An Occurance at the Gym

I’m feeling crappy today, though hardly so bad as others who went through the same URI before me here. Right now it’s a little hard to think, but I’ll try.

For the first time in a very long time, someone out of the blue asked me for social advice. You could see the poor fellow was a bit worked up about getting out of a bad situation. It had nothing to do with romance and everything to do with Game.

As I’ve noted here before, if you can focus on what it takes to be a genuine woman-magnet, you’ll also do quite well in virtually every other activity, but especially is this true of social situations. This fellow had a serious game deficit. He didn’t know how to deal with a manipulative old lady that was pushing him too hard for little favors. Regardless of her needs, he was not in a position to adopt the old gal and do for her. He was clearly worried about the repercussions of telling her she had worn out her welcome.

You can probably guess my advice, but I told him the first thing was to be direct, to work out how he was going to tell her that she demanded too much. I suggested he play through his head repeatedly how he felt she would react and simply embrace any social punishment she might dole out. He also worried about her family members, these all being associates and friends since his childhood. I told him each person’s response was a separate issue, despite how they might use his choice as an excuse for various things they might do.

I also encouraged him to start being the same man in all contexts. Naturally, we know you don’t always reveal what sort of man or woman you are as fully in every context, but you never change your basic personality. So I suggested he stop the social schizophrenia, pull himself together and learn to live with a crappy world.

Who knows? It might do him some good. I’ve been lifting his name before the Lord.

I’d like to think this will snowball into the same kind of ministry outreach to others. I’d like to think this signals I am able to project my game frame in places like the gym, where I am definitely outmatched by some really big and studly bodybuilders. Self-confidence and comfort with your own skin does come across; some folks are drawn and some driven away. That’s how it is in this world. Some will want what you’ve got and others flee it for whatever reason. He was afraid of something and the hunger of his soul recognized my lack of fear.

After all, game frame is just another term for godliness, for walking in His justice.

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Short Clarification on Shepherding

I call myself an Internet Pastor. The term “pastor” is a synonym for shepherd, but carries a lot cultural and social baggage that really isn’t appropriate. Were I more precise with biblical terminology, I would use the label Internet Elder.

Western Christianity is terribly confused on quite a few fundamental issues, not least of which is the two primary offices in the New Testament. Going all the way back to the prophets, there are elders and priests. The Lord refers to Two Witnesses whose mission is to feed the fire of revelation, a light to the world. They approach it differently from their roles, each feeding the flame by how they cling to the moral justice of God. In most English translations it’s more like king and priest, but the Medieval image of either role has no place in this picture. King is more like a tribal chief or elder, a father figure.

My calling is eldership, not priesthood. In the strictest sense, the New Testament pastor performs the priestly role, while the elder is an organizational ruler. We can’t make sharp divisions in the Western sense of things between the two roles, but the priestly pastor is more focused on the ethereal meaning of things. The elder is more concerned with how to keep things organized for that ethereal purpose. Both men would have a powerful overlap in thinking and how they understand things, but tend to divide the task of guiding the family of faith. Both would teach and preach; both operate as equals in the larger mission of shepherding. The difference is in focus and methods.

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VMs: Best of Both Worlds

I admit it: I really get more work done on Windows 7, so that’s what I run on my primary machines. The integration with the hardware simply cannot be matched in Linux and it’s almost boring how things keep working so well without a bunch of tweaking. Most Linux users are constantly tweaking their systems, in part trying to resolve long-term issues. Were I facing a higher threat context, I would probably run Linux on the metal, but it simply does not work as well.

Instead, I run virtual machines. I keep Debian Wheezy on VMWare and I also have XP Mode for stuff that doesn’t work on Win7.

The latest VMWare Player (free version) does a really good job of making Debian easy to install. It correctly identifies the installer CD and may offer to install the tools for you right away. Don’t; wait until you get Debian installed. The menu on VMWare Player allows you to add the tools later. What happens is that it mounts the tools as a virtual CD, typically at /media/cdrom/. You can’t run it from there; you have to copy those files somewhere within the file system of the running Debian VM. I used /opt/. There, you can unzip the untar the files and run the installer logged in as root.

Basically the command is perl vmware-installer.pl — you pretty much need only accept all the defaults for every question it will ask you. Then log out and log back into your user account; this will restart X with all the drivers.

This allows you to integrate it more fully into your Windows desktop and add permissions on your Win7 system folders and files for Debian to read and write. Frankly, the primary value is being able to run the weird networking stuff Linux offers and all the security. Your running Debian VM is just as secure as Debian stand-alone from viruses and malware. I know a few folks who do all their surfing and email on a Linux VM to protect their Win7 desktop system. The one thing you simply cannot get is the Linux X-server mouse behavior using mouse-paste.

I still recommend folks installing Debian if they can get by without a full-blown Windows installation. If your system has enough horsepower, go ahead and install VMWare on Debian and run XP or whatever version you need for Windows stuff. If you are just surfing the Net and doing simple stuff, that should work. Still some hardware is just not compatible with Linux and if you do any significant real work with specialized software, sometimes Linux won’t do it for you.

Make up your own mind, but don’t ignore the possibilities.

Addendum: I should have noted the laptop runs Debian Wheezy as before. There are too many factors I can’t control when I take that thing somewhere and try to use wifi connections I can find.

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Your Feelings; Your Problem

Human emotions are the most unreliable indicator this world can offer.

Our single greatest moral duty is obeying divine justice. That moral justice does not include a duty to consider someone’s feelings. You have no duty at all to my feelings, and vice versa. You have no duty to your own feelings, either. The tyranny of considering the feelings of others has done more to degrade the social fabric than almost any other negative factor you can name. It arises from the sheer nonsense that your feelings reflect anything of importance in themselves.

Your feelings are not you. They are merely the internal noise of your competing desires and commitments. Strong feelings are no more than an indicator of how morally weak you are.

Don’t raise the false dichotomy of the emotionless, cerebral human computer. There’s nothing wrong with expressing your emotions for the most part, but our society is founded on a horribly evil mythology that says the only way to escape the tyranny of feelings is to embrace cruelty. That’s simply giving the wrong feeling supremacy. You don’t have to be a berzerker warrior to conquer human weakness and silence your fears and guilt. Don’t buy the idiocy that you have to be either warm and caring or hateful and cruel.

In the Bible, warm and caring means I’ll share your pain but we both have a duty to God that supersedes all our feelings. God is most certainly not cruel, but He is surely inscrutable. His feelings were crystallized in the image of the Cross — He cares enough to pay the ultimate price for the demands of His own justice. From Genesis up through the last prophet, God showed that same caring warmth equally mixed in solution with His holiness. In Christ, He showed them as a living human person. It is only our human folly to separate the two.

So as your Internet Pastor, I’ll give you everything you need to handle your feelings, but I can’t do it for you. Truth is a lot more important than your feelings. If you confuse frankness with rudeness, you’ll never understand anything. If your definition of “nice” permits hiding the truth, you have a very serious problem. Yes, sometimes telling you that you aren’t ready to hear the truth is as much truth as you can handle. If you don’t accept the underlying epistemology, I owe you precious little. You can’t get inside by jumping the fence; I wasn’t the one who placed the only gate.

I’m left with warning you that if you don’t turn the sword of truth on yourself first, you can’t use it. I’ll show you what the sword is and where it is, but you have to pick it up. You have to run it through your own soul. If I have to do it for you, it will be for the purpose of keeping you at a distance, defending my mission against your assault. When such is the case, you cannot possibly understand what’s going on in the first place.

I will seem any number of evil things you despise, and I won’t spare your feelings at all.

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Death of the Internet?

What will an Internet Pastor do when there’s no Internet?

So we have yet another prognostication that the end of the Internet is nigh. Of course, as with all things future, we can see some of the current trends, but cannot guess how it will interact with other trends. Thus, we cannot accurately predict the future from current trends, only make educated guesses.

But pretend for a moment this business of blogging dies away. What will I do with my computer? For the most part, it will become what my first computer was: a glorified typewriter. Some elements of human behavior don’t change when there is nothing equivalent to replace basic structures. I am a writer. Whether anyone ever sees my stuff has little effect on the basic drive to write. Perhaps in a future civilization there won’t be any writing at all, so people who would be writers today would have some other means to communicate, perhaps something that doesn’t even exist yet.

There will always be a bit of friction with humans around. That is, so long as there are folks who use PCs and equipment that still runs, even if you remove all the current wiring and servers as the futurists predict, so long as there is any other electronic protocol for communications, you’ll find apps and adaptive hardware built for PCs to allow them some participation. Besides, I suspect the guy who wrote that stuff is ignoring the vast horde of business workstations out there. So long as businesses use networked computers, there will be an Internet, never mind whether government bureaucracies still use them.

None of this will hinder my prediction of the Networked Civilization. Networking is a more nebulous concept than simply the Internet and current technology. It means a link between devices that spans geographic distance with very little time lag. How you achieve that and what you send across that link has nothing to do with it. The whole concept depends on instantaneous communications accessible to the majority of humans involved. A social structure that presumes such networking is different from one that finds it a novel achievement.

Meanwhile, those who have interest in my pastoral output will just have to shift to another plan. My favorite idea is that you wouldn’t really need me anymore. I’d much rather folks use my stuff long enough to find their own paths and walk without my help. Dependency is not a virtue for either side of the equation. Meanwhile, I’ll always find a way to shepherd in one sense or another.

That’s the whole point: Let’s play it by ear and reach for something far beyond this disgusting mess.

(This theme is continued in a later post: Death of the Internet Revisited.)

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An End Is Near

Virtual, de facto, or plainly literal — it makes no difference. God reads the hearts of men. While His actions may seem slow on the human scale, He does not necessarily wait for men to act before He pronounces judgment. Human actions are merely the manifestation of a deeper evil.

Just one more vote, and the US Senate declares war on Iran; another seven after that is a veto-proof majority.

President Obama has admonished supporters of the bill to be honest that it is a de facto vote for war with Iran. The bill doesn’t explicitly call for a US attack on Iran, but endorses the idea of Israel attacking them whenever they feel like it.

Never mind that I despise Obama; when he’s right, he’s right. Modern Israel bears no legitimate relation to Israel of the Bible, so supporting this Israel is supporting a vast, unspeakable violation of God’s Law Covenants. If you are standing on the wrong side of God’s justice, you don’t want to see His hands at work.

I remain utterly certain that God will not allow us any measure of victory against Iran. The prophetic word of warning remains firm. No, Jehovah hasn’t revealed to me how things will turn out in concrete terms. That simply does not matter. His wrath has long rested upon the U.S. for a lot of other serious sins, but this will bring on something Americans would never expect to see. It’s not the end of the world, but it does signal the end of America in the sense of what folks recognize.

The only righteous prayer now is that God’s hand will be clearly revealed, that His glory will shine like a supernova so that none can offer any excuse. As a corollary, let His righteous ones find mercy in this time of trouble.

Pray that you can discern how to splash the Blood of the Lamb on your doorposts.

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Adventures Unknown

Got a summons for jury duty from the county. For years I was exempt because of the length of my military service, but I guess they were having trouble getting warm bodies to show up. So they changed the laws and now I can be ordered to participate in non-criminal cases.

Not that I really object all that much. I have zero empathy with the notion of civic duty, but I’ll play by the rules and laws as much as I can simply because it will be an adventure. Who knows what God will bring forth from this? Meanwhile, I get to ride my bicycle just under 20 miles one way to the courthouse early in the morning. If they actually put me to work, I’ll be riding back and forth every day until it’s over.

I’ve already harassed the courthouse folks by email. I wanted know where I could park my bike. They have their own designated bike rack right up next to the courthouse where security can see it. And though they have a TSA-like security entrance to the building, they told me I could schlep my lunch and riding gear through. There’s no way I could afford to eat out in that part of the city; it would cost more than the paltry $20/day they offer jurors. Besides, it’s awfully hard to find food on my weird diet anywhere close to the courthouse.

It will be interesting to see what kind of folks I encounter there.

The only real drawback is that it will clobber my workout schedule for as long as it lasts. I can compensate for short periods using the high tension workout method, but it’s not the same.

What really surprised me is how little information there is on what it’s like to be a juror for Oklahoma County. The courthouse website is very sparse and there are broken links all over the place. Apparently they did some renovation on the site and never bothered to check all the pages on the site map. At any rate, it is the sort of thing that folks should be able to read about, so I guess it will be up to me. I can’t take my laptop, but I should be able to describe the process without divulging anything that is supposed to stay under wraps.

That will be about the end of the month, so stay tuned if you are curious.

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Governed by Self-indulgence

Don’t be self-indulgent and allow yourself to operate like a six-year-old.

When I describe the stages of human moral development, I’m offering a frame of reference. It’s a working model of how things tend to go. So when I say a child of six is a true believer in the social rules she has learned, that does not keep her from reverting to a previous stage of moral development. She might still be defiant, but in her better moments, it will drive her nuts when some adult contradicts her simplistic definition of reality.

That variability in personal resolve is part of the Fall. It’s why so very many adults cannot spend much time operating at an adult stage of moral development. Some never get there in the first place.

In The Road Less Traveled, Dr. Scott Peck referred to four stages of human moral development. They are connected to cognitive development, but don’t track precisely. So at age 5, kids begin modeling outside the family circle, but it takes another year to fully develop the capacity for embracing social convention. Those two stages on different scales are related, but it’s not always precisely correlated. Our discussion of human development is a series of interconnected models, useful for academic discussion, but not a full reflection of reality. Human nature is simply too complex and variable.

That is as it should be, in a certain sense. Our expectations and program for moving forward in this life must reflect that variability. The single greatest flaw in any planning is not making room for natural variations. You can find a wealth of examples in government policies. Uniformity is cheap and easy, but real humans are a train-load of work. Simply mandating a set of subcategories into which humans are then slotted is not kindness; it’s just an excuse to enlarge the bureaucracy. The underlying mistake is aiming at some particular outcome. Having an objective is inherently evil because of how it forces procedure to deny humanity.

God says the fundamental goal of human government will always be social stability. It’s not an achievement, but a never-ending chore. It’s all about the process. Lord knows, you’ll hear the phrase often enough from apparatchiks, but it’s an Orwellian abuse of language. The whole point of the Law Covenants is providing a particular atmosphere, a context in which God can show His glory. Attempts to restrict His glory by ignoring His guidance is the primary reason human governments don’t last very long.

One of the biggest failures of Western Christianity is assuming the church is not a human organization. They want so very much to have Heaven on Earth — a blasphemous and filthy desire in itself — that they insist the visible organization must be considered special. God said He had two witnesses on the earth: ritual worship and social regulation. He characterized it as priest and king. No part of this is reflected very well in Western history, because our definitions of the terms are radically wrong. Church as a human activity is a form of government in the sense it is tasked with upholding an atmosphere in which God is glorified. Priest and king were supposed to work together; church and state are inseparable in God’s eyes.

That doesn’t mean one should have priority over the other. The two are regarded as separate sources providing the means to God’s glory. They must play nicely together in their own division of labor. In Western Civilization, it’s not possible. In Western minds, the fundamental definitions of each demands that one must dominate, with each serving their own different god. What no one wants to hear is that the god of the West has always been Satan in one form or another. That is, the god of the state is the state, and the god of Western Christianity is nothing like the God of the Bible. The Pharisees and Judaizers won, and the Western church serves a false god in the sense of having defined Jehovah in utterly false terms.

And only in a silly Western mind does that mean we must fight those institutions.

Let’s try a lesser example: If I tell you Microsoft is evil, that doesn’t mean you sin by running Windows on your computer. So if I tell you the US government is evil, you still need to observe the New Testament pattern of trying to avoid conflict with whatever government asserts worldly authority. King David did plenty of stupid stuff, too, so even those regimes that are held up as models of moral probity will never be Heaven on earth.

Tension and imperfections are the nature of this world. Get used to it. Demanding things get all nice and sweet for more than a few moments at a time is where we get stoners and mass murderers.

The biggest mistake is simplistic absolutism as a guide to how we operate in this world.

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Job 23

You would almost think that Job simply ignores Eliphaz. Rather, he refuses to dignify such stupidity with a direct answer. Instead, Job rips the foundation out from under the lies.

Job reexamines the facts. He asserts his suffering is great, hinting that it is more than any one the trio could bear. It’s not as if Job could appeal directly to God in person. Could he do so, this whole thing would be ended in minutes. God is not known for answering just any random appeal for explanations; mere human need is not a valid basis for seeking God’s face. You have to approach Him on behalf of His own glory.

Nor would God reject Job. God is not deaf even now to Job’s cries, but there has to be a reason beyond human ken. Such is God’s nature. You cannot chase Him down as you would anyone living on the earth. God is not confined to human space. So while Job cannot touch God, God can touch Job any time He likes. And God knows Job has pure motives, a clean heart wholly committed to Him alone.

God is the ultimate mystery and ultimate sovereign. He does whatever He wants with Job until it pleases Him to change the situation. This is what causes Job to tremble. It’s not because Job has some fear in his heart, or moral blind spots. Job sees as clear as daylight that the whole question turns on God’s sovereign whims and nothing else.

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I Am a Tryant

So I’ve been told, at least.

The cosmic moral principles don’t change to meet your mythology. They work in all contexts, even when everyone present denies them. One of those principles deals with dominion. The concept of human rights is mythology; dominion is reality. I make a conscious effort to keep the radar turned on so I can sense when I cross over into someone else’s domain.

When I’m not in charge, I operate accordingly. I defer to the master of the domain with proper respect. I challenge dominion only when God requires it of me, which is very seldom. Most of the time I simply adopt the divine protocols for dealing with authority, as best I understand them. It works. That is, in the sense of what God’s Laws tell us we ought to expect, with all the variations we see exemplified in the Bible narrative, God blesses proper protocol.

When I am in charge, I assume it with great reluctance. I take it all as a trust from God; I observe the same protocols regardless of the various mythologies of those who enter my domain. I might be fully aware of those mythologies, but I am not accountable to God for them. I am accountable for staying on protocol with Him, and it is my duty to slap down false understandings. Give me a chance, and I’ll explain. Fight, and you’ll get hurt. I promise, because that’s what God requires of me.

There are two primary issues in my household when dealing with me. (1) Unload the emotional drama from your communications. There is plenty of room for being expressive and entertaining; I use it myself and allow it for others. However, when there is a problem, don’t come to me making demands as if I am somehow bound by your imaginary concept of rights. Ask questions and make appeals for reconsideration. Otherwise I’ll crush you. (2) Learn to take “no” for an answer.

Whining, bitching and arguing are out of line. If you are under ten years old, I might be a little more tolerant, but full adults get no slack. I would most certainly expect the same treatment for myself.

Yep, I’m a tyrant.

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