all services.

Nationwide martial law won’t happen. Most folks won’t riot until directly threatened, and I’m quite sure the federal psychopaths know that. So what’s more likely is simply bumbling along until a real disaster hits and then pulling back into their hidey-holes while their minions are slaughtered. Meanwhile, the majority of the population will simply come up with plans to rebuild and keep life going. At some point, the same underlying cultural biases will see another system in place that will beckon with open arms to the next crop of psychopaths.

As long as you don’t get wrapped up in the hype, you have some hope of going about your business for the most part. For those of us who have a mission from God, that business is pretty obvious in almost every context. My point is that you should expect some dramatic changes in the propaganda. Meanwhile, we will see some continuing problematic shifts within the government controls in terms of how they affect us. The net combined predatory nature of those running Western governments as a whole will not stop until there is nothing left to take from us with relative ease.

The global economy will collapse, but only in terms of how it’s currently wired. People won’t stop all economic activity, but it will become difficult when the convenient means of exchange disappears. The people pushing for warfare on their “Path to Persia” aren’t worried about that, and tend to believe they can force things even when the system breaks. They’ll resort to direct seizure of property and labor, for example. If they are careful, they’ll get away with it. At the same time, they will be competing against a few other, less well known projects of similar ambition.

Wise as serpents and harmless as doves, we should be ready for anything that comes as we seek to exploit all Creation for His glory.

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Stability in Motion

I was altogether serious about it. In my mind was a wealth of possibilities for building a new and different kind of faith community. I still hope to see that, but I won’t be involved in that mission in the near future. You can expect me to keep talking it up because it’s still a shining vision of what God can do. I sincerely hope that, if you have the opportunity, you get involved in something like that, dear readers.

In other words, don’t be discouraged because God has called me to pull back from that mission. What I expect to engage here in the near future will still aim at the shining vision of church as God intended. For me, at least, there is some ground to cover before I can get involved directly.

On scholarly grounds alone, I would contend that we have to rebuild a whole lot more of the individual faith and morals of Scripture before we could know where to start. It’s almost as if each of us is Abraham all over again. We see the land and hear God’s promise to give it to those who follow in our faith-steps, but there is a certain reduced likelihood that we ourselves will see much of it on the ground.

Thus, the emphasis here will be more on individual faith and how to survive in a hostile world. As the old Petra song “Not of This World” says:

We are pilgrims in a strange land
We are so far from our homeland
With each passing day it seems so clear
This world will never want us here
We’re not welcome in this world of wrong
We are foreigners who don’t belong

We are strangers, we are aliens
We are not of this world.
(Bob Hartman, 1983, Star Song Music)

They didn’t know the half of it. This kind of talk was trendy with folks in the new rock-oriented “Jesus Movement” at the end of the previous century. Not to attack their sincerity, but they were still too close to the dominant culture for my tastes. Let’s say it’s a good start in the right direction, though.

What we are up against is a world of resistance from just the folks who fondly remember this song. Any attempt to attack the primacy of Western Civilization is the shortest path to marginalization from even the most well-meaning believers these days. Most Christians are convinced that the West was a work of God, the results of the Church trying to remake the world. That would be an oversimplification at best. But those of us who feel called to this ancient faith of Abraham as the heart and soul of what Christ taught are not just aliens, but alienated from the rest of believers.

It’s been my experience that until we demonstrate the power of our faith, show how it works to defeat the flesh and bring a peace that outlasts the earth itself, we can’t win a hearing. That’s what we share here on this blog. I rather doubt many of my readers sense the exact calling I do for myself, but there is plenty of ground we can share. What I want to promote is not that we hold off experimenting with doing church right, but that we also give consideration to what it takes to remain in the grip of faith when church is impossible for us. From what I’ve seen, we don’t have a broad legacy of religion that stands on this more ancient ground. We don’t know much about living the ancient faith in the face of such overwhelming odds until we do more of it.

This is the ground I sense I need to cover first. In the near future, you should expect to read more about real-life experiences here. I am convinced the Lord is calling me to a rarefied atmosphere that tests this kind of faith. I’m still serious about how this is supposed to play out in a congregation of folks with similar faith. Meanwhile, this online, virtual parish isn’t going anywhere until someone or something shuts it down over my objections.

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