No Debian for the Clueless

It crossed my mind I could start a new project. Given Debian was about to release their newest — “Squeeze” 6.0 — and I wanted to install it on my laptop, it seemed I might write a few articles here about it. But it’s crazy.

There are a lot of Debian users in the world, and they all seem to write little HOWTOs and tips. The documentation for Debian-related stuff is massive on the Net. The biggest problem is simply learning enough about Linux in general, because Debian does not offer a single unified tool for system configuration. You really have to know a lot about each individual item in order to even know what you want to configure.

I didn’t have any trouble installing the Squeeze RC-2, just a single hiccup when it couldn’t quite wipe the Win7 NTFS partition cleanly. I’d swear Win7 tries to do something crazy to hard drives so nothing else can use them — ever. But I got it installed without any further drama and everything works fine. Still, I realized how much I took for granted knowing about when I started writing notes. By the time I could simplify it down for the clueless, it would be a book.

Further, the dead-tree books on Linux are always obsolete by the time you see them in the stores. It’s a moving target, and it seems to be getting faster every year.

At any rate, Debian is not for newbies who don’t have someone to hold their hand. I really like it, and it’s support is almost as long as for RHEL and clones. It’s very hackable (hacking in the harmless sense). But I would have to set up a long series of classes to teach Debian to folks who hadn’t experienced Linux before. I’d be teaching a lot of generic Linux first, because Debian is pretty generic.

On top of that, a lot of serious Debian fans already hate my writing, so it’s not as if I could draw a bunch of traffic here from them. I suppose it’s because I’m not a part of the Church of Debian. Still, I can recommend it to those with a thirst for computer knowledge and experience with Linux.

Update: I’m already getting belligerent comments from the Church of Debian devotees. If you are one of those, don’t bother commenting, because I’ll delete it.

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Don’t Trust Them

As many people do, I read news on the Web. I don’t have time to read everything offered by most of the news agencies. Nor would I trust their instincts about what is news and what is just a story. I read a few because they seem to have a knack for picking up on stuff which is very popular with journalists around the world, so I’ll know what they are lying about today: BBC, CNN, MSNBC, and a couple of local TV station websites. Just so I know what the controlled opposition has to say, I check Drudge Report, too. Fox News websites usually exhibit such poor design, I just don’t bother.

Then I check a few news aggregation sites. Most of them give ample room to conspiracy theories, and I want to keep an eye on what the alternative news hounds want us to believe. But because so many of them are just another form of controlled opposition, it isn’t quite so easy to pick and choose whom to trust. A few you should obviously never trust is the likes of Alex Jones, anyone who gives space to Sorcha Faal, Greg Palast and others of that ilk.

What’s left is still a pretty broad selection, and I am sure I haven’t found all the decent ones, but I have discarded a few who finally revealed their colors as untrustworthy. In general, I would say to anyone who wants me to read their site, these are some of the tests I use.

1. If you embrace the official reports for 9/11, you are either abysmally ignorant of physics or intellectually dishonest. Either way, it causes me to doubt you know enough to talk about anything at all. We can debate all year what did happen, but we should all see easily what did not happen, and burning jet fuel did not bring down the towers.

2. If you can’t bring yourself to talk about how Israel’s government is creating serious problems for the rest of the world, you need to stop talking about those problems. This is not about Jews nor the Holocaust, but about a ruling elite who are too obviously psychopaths, the same ones ruling the US.

3. If you promote political involvement in the US election process, you aren’t smart enough to advise me on anything useful. Stick with trading recipes or dog grooming tips, something safe.

4. If you believe we are now recovering from a recession, or will soon do so, you don’t understand economics. Okay, maybe you are a professional liar about economics, but either way, no one should trust you. If you believe the financiers and bankers aren’t at fault for the mortgage crash, you must be one of them.

5. I don’t care where Obama was born, nor who his father actually was. But if you take him seriously, and believe he is going to do anything good at all for the citizens of the US, or any other country, you are more dangerous than he is. There is no way I will take you seriously about anything. Tell me the sky is blue and I’ll look outside the make sure. You might as well tell me unicorns fly and fart rainbows.

6. If you are utterly certain the world’s ruling elite are all one unified group of evil psychopaths, you need to go back to school. They are there, and awfully intelligent, and psychopaths, with all their secrets and powers, but they are hardly united. Nor will they ever be united. The Jesuits do not rule the world, but they probably would like doing so, and do rule parts of it. The Masons might have been pretty fearsome at one time, but their direct influence is dying. Folks still use their organization to mask evil, but the bulk of the Masons are just weirdos. The CFR, Bilderbergers, Trilaterals, Club of Rome, and similar folks are the snotty elite of olden times, but their grip is tenuous. They don’t actually control their own thugs. The CIA, Mossad, MI6 and similar agencies are pretending to serve some of the others, but actually have their own agenda. All of them are horrifically evil, and we could blame them for 99% of all human misery today, but that is in part because they are not united. How it is they compete without destroying each other outright is anybody’s guess, but they aren’t all one thing.

7. If you trust me to tell you what really matters, you are crazier than I am.

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We Got Troubles

Locally here, we’ve been promised to get a piece of the same snow storm about to hit a big chunk of the US. Oklahoma seldom gets that kind of stuff, and we don’t invest that much in the requisite equipment, so we can expect major road and transportation issues. School closures will be a prominent feature of the coming week.

Meanwhile, our thug in Tunisia is out, and his would-be replacement is faring no better, since he wants to keep his under-thugs on staff. Egypt will also toss our thug there, but they got another one in line who only appears nicer. El Baradei is the CFR-Bilberberg candidate, but it seems the protesting Egyptians are fooled by him. Some of our other thugs in that part of the world are also in trouble. Oh, wait — it seems a large portion of the US population now realizes they aren’t our thugs, but clients of the ruling regime of thugs over us, too. Yeah, it’s one big thug club, and we aren’t in it.

For now, the Americans are too highly conditioned to follow the examples in Tunisia and Egypt in such numbers. We have a century of enstupiating mal-education and entertainment. We got fluoride in our water, which the Nazis discovered was a great way of controlling the masses, making them less likely to pay much attention to oppression. It’s like the fish, shrimp, and so forth who swim in our massive pharmacological pollution and start acting stupid, making themselves easy targets for predators. Except that pollution is what leaks into the waters from us, as we consume vast quantities of these drugs. All legally, of course. Or it leaks into the water from our industrial slaughter animal factories (AKA CAFOs). Steaks or chops, anyone?

Well, with prices being driven up on commodities speculation, food will inflate faster than the rest of the economy. That’s rather like fuel, as well, which just recently took a big jump. These two items alone can make or break the more personal economics of average folks. So while there are all sorts of efforts to keep us lethargic and staring uncomprehendingly at most of what goes on around us in the rest of the world, that rumbling of thousands of empty stomachs will eventually be the rumbling of riots, and the rumbling of The Fed’s printing presses will be drowned out.

Now, here in the Heartland, we grow most of what is eaten in those megalopolis strips along our sea shores. We also produce a lot of the oil and gas they burn. If there is going to be serious trouble, it will be in those places where the urbanization stretches for hundreds of miles in all directions. There is no place to grow their food, so it has to be brought in from places like where I live. We are all too glad to send that stuff, but we need to be paid, and an awful lot of those urban folks are without jobs. If they start to riot, there really won’t be any place to send that stuff, since it can’t be transported in through such a mess.

We got troubles, but I think this is a pretty safe place to be while they get worse.

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RHEL 6 for the Clueless: LibreOffice as Update

Today Red Hat issued a security update for Open Office on all three versions which had it (4, 5, & 6). If you don’t have access to RHN, you would be crazy to try building it from the SRPM. Frankly, you’d be crazy for not updating to the latest version now supplied by Libre Office.

(Update: Please note the advice offered below in the comments, and avoid using the latest version of Java 1.7. The latest updated version of 1.6 is still available and is preferred.)

Get it here. You’ll need both the main package and the help files. Open a Terminal window and login as root. Place them in a convenient directory. I generally use /home/bkup for stuff like this. When you install RHEL with the default configuration, it gives most of the disk space to a partition for home, where all the user directories are kept. Unless you have a half-terabyte or more, the other primary partition isn’t big enough for too much storage. Remove your old version of Open Office if you have it:

yum remove openoffice*

You’ll be shown a list of files being deleted. Do it. So you get it in that directory where you moved those two files, and you’ll need to open them up:

tar -xvfz LibO_3.3.0_Linux_x86_install-rpm_en-US.tar.gz
tar -xvfz LibO_3.3.0_Linux_x86_helppack-rpm_en-US.tar.gz

This will create two folders with matching long names on them. Start with the installer. Move down into the folder and you’ll see:

ls
readmes RPMS update

You can drop down into the readmes and take a look at the file there, but I’ll save you some time. Drop down into the RPMS folder. The “update” is a script we won’t be using. Inside the RPMS folder is a whole bunch of oddly named RPMs. We’ll keep this simple. In order to install these packages, which did not come from Red Hat, we’ll need to tell Yum to skip the signature checks, because we already know we can trust the good folks at Libre Office.

yum install --nogpgcheck *.rpm

On the the Linux command line, that asterisk is a symbol which means “match all” and we qualify that with the “.rpm” so it matches all the RPMs in the current folder. Yum will run through all the RPMs and check that they match up, then ask you to make sure you want to do it. You do, so hit “y”. Now move into the folder which holds the menu integration RPMs:

cd desktop-integration

Here, we need the package which integrates with the Red Hat menu system for your desktop, and we’ll tell Yum the same thing about that package, not checking the signature:

yum install --nogpgcheck libreoffice3.3-redhat-menus-3.3-6.noarch.rpm

Move up three layers, then down into the other folder with the RPMs:

cd ../../../LibO_3.3.0rc4_Linux_x86_helppack-rpm_en-US/RPMS

We need a similar incantation for this single RPM as we did the others:

yum install --nogpgcheck *.rpm

You’re almost done. I’m not sure where it came from, but there is an odd glitch in how this actually configures the menu. In mine, at least, I got duplicate entries, with one set for the new Libre Office 3.3, and another for the old Open Office 3.2. This stuff happens from time to time, and it’s why I advised adding the Alacarte menu editor in my installation tutorial.

Right-click on your “Applications” menu and select “Edit Menus”. In the window which opens, on the left pane select “Office” and you’ll see the list on the right pane. For all the items labeled “OpenOffice.org” simply click to remove the check marks. They are the ones missing the icons. This will hide them as menu entries. All that’s left is the newly installed LibreOffice stuff. You’re done. Enjoy.

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Poor Man’s Windows Server: zPanel and WAMP

Update: The ZPanel site has moved to here to take advantage of Sourceforge hosting. See the comment below.

(Original post begins below.)

So you have this Windows machine, and you really have to have a server. It’s not necessary to spend thousands of dollars on all those fancy licenses and wade through complicated setup and maintenance procedures. You can get the stuff for free and works well enough.

With Linux, you’ll often hear of the LAMP stack — Linux, Apache webserver, MySQL database and PHP. There is also a WAMP stack, with pretty much the same stuff. While I still highly recommend Webmin for Linux, and it will work on Windows, it won’t work as well. There are fewer modules for Windows, and you’ll need a different collection of servers not covered by Webmin. So I recommend zPanel. It’s not as fancy and commercially slick as cPanel, but zPanel is free and it will get you past the worst of the configuration details.

You can find the zPanel documentation here. They used to offer a brief tutorial on setting up a server to run from your home, but their documentation is currently being rewritten (you can find several guides by others using your favorite search engine). If you want to see some older documentation, I highly recommend you see this video tutorial at YouTube because there were a few gotchas in the process. However, what might interest you the most is how zPanel installs Apache, MySQL, and hMailServer for you, and configures them for use. If you need to run an FTP server, it works best with FileZilla server, which is also free.

No, there is no Samba server setup, because Windows does file and printer sharing natively. Tutorials are all over the Net, and it only takes few minutes.

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Discontinuity Failures

I don’t fit. Every time I try to get involved in some organized effort to fix something, I am confronted with a demand I compromise on something else.

If I try to work with any part of the moral peace movement, I’m struck with a horrendous personal immorality movement. How can they offer such glorious expressions of public morality and be so filthy in private?

If I try to work with those promoting personal morality, I’m forced to adopt a horrendous immoral warfare promotion. How can they claim holiness when they are consumed with blood lust?

Worst of all, both are quite willing to enforce their vision of morality on others at the point of a gun. Both are vying to gain the upper hand in government policy, which is nothing more than organized control via the threat of violence.

They’ll keep trying, and it will only crash and burn with greater frequency and greater violence until there’s nothing left. Futility.

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Not Migrating: Windows Security Considerations

Just because I’m convinced Linux has a better security posture than Windows does not mean Windows is useless. And sometimes you just don’t need that much control to get things done. Frankly, a badly configured Linux box is as easily trashed as the average Windows box. Windows can be secured, but it’s more work.

When it comes to running as a server, it’s hard to beat Linux for smaller operations. For any computer connected to the Net full-time, I trust a Linux over any Windows box. But when your computer has only intermittent access to the Net, particularly for laptops and other mobile devices, the threat profile is inherently lower. What you still have to guard against are things like viruses and spyware.

And let’s be honest: To the fanboy of any OS, theirs will always be the best. To the average user lacking such loyalties, Linux is still lacking for desktop and laptop use. The Linux desktop is simply not that compelling. And for some uses, Linux is frankly inferior. Gaming? Windows; no contest. Multimedia? It’s a little more complex. On the one hand, Open Source can access more kinds of formats, and can manipulate them easily, and seldom pays much attention to DRM and other vendor controls. On the other hand, Linux seldom competes in terms of resource usage. That is, to play the same multimedia file on a particular machine running Linux requires more horsepower than the same machine with the same file running Windows. There are a dozen reasons for this, and I’m not going to chase rabbits. Frankly, most people aren’t geeky enough to pay much attention to a resource meter, even if they had one, and which ones would you trust? Otherwise, I’d say Linux typically runs standard operations on a lot less RAM.

Generic instructions on securing Windows are all over the place, and frankly contradictory at times. I’m not going to pretend I am an expert. All I know is what I have experienced in the years of running Windows on at least one of the systems in my home, and helping others with theirs.

Never, ever trust McAfee and Norton. Both have been bought out by major corporations who then fired all the chief developers. Not since Windows 95 days have they been any good, and often a great deal of trouble. I’ve used a large collection of the free AV offerings and some of the commercial ones. I used to love AVG, but they’ve gotten fat and slow. I still rather like Vipre from GFI, but it started causing me some problems last year. These days I favor Avast from Alwil. The free version is good enough, and the paid version is even better.

For spyware, it’s a toss-up between Super Anti-spyware and Malwarebytes. The former is a bit more aggressive with the advertising, so I give Malwarebytes the edge. I don’t trust any software firewall. There was a time when ZoneAlarm was useful, but when it was bought out by some Mossad front in Israel, I dropped it like a hot rock. Never trust a company run by a foreign government secret agency, regardless of which country. Always prefer a hardware firewall (or router), but if you are using a laptop and free wifi, the built-in firewall on Vista and Win7 is better than nothing.

Sites related to entertainment — movies, music, games, etc. — are your worst enemy. It’s the cool toys which are used to sucker you into a situation which compromises your system. All the more so if your tastes run to vice. If you gotta have it, don’t run Windows. If you can restrain yourself, standard protections work fine.

You may recall in my post on securing Firefox on RHEL 6, I noted there it’s the same tricks used on Windows. Download and install first the CCleaner and learn how to use it. Or, use BleachBit for Windows. The point is to make sure you have something which eats evercookies, in particular the LSO cookies from Flashplayer. Install those addons: Adblock, Flashblock, Ghostery. Make sure to configure them to do the blocking. Facebook fans, you’ll need to make sure you tell Ghostery it’s okay to display the stuff from Facebook Connect, or you won’t be able to play any of those silly games. Better yet, stay away from Facebook, MySpace and similar idiot-bait sites.

Don’t run Chrome. On both Windows and Linux right now, the slightest little bit of JScript on the page and it starts running like a fully loaded truck. I’ve noticed it pulls about 50% of both my CPU cores regardless of which OS it runs on, and that’s just too much to ask. Internet Explorer does not honor CSS very much, so a lot of pages using Cascading Style Sheets for formatting the display will look ugly in IE. Opera is in a high state of flux right now, needing some good extensions, but most of what they now have works poorly. Also, their JScript engine tends to go nuts now and then, refusing to work in some of the oddest places.

Once again, we have this recurring theme: Take control of your computer use. If it’s worth doing, then it’s worth becoming self-sufficient.

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Sanity and Self-Sufficiency

In a previous post, I noted my interest in Linux and Open Source was primarily a matter of self-sufficiency, though I phrased it as a matter of having control over my computer. People want such control when they are ready to take responsibility for things, when they decide to be self-sufficient in some area of life.

In a broad general sense, self-sufficiency has a bad reputation in this world. It’s called everything else, including isolationism, tribalism, paranoia, etc. Those of us reaching for more self-sufficiency have no beef with the rest of humanity doing what they please, we just don’t want to be vulnerable when it serves no good purpose. There are plenty of things in this life where being open to injury is utterly necessary, and absorbing abuse is good and right. That’s what mysticism does to you; it makes you believe some things here aren’t as important as they seem because there are issues somewhere else, on another plane, which take priority. By the same token, such a concern over higher priorities will inevitably result in choices for greater self-sufficiency, if only to avoid unnecessarily burdening others.

In the virtual world, the Internet landscape, it is absolutely necessary we cooperate. Indeed, the Internet is the ultimate voluntary community. There is a certain necessary assumption in the very nature of the thing which calls for a high level of self-sufficiency in some areas, and somewhat more dependence in others. Failure to discern where those lines should be drawn is what makes it so ugly for the rest of the Net. For example, I note frequently the International Merchant Culture, with it’s utterly mercenary spirit, does everything in its power to subvert the nature of the Internet. That they aren’t strongly opposed is part of what makes the Net work, but using technology to route around them, as if they were some kind of damage or bottleneck, is wholly justified. If you want to block advertising and in your browser, it is entirely appropriate. They call it unfair, with all sorts of dire warnings this will hinder paying the bills for keeping good content on the Net, but I’m not so sure their content will be missed, since what they fund never fails to be self-serving. The mainstream media is, as a whole, a liar first and foremost. Sure, some decent folks will be caught in the middle, but nothing is simple. By using technology to frustrate their power grab, we remind Merchants it is all cooperative.

I don’t see WordPress, the host of this blog, suffering much by the lack of advertising on my blog, for instance. There are a few people who manage to do business without cutting throats, but I find them few and far between.

It’s that same evil mercenary spirit of the Merchant Culture which causes me to distrust them in my choice of operating system. I count Red Hat as a company generally lacking in the mercenary instinct, in part because such instinct simply won’t fit in with using Linux in the first place. Red Hat doesn’t contribute much to making Linux pretty or fun, but their developers are the single greatest source of kernel patches, and security improvements in general. If you want the extra toys and eye candy, you’ll have to get them for yourself. That’s self-sufficiency, particularly in the issues where you should have it. Where you should be able to trust them, with the arcane science of Linux internals, I find them trustworthy. It’s a compromise, and it works for me.

All the more so when the Merchant Culture is not the only threat in the Net. It’s not just the lawless crackers and Internet mafia folks, either, but governments. A particularly significant threat is the US government. The Internet was born here in the US, and it was a government project. However, it was funded by government because no one else could afford it in its infancy. Really expensive computers operated by academics at colleges and government research labs were government property, though not always owned by the same government entity. Basically, it was not really a government operation, but an academic one. The government was actually quite slow to catch on to its value. It was a large collection of academics, government employees, and some brilliant independent scientists who got it roaring before the ruling elite awoke to its power.

Here in the US in particular, government elites still say with a straight face they are simply serving the people. Since they promote this mythology, they have to come up with all sorts of fresh manipulations and lies when “We the People” who supposedly rule decide to do something with what our taxes have wrought, which activities tend to interfere with their Olympian plans. Yes, we know it’s all a big lie, but they are the ones who keep saying it’s our nation and our government, and they simply carry out our wishes. If our actions prove they are lying, because there is a conflict between what they say are our wishes versus what we clearly and obviously intend to do against their wishes, then they should have sense enough to realize they failed us. They usually do, but utterly lacking in any moral sense, they blame us.

I lose no sleep at night defying their wishes. A significant element in my choice to run Red Hat (or its clones CentOS and Scientific Linux) is defying elements of their unjust grab for power over my computer. I, for one, am utterly certain there are backdoors in Windows wide open to the NSA and other government agencies. While the federales have certainly poked their fingers in my eye once or twice intentionally, I rather suspect they don’t have the resources to pay attention to me right now. That doesn’t mean they won’t harm me, if nothing else, while targeting someone else.

By no means would I expect anyone going to jail for the crime of setting loose the Stuxnet worm on the Net. Not the real crooks, anyway. The government thugs already have laws on the books forbidding them doing such things, but they consider themselves a class apart; such laws apply to “We the People.” On the one hand, we hear this is one of the best constructed viruses ever. When reports came out later saying it wasn’t so brilliant after all, I figured that was at least partly lying propaganda, trying to put out the fire after the fact. If you ask me, having that nasty thing hit other computer systems besides the ones in Iran was just a part of their cover, a plausible deniability factor. Who’s to say their next nasty attack won’t hit ordinary folks like you and me? If it destroys the systems of a bunch of We the People mundanes, it’s just part of taxation, as far as they are concerned.

Somewhere between the need for security and need to get things done without wasting too much time, I find running Red Hat a pretty good compromise. You may well find the balance somewhere else, and I applaud you for at least looking into it and deciding for yourself. It occurs to me a greater mix, a proliferation of differing and distinctive operating systems connected to the Net, instead of the near-monopoly of Windows, would reduce the botnets and spam, not to mention the unintended consequences of government sponsored evil.

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She Doesn’t Want Me

“Chuck, tell me that wasn’t you I saw at the Boarhead last night! And with the hottest middle-aged babe in three counties.”

“Well, I was there, Merle, and the lady did seem to create a sensation with the males in the crowd.”

“I thought you were a celibate, Chuck, with all that mysticism mumbo-jumbo” Merle snickered. “You been holding out on me?”

“I’m still single because I’m very demanding. I’m not looking for someone to replace my dearly departed, just a worthy successor. As it was, this lady asked me out, and paid the tab.”

Merle threw both arms overhead, palms facing. “Touchdown! A hot babe sugar-mama!”

Chuck turned to drag the lunch box from his satchel. “I’ll answer your questions when you tone down the enthusiasm a bit.”

“Okay, okay. Look, man, I just want to know what was going on. You act like it didn’t turn out so good.”

“Nothing is a waste of time if you pay attention and learn from it. But it isn’t going the way she expected it.”

“She some kind of dominatrix or something? I can’t imagine anything else that would be a turn off.” Merle took a big bite of his sandwich.

Chuck twisted the lid off his thermal soup bowl. “No, she’s a very nice lady.”

“So how did you meet her? At that church thing you do?”

Swallowing a spoonful of soup, Chuck gave a wry smile. “Sort of. You know I volunteer to watch the indoor play area at the church to satisfy the insurance liability rules so they can let kids play there on Saturdays. Most of them are member kids and it’s kinda fun. A few weeks ago one family brought some neighbors with them.”

Merle smirked, “Oh, so she has kids. That’s always a good way to get to a woman. I know you sure have a way with children. They scare me.”

“I keep telling you, Merle, kids are not hard to deal with. You were one once.”

“That’s what scares me.”

Chuck rolled his eyes. “Look, the main thing is to take them seriously. Especially when they aren’t your kids, you don’t try to guide or push your own view of things on them. Just listen to them and help them explore their own thoughts and feelings. They get enough crap with people telling them what to do and what to think. Give them room to express what matters to them. If you know the answer to something they ask, give an honest answer. Tell them what you think, and that it’s only your own thoughts. Once they realize they can trust you, they’ll pour out their hearts.”

“That only sounds easy.”

“Well, Merle, if it ever matters to you, you’ll figure it out. At any rate, they quickly let me know they were hungry for adult male attention and were all over me. After couple of weeks like that, their mom showed up to watch them play. It changed their behavior, which is how I knew it was their mom. But they eventually came and talked to me, just without the expressive cuddling behavior. That’s when she approached me.” He took a couple bites of soup.

“She hit on your right away?”

“No. She just introduced herself. She’s too mature for lounge lizard behavior. But she was rather frank. She’s a widow, not a divorcee. In her own words, she was ‘a trophy bride’ for some ring-knocker who was killed in Afghanistan. Because he had been on the promotion fast-track, she never used her accounting degree except to keep the household budget. It was all Army wife politics and such. When he came home in a box, she was consoled briefly, then asked to move on quickly. She was told in guarded terms the other women worried she would poach someone else’s man, since she was so nearly the perfect wife.”

“Ah, a West Pointer, a politician in uniform. So her world came to an end.”

“Something like that. At any rate, she decided her masters in accounting might help her get into a different world. Wound up working in the bowels of the Fed branch downtown. She says it’s actually worse than military politics.”

Merle spoke around another bit of food, “So she’s pretty smart and you get along with the kids. What’s not to like? She expect too much of you? I know she couldn’t take her eyes off you at the restaurant. There might as well have been no other guys there.”

“Yes and no. It was rather unnerving, actually. People do that when they want something you shouldn’t give them. She made it easy for me to understand her, because she’s sane and fully conscious of her own mind — quite rare in women.”

Merle thumped his fist gently on the table. “So spill it man. What does she want that you can’t give?”

“She wants a father for those kids. She’ll have no trouble doing and giving herself completely to any man suited for the task. I don’t think it would matter if I was unemployed, even. And it’s quite commendable she is so focused on them; that’s the way a woman is supposed to be wired. But there’s nothing else there. It will be the best of all worlds while those kids are still maturing, even as far as getting through college if they want to go. She knows she can’t make them take any particular direction, and simply wants them up and able to live with their own choices. She plans on being the smart mom even after they become adults. But that’s it.”

“What do you mean, ‘That’s it’?”

“Merle, kids are not the end of life. They are an extension of who you are, but they aren’t the center of things. She has no interest in anything else. That’s all marriage is to her. It’s not about friendship and partnership with her. It’s all about duty. She would never be able to understand what matters most to me. My devotion to higher things, trying to live on that other plane — she has zero interest in that. It’s just ‘my thing,’ a hobby she’ll tolerate gracefully.”

Merle looked thoroughly puzzled.

Chuck was finished eating. Putting away his stuff, he said, “It’s like she wouldn’t be marrying me at all. She only wants the external shell, the matrix of behavior. She doesn’t want me.”

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I Trust Ben

Search engines have opened up the world to ordinary Net surfers. I can recall using Alta Vista, then liking Go better, then Yahoo, then Google. These days, Google is simply not the best. Oddly, Bing actually gives far better results on the searches I conduct, particularly when I search of Linux-related stuff. My experience with Google lately has been very disappointing, often throwing at me far, far too many sites which are pure traps put up by marketers. If I want merchandise, I’ll use Google Shopping (formerly Froogle). When I want information, marketing is an insult.

This I realized all by myself, without be told. I don’t hate Google; I simply don’t use them for much. I never trusted them, since their seed money came partly from US intelligence agencies. If you don’t know about Google’s efforts to support not only advertisers tracking your every eye-blink on the Net, but government surveillance, too, you simply haven’t been paying attention.

Meanwhile, for years I’ve been following the work of Ben Edelman, primarily in reference to malware and evil advertisers (which is just about all of them). So when Ben says Google is dishonest about search results on some things, I take his word on it. He didn’t come out the gate gunning for anyone in particular, except those who dodged the laws to take advantage of people. Some lawyers do that, you know. The only people I know who have any beef with Ben are the slimy marketers, spammers, and other human filth. So if Google and some others have a beef with Edelman, I tend to place them in the same category as spammers, marketers and other human filth. Especially if they accuse Edelman of bias.

Go get `em, Ben.

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