We Shall See Them

When I first felt the Lord’s call on my life some 50 years ago, I thought I knew what it meant. I struggled on that path, but kept getting pushed back and back and back. It wasn’t the people who pushed me back, but the hand of God.

Up until a couple of years ago, I still believed we could just side-step all the others and start with a clean slate. Just sweep away the stuff that doesn’t belong, and we can do covenant community right. But by the time I swept enough away, I discovered there was very nearly nothing left.

It’s like traveling back along a time line, earlier and earlier in the path, looking for a place to start over. At some point you realize you have to go back so very far that it’s very nearly like meeting the Apostles again.

I’m not so arrogant to think we are somehow THE people God has chosen to go back and get it right, as if there were one right answer. But there is for us at least one among some better possible answers. It’s not that we are competing with the answers men have had for the last two millennia; their time is done. God is about to do something very much like the Flood, and it will mean starting down a whole new path. When this flood goes away, the earth will be radically changed, just like it was for Noah. The difference is that God isn’t going to sweep away the rest of humanity. We have to build from scratch on a different plane.

Do I sound like a madman? That’s okay. The world is mad and I’m just a different flavor of crazy.

I can’t know if God plans to help very many people through our testimony of shalom, but I know He intends to help us. For at least some slice of humanity, there’s a message here of faith that is quite radically different from what anyone has heard in a very long time. We can offer it to everyone, but we can’t make them take it.

It doesn’t make us better, just better off. Whether or not it works for anyone else, it works for us.

I’m not writing Scripture, just trying to make the Bible easier to understand. I’m not starting something new, just raising a call to something ancient. I’m trying to echo what Jesus did with His own nation, in that He called them back to the ancient ways. We already have a resurrection, so it’s just a matter of getting back closer to it. We have to touch the living One Himself.

So, I hope and pray I live just long enough to see this thing take root. I believe it’s out there a ways yet. There’s still a major wave of destruction coming, something none of us can imagine. And as always, when God comes to visit, His wrath is one edge of a two-edged sword. That sword has miracles on the other edge. We shall see them if we hold to our faith.

We will see the birth of a new kind of faith, a covenant community. We shall see a large number of people embrace this faith like we did.

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Random Photos 07

Went back out to the NE corner of Oklahoma County today. It was very windy and somewhat cool, despite the thermometer reading a balmy 72°F (22C). This is a cattle pasture that wanders along a tributary of the Deep Fork River, featuring some redbud trees in the background. It’s a lot easier to stop and take pictures once you get back out on these low traffic roads.

Speaking of rural roads, this is NE 164th Street running off into Lincoln County (just east and north of Oklahoma County), where it’s name changes to Midlothian Road. Some of these days I’ll poke around out here some more, but this was part testing of the car and part chasing pictures.

This is some very hilly pasture land just over in Lincoln County, viewed from the side of the road that serves as the county line. It’s rough like this all over out here, but most of it is covered with trees, and so isn’t often visible. There were several places like this where you could just catch a glimpse from the road, but you’d have to trespass to get a good picture of it.

It was a very peaceful ride, playing classical music on the radio.

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Gird Up Your Loins

I’m inclined to support most of what Bill Sardi says this morning over at Lew Rockwell’s site. Seems to me I first heard of the Deagle estimate a couple of weeks ago. At the time, it didn’t really catch my attention, but it’s gotten a lot more notice from others over these past two weeks.

Sardi points out the high probability of a nuclear exchange, the likelihood of ADE from the vaccines that aren’t really vaccines, and the certainty of economic collapse. Any way you look at it, a 70% reduction in US population in four years is quite dramatic. And yet, I consider it quite possible.

There are so very many things going on behind the scenes that it’s hard to estimate the outcomes. Some of them aren’t really hidden, just not commonly acknowledged. It’s the kind of thing where my heart senses a major catastrophe, but my mind recoils and can’t form any kind of realistic estimate. All the more so when I’m experiencing unexpected changes in my own life.

I was planning on a long season of bikepacking. Not so much carrying the full load on the bike itself, but of camping and biking in areas I’ve not seen, at least not recently. Camping is still possible, but less and less likely to happen very much. Biking will, for now, be just a small part of my life. If the VA does a knee replacement really soon, biking a lot is still possible. Yet, I’m honestly moved to plan for it not happening this year. Instead, I’m making accommodations to deal with a left knee that simply won’t allow much physical activity compared to what I’ve carried on in the past.

Who could have foreseen just the stuff I’m facing personally? This left knee crashed very quickly over just a couple of months. It’s the sort of thing your heart could know, but you just aren’t consciously ready to see it. So it is with wider events: I’ve known for some time we were headed for an apocalypse, but I had no idea what it would look like. And if Deagle knows anything, then four years isn’t a very long time for that much change.

I’m not saying that a 70% population drop is a sure thing. That’s more precision and detail than I dare to suggest. But my heart tells me that any day now things could become really unpleasant on a broad scale. This is no exodus; the covenant people aren’t marching off to a far land physically. However, I suspect that the business of blood on the doorposts might still apply, in that we need to separate ourselves from the world around us in other ways.

There’s no way I could offer any kind of solid leadership. Aside from broad generalities, I have no idea what you will go through where you live. All I can do is point back to divine revelation and ask you to search for yourself. I’m honestly still struggling to understand the implications of what it means to be a covenant community, because the one thing I know for certain is just how radically different it is from what we have around us today. I’m not sure you and I could make the necessary adjustments; we can only move in that direction. There’s a vast lore of experience missing there, and I’m still standing way out here on the border of this vast Promised Land.

I suppose I could suggest ways to be united now versus the necessity of being scattered individuals, but then we have to ask how that would fit after the coming disasters and dramatic changes. I have confidence that I’ll know what to do when the moment comes; that’s the part I’m trying to teach here. It’s not knowing in advance what to do, but knowing I’ll be ready because the Lord says He will make me so in my heart.

This week my wife and I are shedding excess baggage and reorganizing what we keep. It has to be heart-led. Because we don’t know what’s coming, it’s a matter of simply doing our best to fit our collection of stuff to the apparent mission before us. That includes realizing that there are some small decisions we’ll regret, but doing nothing is not an option. I have a few more tools to collect, and Veloyce is sorting through her kitchen stuff. I’m taking a look at certain emergency response items I know how to use, and still have the physical ability to use. Anyone got a good used Halligan bar?

Bits and pieces of answers are all I have right now, but the broader certainty of disaster is so solid I can just about touch it. At the same time, the shining glory of the Father is all around me. We are privileged to see things few have ever seen before. Gird up your loins.

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Random Photos 06

I’m starting the numbering sequence of this series where it left off when I carried over the old posts from the other blog. I drove out north of Harrah, east of Luther.

I was testing the idea of using my car to explore the back roads in the northeastern corner of Oklahoma County. It’s unlikely I would have ever ridden my bike out this far, anyway. However, this is the Deep Fork watershed, and the steep hills are now off limits for me. I noticed that I miss a lot when I’m paying attention to driving. I got only these two shots. This first one is a ranch up on Dobbs Road just north of Britton Road.

A bit farther north on the same Dobbs Road was this stock pond. I was drawn by the sharp drop on this part of the bank. In fact, I stopped and turned around on the narrow road so I could come back and take this picture.

Mostly I was just enjoying taking a drive out in rural areas while the redbud trees were in bloom. A few other trees were starting to sprout their green leaves, but the redbuds are spectacular right now. Frankly, a small motorbike would work a lot better for this, but there is no way I could secure one where I live. I wouldn’t have it very long. It’s funny what the thieves will steal where I live, versus all the stuff they don’t touch.

Anyway, I’m hoping I can get used to exploring this way and start getting more pictures of what I see.

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Law of Moses — Nehemiah 2

So far as anyone can tell, Ezra remained in Jerusalem after his book ends with the reforms in 457 BC. The various nations around them had lost all their hopes of seducing the Judeans. So they began a campaign of harassment. For Ezra, this called for some protection. Apparently he built up some fortifications around the Temple. The troublemakers notified Artaxerxes, who agreed with them that Ezra’s commission did not include fortifications. Troops were dispatched to tear down the wall and burn the gates.

Sometime after that, word returned to the Judeans in Babylon of what happened. Eventually the news spread to various Judeans who had been taken into imperial service. Among these was Nehemiah, the Cup Bearer. Ostensibly this was the man who took a sip of the ruler’s wine cup before it was served. This way, if the wine was poisoned, it sickened the Cup Bearer first. By this time it was mostly ceremonial, but the position had grown in influence in the imperial court. Nehemiah was thus essential personnel, one of the imperial councilors with what amounts to a reserve commission in the military at the rank of general. He was trained accordingly, but his primary mission was highly political as part of the inner circle trusted by the Emperor personally.

So in the previous chapter, in 445 BC when Nehemiah gets the news of the destruction of the fortifications of Jerusalem in the face of serious threats, he’s heartbroken. He renders an eloquent prayer to Jehovah on behalf of His people. He fasts and prays for four months.

This left him looking rather dreary on the next public event at which he performs his ceremonial duties. This was normally forbidden, but Artaxerxes wasn’t that difficult to serve. The Emperor noticed Nehemiah’s haggard face, surmised that it was a matter of fasting and praying, and asked him what it was about. Nehemiah prayed silently in his heart while answering the Emperor. This was his one chance to do something for his nation and his God.

Surely Artaxerxes remembered sending troops to destroy the fortifications. But here Nehemiah makes a strong appeal, discussing how much of a threat there was to the people and the Temple that the Emperor so wanted to see finished. So the ruler asked his servant what he proposed to do about it.

Nehemiah took this as an answer to his prayers. He suggested going back in person to visit the people and rebuild the city fortifications with a proper imperial permit. Nehemiah’s training gave him a reasonable idea of how long it would take. He pressed further for a specific written commission to pass through, and an order for sufficient timber from the Imperial Forester, so he could build the walls and restore the palace. Nehemiah would be the ranking imperial official in that part of the empire, so it naturally means having a palace for his residence.

Because Nehemiah was riding in a military chariot as an officer escorted by imperial troops, he got there a lot quicker than was normal for the Returnees traveling mostly on foot. He issued the copies of imperial orders to the Satrap and various governors and officials. This includes Sanballat who was governor of Samaria, and Tobiah, an Ammonite noble serving on the Satrap’s staff. They were deeply disturbed by this turn of events.

Upon arriving at Jerusalem, Nehemiah dismissed the bulk of his escort, keeping only a personal bodyguard required for members of the imperial court. It was enough to discourage, say, a false flag attack from Judah’s enemies that could be blamed on someone else. The two previously mentioned enemies were joined by an Arab nobleman named Geshem. There’s no doubt they had spies in and around Jerusalem, and Nehemiah suspected this, so he outsmarted them.

He waited three days, then at night slipped out quietly through the western gate that led down into the Tyropoeon Valley, riding a donkey and escorted by his bodyguard. He turned sharply left along the base of what was left of the city wall. The ancient valley had been filled with rubble at least once, so the sides of the ridge line weren’t that steep any more. He managed to get around as far as the pool (later called Siloam) that Hezekiah had built out on the end of the ridge, when he dug the tunnel to divert the water from the Gihon Spring on the east face of the ridge. At the pool, the rubble was too thick to keep going along the base of the wall.

So Nehemiah was forced to take the path down into the valley, and turned to continue up the Kidron Valley a ways until he could see the main eastern gate near that ancient spring. Then he returned and made his way back up to where he first came out.

The next morning, he called the officials together, which would have included Ezra. Nehemiah revealed his prayers and the nature of his commission and his plans. It was the very blessed thing they had not dared to hope, so they were quick to agree.

As soon as word got back to the trio of Judah’s enemies, they sent a message to Nehemiah mocking the whole idea as rebellion. Nehemiah outranked them, but his God outranked the whole world. They had no say in the matter. He warned them not to get in the way or they would pay dearly.

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Recommended: Fantasy Muffler, Crutcho, OK

I can heartily recommend Fantasy Muffler in Crutcho, OK. It’s just west of Air Depot Boulevard on NE 23rd in the OKC Metro. Crutcho is a discrete community with some of the rights of a municipality, but not quite fully there. This is the view from NE 23rd.

They open at 8AM every day, closing at 5PM M-F, and noon on Saturday. This is my car up on the rack, getting a new upper exhaust assembly installed. No hesitation or griping about how difficult it was, the man just got to work on it and was done in decent time. He prefers you pay in cash, but it’s cheaper that way.

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New Feature: Photos Here

I’m closing my other blog (it’s gone). I’ve warned WordPress about this, as have a great many others, but they have refused to listen. It’s over. From here on out, all my photos will be posted here.

First up is my sitting in my “new” car. I had just returned from a parts run when my wife decided to capture the moment. The thing is drive-able, but it makes a lot of noise right now. I’m waiting for the catalytic converter assembly to arrive. Until then, the exhaust system has a wide gap where the pipe is broken just a short distance from the engine. I’ll post a better picture of the car later.

Today I had my heavy workout in the park. One of the machines I use is hidden behind a tree in this shot. I am no longer able to do any high-impact exercises, but I can still ride the bike and take pictures.

Once I don’t have to worry about the noise level from the car, I plan to take some day trips to places worthy of some photography. If things go well enough, I’ll eventually make longer trips with camping and so forth.

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Law of Moses — Ezra 10:1-17

Before his trip to Jerusalem, Ezra had already been involved in a project of collecting various manuscripts and documents associated with Moses and Israel, and assessing which were to be considered Scripture. It’s almost guaranteed this was a large project involving a great many scribes making new copies, and edits that would update the names and references to what was current in their day during the Exile. We can also be sure that Ezra was the final editor for this project. Thus, we can safely suggest he was the editor for Chronicles, his own book and Esther. On top of that, he reorganized the documents he didn’t edit. Much of the Old Testament canon rests on the work of Ezra.

But his motive was hardly mere scholarly ambition. There is every reason to believe he was deeply committed to an accurate understanding and obedience to the Covenant. Nothing mattered more to him than for the Remnant to be faithful. He was considering all of this when he was warned that some of the Returnees had intermarried with the pagan locals. That is, these people intermarried without converting the pagans to the faith in Jehovah. There was always room to embrace the Covenant and become an Israeli, but that’s not what they were doing. They were allowing the pagan wives to bring their idols into Judean households, and giving their covenant daughters over to pagan households.

This is the very thing that contributed to the downfall of Israel in the first place. It’s part of why they were in exile. In the previous chapter Ezra has a very strong reaction to this news. He doesn’t just tear his clothing, but pulls out some hair and whiskers, signaling that God’s wrath was right outside the door, and it would be devastating. He made a very public display of this, fasting and weeping so that everyone would get the message. But more than that, his priestly prayer provoked a very real spiritual response in the people.

Thus we come to our focal passage. Some of the people in the area had heard and were deeply moved. They came to find out what they could do about this. They were quite fearful themselves at this point and quickly confessed their own guilt. So they agreed to make a solemn renewal of the Covenant and actively pursue obedience in this matter. They promised to stoutly support Ezra in taking charge of this serious problem.

So they all swore and oath. Ezra retired to one of the priestly chambers in the Temple and continued praying and fasting. Meanwhile, the leadership of the Returnees issued a proclamation on the matter. Everyone must gather in Jerusalem within three days or suffer confiscation of their property (it would become Temple property) and they would be excommunicated from their national identity.

Keep in mind that only a small staff lived in Jerusalem. It was the governor, his staff, the high priest and his staff, and temple attendants. They occupied houses that were restored, but the rest of the Returnees lived scattered around in towns and villages outside of Jerusalem. And very little of the Temple plaza still stood at this time, so there wasn’t a lot of space to gather near the Temple, the palace grounds, etc. Thus, when the folks from outside the city gathered, about the only place left to assemble was the Kidron Valley. This offered a rather large open flat space where the Valley of Hinnon joins it off the southern end of the ancient ridge of Zion. This open space narrows and reaches all the way up to the Water Gate, where King David’s men slipped into the fortress through the spring. Anyone standing near the outer entrance to that spring could address the crowd below and likely be heard.

The assembly was 8 December 457 BC. They were trembling because of the gravity of the situation, and the cold rains didn’t help. Ezra preached to them of their sins. He called for the level of separation required in the Law of Moses. The representative elders agreed it was a problem, but that making the assembly stand out in the rain was also a problem. They proposed that the elders report to Ezra in a rotation by districts. Ezra would sit as judge over all the cases and rule who had to put away their pagan wives. This would take awhile, because the extent of the problem was rather large and spanned multiple generations. It was complicated.

Only a handful of elders were opposed, and they would be dealt with in due time.

So it was the next month (ten days later) the process began. This would have given the men time to warn their wives to convert of be sent home. The inquest ran two months, and was concluded in March. The text goes on to list those who had taken wives that refused to convert. Those women were sent back home.

This infuriated the pagan nations around them who simply did not understand, nor cared at all about Jehovah’s brand of holiness. Just when they had begun to tame this invasive presence, Ezra comes along and cuts all their family ties. It’s impossible to separate religion and politics in understanding this conflict. For the pagan nations, it was a matter of political necessity to seduce the Judeans into idolatry. For the Judeans, it was a vital necessity to remain separate from both the religion and politics of the pagans.

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See How It Goes

A status report on my knee: The official diagnosis is degenerative joint disease, AKA osteoarthritis. The left knee is losing cartilage in the joint between the bones.

I’ve been referred to the Physical Therapy division in the VA hospital. They are the ones who will decide what comes next. The known options range between “not much” to a wheelchair to knee replacement. I won’t know until I see them for my initial visit next month. Yeah, they’ve got quite a case load. They have to justify everything they do with me based on some kind of medical necessity, with tons of rules.

What’s it like for me right now? The joint is load sensitive. Early in the morning, it’s not too bad. As the day wears on, it starts hurting more. If I use a cane, it does help the knee, but then it hurts my arthritic hands and shoulders. I have to switch sides a lot, even though the therapists say that’s not the right way to do it. They don’t live with my discomfort.

Wearing compression braces can help, but then the braces are made from really crappy materials these days, and they start to relax too much after a few hours. When we go to the grocery store, I typically opt for their powered scooters, but the ones at Walmart are in pitiful shape. I’d really much rather have my own wheelchair.

I used one extensively for a few years back in the late 1990s when my right knee was the problem. If the VA doesn’t issue me one, I’ll buy it myself. If it starts to hurt too much between now and my first visit, I may do that anyway. They cost is about the same as bikes; the good ones are pretty expensive.

Any wheelchair I get also must have the leg extenders because part of the problem is that I have to keep my knees relatively straight when resting. You would be surprised how many “accommodations” don’t accommodate leg extensions on wheel chairs. They put in lots of sharp turns with no room for me to make the corner. I ran into that the last time.

I can ride my bike some for now. I have to avoid hills, so the course needs to be pretty flat. Because my “new” car is now drivable, I can take my bike out to some interesting places where there are flat bikeways. There aren’t many. I need to figure out a way to attach my cane to my bike.

No more rides around Draper Lake. No more rides into the north hills along the Deep Fork Valley here in Oklahoma County. No more hiking. That is, unless they do a knee replacement. Either way, it’s all low-impact from here on out.

I’m still performing a wake-up workout that helps to maintain muscle mass and joint movement. It also keeps my metabolism high. In other words, I’m already doing pretty much the kind of physical activity that a physical therapist would recommend for this condition. The one likely avenue of conflict is that I’ve always been a powerlifter/bodybuilder, and being physically large is just me. The literature is heavy on losing weight, but that won’t happen. I’ve never been this trim in my whole life, but I’ve also never been this big.

So I’m 5’10” and weigh about 250 pounds. My chest is at least 48″ with arms about 16″ and everything else is that big to match, including the unusually wide pelvic girdle. I have a very wide frame all the way up and down. Getting lighter really isn’t an option because I use those muscles a lot.

We’ll see how all of this goes.

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The Balance Point

Biblical Law is not rules. Biblical Law is the mindset of determination to please God. It is the divine privilege of being God’s child.

On the one hand, that obedient attitude reaps blessings and miracles. The miracles become common, though you shouldn’t associate the word “routine” as it is commonly used. Rather, there comes a normative frame of reference where you learn to expect God to do things a certain way, providing miracles in certain areas because those areas are generally outside your hands. In other areas, you already know what God expects, and you face it with peace, determined to shine His glory. Those areas are blended into a continuum, yet you will know where the boundaries are.

The boundaries are, in part, unique to you alone. God is a Person; He is not a machine or computer that treats us all alike. He relates to each of us individually. There is a lot of common ground between us, where we all experience God in ways that allow us to recognize Him in the descriptions others give. It’s the same Person we all know, but we are not the same in ourselves, so there will be variations. And there are exceptions within our own experiences with God.

Even the exceptions become characteristic of your relationship with Him.

Jesus answered the Devil’s temptation in Luke 4:9-12. A rough approximation of what Jesus said is, “You shall not fling a challenge in God’s face.” If you are walking in obedience to God’s individual calling on your life, then you need to be ready for Him to catch you when you fall. And if He doesn’t, be ready for breakage. It’s His problem because it’s His program. But you shouldn’t put yourself in danger presumptuously, as if your intellect and reason is a sufficient guide to what God ought to do. Just because He can and does do miracles, don’t assume you have Him over a barrel. You should take that hard path willing to fall and be crushed, if that’s what glorifies Him.

It’s not about your reputation, but His. What makes sense to you is no constraint on God’s hand. His choices are for His glory. You can follow the rules best you know and still be crushed. It’s not about the outcomes, but the process in your soul of choosing to obey for reasons you cannot comprehend.

So where is the balance point? It’s written in your convictions; it beats in your heart. This is why we keep pointing back to the heart-led way. Your heart knows already. It does take some time getting used to hearing your heart, and listening to your heart. It does take some time to test the boundaries and get used to how God wants to lead you. Even then, it’s a moving target. It’s likely you’ll still be learning when your end comes.

Biblical Law is woven into your heart; it already knows. We need and use the written Word to inform our minds what to expect from the heart. But the end result is that Biblical Law is your heart, and your heart is Biblical Law. It’s not about the rules. The written Law was meant to be a model, a reference point, not a cage. The mere act of formulating boundaries means expecting exceptions. Even if you never see the exceptions, they are there in principle, simply because your brain cannot encompass divine moral truth.

People don’t see miracles in the first place because they don’t know where to look. They don’t acknowledge the miracles they already have. The fallen intellect wants to take credit for things God provides. When you start humbly acknowledging the Lord’s mercy and miracles, you’ll be in a better position to discover miracles he will provide when you reach the breaking points you cannot control.

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