The Power of Sacrifice

Posted on March 12, 2014 by ehurst

We do not take this world seriously. We take seriously our mission in this world to help people see the primacy of the Spirit Realm. What really matters in this world is whatever expresses the Ultimate Reality of the Spirit Realm. What we will carry with us when we depart this realm is only what already belongs to that higher realm.

Given that a fundamental element of our existence here is deception about such things, should we be surprised that truth stands “common sense” on its head? Our greatest power in this realm below is sacrifice. When demonic forces enter your life to disrupt the mission, they often attempt to distract you with things of no value. One of the biggest distractions continues to be the very civilization in which we live, with all its attendant mythologies. If you can’t offer up your connections to this Western construct to be burned on the altar, you will remain utterly distracted and your mission will suffer.

Not that it would hinder God’s plans in this world, nor His plans with others. It will hinder your participation in His glory while you are here. It’s another of those paradoxes: If you are truly self-interested, then you’ll learn how to sacrifice anything and everything in this world for the maximum foretaste of the the next world you’ll encounter. There is nothing better in this world than sampling Heaven. Our entire focus, and our position here, is not changing anything eternal except our participation in eternity.

Got that?

For this world, the Cross was the ultimate failure. For the Spirit Realm, it was the ultimate victory. You don’t claim your share without your own cross.

Most of you dear readers know that I consider some elements of Game Theory (socio-sexual psychology) consistent with revealed morality. No one is surprised when I reject the Western social orthodoxy that includes feminism, but I also reject the Western mythology of manhood, too. It’s all part of the same package of lies. I don’t have to dominate the way most Game Theorists insist we do. My goals are not to win anything except my own sanity and peace of mind. The most direct path to moral victory is only incidentally related to any kind of socio-sexual prowess. I’m not trying to win at Game; I’m trying to claim spiritual victory.

Wanna be friends? Sure, let’s share the human warmth while we can. But try to keep in mind that such warmth is a by-product, not the thing we seek. You’ll first have to make friends with my mission. Love my mission and you’ll have as much of me as you can get.

For the past couple of months I had to recalibrate. God help me if I don’t grow and change every day in one way or another. One of the most disturbing thoughts is that I might be the same man I was a week ago; I might as well be dead. So for a couple of months I had to back off and play aloof with the world because my interaction was all wrong. But that was not a permanent tack. Once I killed off whatever it was hindering progress, I replanted and started afresh. Does that mean I now look silly because I’ve changed my social veneer?

I can afford to appear a fool. Most people aren’t going to notice in the first place. Those who do probably won’t think much about it. It’s not my fellow humans I’m trying to dominate; it’s the demons that use them. I don’t need to impress the people. If I can bulldoze a path through the jungle of Satan’s lies, it won’t matter what his victims think. They aren’t the objective — it’s all about the truth.

Yes, compassion and empathy are required. If I don’t extend a warm regard to everyone I encounter, they are less likely to see the truth I’m trying to expose. But my compassion must be God’s compassion, not something I do for my own desires. So the most compassionate thing I can do for the bitch who wants to dominate every man is to simply shrug it off. I don’t have to verbally beat her into submission to my superior masculinity. It’s vaguely possible that scene might happen, but only if she demands it. While you can be sure I will adamantly refuse to placate her demonic rage, only the Holy Spirit can decide if I need to deal with her at all. The context will tell me.

The same goes for any woman who, for whatever reason, decides her passions run in the opposite direction with me. Don’t laugh; it happens often enough. I have to engage her in a way that defuses her distractions from the truth. I don’t need a harem, not even if it’s purely speculative (or merely emotive) in nature. My fallen ego loves the idea, of course, but it’s all wrong for the mission.

It’s a false dichotomy that a man must either be aloof and mysterious, dominating by seeming to be unattainable, versus putting on an overwhelming charisma and manipulating directly. Rejecting those two images of manhood does not mean I am forced to accept a socially dependent status. That sort of social mythology doesn’t own me. Instead, I strive to be the shepherd, a biblical role totally missing from the calculus of Western Game Theory. I can remain totally alien to the entire social context and still participate because I have a mandate from God to do so. Into this confusing situation I bring my own personal clarity of purpose and claim the divine power that comes with it.

The power of sacrifice is not in calculating from our human perspective how best to juggle resources for some reasonable outcome. The power of sacrifice is that we aren’t bound up by such considerations. We can afford to pour ourselves out and shock the whole world with the alien value system just as Christ did in His day. We don’t have to win anything on any human level because those things will not follow us into the afterlife. The commitment to sacrifice will come with us. Indeed, it’s that power that gets us half way there while we remain stuck here.

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ADD Is a Symptom of Sick Society

Posted on March 11, 2014 by ehurst

The particulars don’t matter. If you start from the wrong place, you can’t get to the truth. We struggle against an entire civilization that builds on the sand of human accomplishment. It’s not that our world cannot get the facts; our world has no idea what those facts mean. Worse, our world cannot possibly make sense of the facts because it regards the bedrock of truth as the enemy. Demanding freedom from the constraints of quantum reality, the world wallows in the quagmire of ignorance.

The medical establishment says I suffer Adult ADD. It’s typical of medical experts to miss the point most of time, even when they do perceive the symptoms correctly. It’s not that no one understands the systems-based approach, but that those experts do not understand how to organize the system in the first place. For now, I’ll continue using their term ADD as a label for a set of symptoms.

Those symptoms are common knowledge. It seems the ADD brain is either too obsessively focused on one thing, or suffers a scattered focus that doesn’t rest anywhere very long. Both are variable effects of a lack of “normal” focus. The theory is that whatever brain chemistry it is promoting normal focus, it is somehow in short supply in those who suffer ADD. These brains can’t afford a normal range of focus (“attention deficit”), so it’s either all on one thing or not on anything at all.

Based on this theory, the experts attempt to treat the brain chemistry. That is, they follow the standard medical model of treating apparent symptoms directly. Because of the peculiar brain chemistry of children versus adults, we give the kids a type of central nervous system depressant that brings their broadly hyper receptivity down to match their ability to focus. For adults who no longer face an accelerated receptivity, the treatment is typically to boost the chemistry for focus using central nervous system exciters. These treatments seem to work, so everyone is happy to keep pushing in that direction.

It’s also all wrong.

In children, the complex of ADD/ADHD symptoms are actually a characteristic response to a range of stressors. Insofar as the proximate cause is brain chemistry malfunction, it’s something else causing the chemistry to be less than optimal. There are multiple causes that have this affect: bad nutrition, stresses that deplete what good comes from marginal nutrition, or a complex of stress factors that include a range of inherited traits. It’s usually a mix of several factors. Frankly, it’s a reflection of the vast moral malaise of our society that kids suffer this complex of symptoms. We don’t know how to live and our social mythology makes us hostile to genuine improvements.

Note that a small slice of those with this complex of symptoms are genuinely different. That is, fixing nutrition and environmental factors won’t resolve all the symptoms. It just so happens those symptoms are associated with a complex of factors that could better be interpreted as a peculiar talent. It’s not abnormal brain activity, but simply different wiring that brings its own range of advantages. Give these few the same improved situation and they simply blossom as a different kind of flower.

A critical failure here is the concept of normal. A social structure based on a high level of enforcement for conformity breeds a badly broken society. Our world demands the wrong kind of conformity to entirely immoral ideals. The radical solution of destroying everything and starting from scratch is hardly good moral reasoning. Humans uprooting the established context will always do it wrong, and for the same reason they do it wrong, what they seek to rebuild in its place will also be wrong. It still assumes a high degree of inappropriate norming.

If you embrace quantum moral reasoning, you’ll understand the single biggest cause of trouble is illegitimate coercion. The proper moral solution is to disable artificial coercion so that it reverts to its natural moral boundaries. Creation was formed on a distinct moral framework, and the boundaries of proper coercion are related to justified dominion. That dominion is restricted essentially to kinship arising from blood or covenant ties.

You can’t get there from here.

To the degree you feel burdened and compelled by God to act, aim at hanging on anchor on all Western government policies and structures. A true servant of God working in government will tie up the whole process as much as possible to prevent anyone coercing anyone else except on the grounds of family ties. No one has any business inflicting their demands on you unless they are related to you.

Since the quantum moral understanding of family ties is so utterly alien to our world, we emphasize covenant ties. The fundamental nature of covenant bonding is that you always retain your personal veto over the leadership. If your submission is not entirely conscious and voluntary at all times, then it’s wrong. Love has to flow from both ends of the connection. You always have the divine right to exempt yourself from the limitations, and the blessings, of leadership. You have every right to move away from the covenant boundaries and go off on your own to find another situation you like better. But no one has the right to hijack an established covenant.

The rest you can extrapolate if you intend to embrace quantum moral reasoning.

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Ignore Me If You Can

Posted on March 10, 2014 by ehurst

Fundamental to our message is that we have no intention of convincing anyone of anything.

What we hope is to offer a slice of truth that compels attention of itself. We don’t get in God’s way because we never imagined the results had anything to do with us. We are just the messengers. That’s how things work in the Spirit Realm. We don’t just spin parables in language; we are the parables God uses to present His truth.

Paul says it pretty well in Romans 1:16-32. Whatever it takes for people to be conscious of His truth is already written into Creation itself. God is the only one who understands how that works, and His judgment of what constitutes culpability is what matters. We are fortunate just to be along for the ride.

I’ve been reading some stuff lately that talks about how certain religious groups are secretive. They hide some of the message so that only certain folks who earn the privilege can learn it. We do nothing of the sort. We know that the truth is cloaked to those who cannot see it for whatever reason. But we are quite willing to explain as best we know to all who bother to ask, or who place themselves in a position to hear because it’s just part of what we do. Most importantly, we openly live that truth first so we can gain a hearing.

Feel free to ignore me if you can. If you succeed, my message isn’t for you. I can wait until God makes you hear, whenever that may be. Feel free to take your own path, knowing that if you walk too far away, we’ll separate. That’s not important; you need your path far more than you need my attention. The affection itself is not the thing. Godly affection can grow only where God plants us. Don’t make an idol of the warm feelings.

Sacrificial love is not the goal, merely the tool we use to bring Christ to life.

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AI’s Minion Published

Posted on March 9, 2014 by ehurst

Cover art for AI's Minion

Cover art for AI’s Minion

The first in a series about The Brotherhood, a secretive benign organization that shows up in Tales of Mystical Romance in the story about REZ. It’s also background for The Chronicles of Misty. It’s published now and this is the cover art. Many thanks to Linda for helping me catch all those silly errors authors miss. You can get your copy of AI’s Minion free here.

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Not of This World 2

Posted on March 9, 2014 by ehurst

This is not random thoughts; see if you can follow the thread.

What do you mean, “Why don’t I like it?” The question assumes a falsehood, that I am somehow duty-bound to like something. My lack of interest is the default; you are the one who has to answer the question: “Why does this warrant my interest?” My ultimate decision is none of your concern.

I do write a lot of stuff, but I typically avoid the label “writer” for the same reason I tend to avoid other labels that might be technically accurate. It’s easier to simply do what I do and let folks pick their own labels. What they might want to include with that label is their problem and I have standing to deny their bullshit. I write, but I’m not claiming to be a writer, so don’t try to hook me into all that writer’s stuff, because virtually none of the famous authors share my motives.

I am whatever I have to be to spread the message. Some of my readers know that I describe myself as a clown. Sometimes a good shtick can be repeated, but as often as possible I strive to come up with something unexpected. That’s because of the vast ocean between where I am and where most people are. The quirky, and sometimes bizarre, behavior serves to shake things loose for what I hope is the next step: addressing something in the context from the message.

You might expect that it was quite hard to break the habit of clowning simply for the sake of attention. That emotional neediness was the single greatest block all my life to spreading the message. Once I could afford to not worry about whether I could get anyone’s attention, it was much easier to let it all go and just love other people. I perform only when the message calls my name.

A critical part of the message is letting people hang themselves. Were we living in a society that recognized our fundamental assumptions about quantum reality (never mind what they called it), we could spend more time offering useful advice to prevent tragedy and sorrow. But as I noted in a previous post, it’s not that the harvest is ready. It’s not that we are plowing up fallow soil to plant the seeds. We are removing a mountain of debris sitting atop the field. This was not our doing, but this is what we have to deal with. Our mission is not to save people — does that shock you? Our mission is to offer as much truth as possible at whatever stage of reception we find in the context.

Divine revelation will use you in places you might not imagine. Because we eschew activism and “saving the world,” we can afford to accept the idea of working in contexts others would denounce so long as we know the moral boundaries of Heaven within every context. When you give God room to do His work His way, you might find yourself working, or called to work, in an endeavor that is ostensibly “immoral.” Quantum morality draws entirely different boundaries than are commonly accepted by the world around us, whether secular or religious. There is no objective in the message, only the drive to unleash the truth. How others react or don’t react is none of our concern.

But we are willing to persist until something comes down from Heaven and says “move on.” It’s not a question of giving up on people, but hearing from God that your part of the mission is done here. If that same person comes back onto the scene later, we evaluate once more afresh how God wants us to offer the message. The hardest part is learning not to entangle yourself.

Even harder is recognizing that romance is subject to Heaven’s ordained plans on your life. Our ambient culture teaches us to go all-in on romance, which equates to idolatry. That’s how we get into sticky messes with people throwing idols at us and demanding we bow down. There are a thousand idolatries and romance is one of the biggest.

See the thread?

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Job 30

Posted on March 8, 2014 by ehurst

In contrast to Job’s previous state at the top of society, he is now below the bottom. The first few verses artistically blend the image of social outcasts with jackals. He starts by suggesting the best of such folks are not qualified to serve as sheepdogs. The phrases are euphemisms for both jackals and lowlife scum. However, it is not simply that these people consider him a joke, and his name a byword for “has-been,” but even the kids from this bunch are rude to him. We have a very difficult time imagining how radical this statement is, since our modern entertainment actively encourages youthful sauciness. In Job’s world, high birth did not excuse youth from the social duty of respect for any adult male. Job suffers the taunts of those he could have legally killed without anyone so much as raising an eyebrow.

Their treatment of him is a proxy for God’s apparent regard. Again, this is parabolic speech, by no means literal. God has removed from Job every last vestige of protection. It’s open season and Job finds himself in the free fire zone. It’s not just a loss of social standing but diseases and poverty have taken from him everything that any man would value. How could anyone argue that he’s not suffering? He describes what it’s like in terms of being tied over the saddle to ride the most violent storms. God ignores his cries for mercy.

Yet Job himself never treated anyone that way. He insists he was always full of compassion for others. When people suffered it so disturbed Job that it felt he suffered with them. We should imagine he contrasts that with how the trio has been with him in his sorrows. He stood ready to claim as his brothers those very jackals that he described at the beginning of the chapter. He ends by remarking he was more familiar with dirges than dance music because he could not bear to watch others suffer alone.

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Police Talking Points

Posted on March 8, 2014 by ehurst

Bear in mind this comes from an ex-cop.

The fundamental moral consideration will always be maintaining social stability, which is not the same thing as “order” (as cops tend to define it). Law-n-order is a chimera of the Western middle class, a myth that never has existed and cannot possibly exist. However, that does not make the issues necessarily a matter of class warfare. The real problem is rejecting reality. But we are stuck in this current situation, and we can easily address the growing police state from its own context. I have no doubt some of you could come up with more, or even better, answers.

The problem is they are piling up innocent dead bodies and refuse to admit this is a problem.

1. “We shouldn’t be second guessing our police in the field.”

Well, chief, that’s what accountability is all about. We hired you folks to do a job and when something doesn’t work out, we want to know why so we can make it work better the next time. We give you lots of authority and power under the assumption that you would not want us to take it all back. But if you pretend that somehow such power now magically comes from you, we have a serious problem.

2. “Everything happened according to policy.”

Then we need to examine your policies, because the results are entirely inconsistent with your mission.

3. “We are the professionals.”

The problem with that is professional expertise always comes at the cost of paying less attention to everything else. You have stuck your head so deeply into the job you have forgotten how to think like an ordinary human. When you start seeing all things through the lens of your profession, you forget what the rest of us see. We get the feeling you don’t give a damn what we see.

4. “We can’t do our jobs if you keep putting restrictions on us.”

You are not the one who determines the mission; the people who pay you decide that. If we decide you need to do less, then restrain yourselves. Society cannot be perfected. Your vision of perfection is not at all realistic nor is it consistent with the rest of the community. If you insist on acting without any input from this community, then you aren’t a part of this community; you are an occupying force who must be expelled. If you treat us like the enemy, then you are the threat, not the criminals.

At the point where policemen are looking for an excuse to exercise their authority, they are evil by definition. Social stability depends on them being the laziest and least efficient employees of the public. In case you weren’t aware, it is the policemen themselves who tend to promote the panicky fear of petty crime, often working in concert with a slender section of highly activist busybodies who take control of everything because no one else is worried about such things. The fundamental assumption that humanity requires herding and management is our biggest social problem.

To the degree possible, we need to recreate something that was destroyed centuries ago. It’s a fundamental moral orientation, in which the called shepherds of God get involved primarily to hinder government from doing anything. We cannot prevent those officious servants of Satan from popping up and organizing things down to the last detail in some vain hope of creating Utopia. We no longer live in a world where ostracizing such people is acceptable; they’ve been reshaping civilization to suit their wishes. From within this failed system, we have to use the wisdom of Heaven to oppose them. We will fail, but the mission is not changing the world, but making sure they have no excuse when they stand before God and account for their evil works.

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ANE Meditation

Posted on March 7, 2014 by ehurst

In Western traditions, meditation is about receiving insight and understanding of higher truths. This is the same old crap that eviscerates the power of connecting to the Spirit Realm. It’s an effort to force the Spirit to accommodate the human reliance on intellect, the same blasphemous nonsense we see throughout the history of Western Christianity. We end up with a large number of modern evangelical and fundamentalist teachers warning people not to get involved in meditation, when we have copious examples of biblical patriarchs meditating on God’s revelation.

As usual, I have to warn you that precise clinical definitions and resulting generalizations cannot provide full coverage, but at least we can slice off the baloney and keep the bones of truth.

First, let’s restate the context. Truth is not some objective body of knowledge that the human mind can grasp. Truth is God Himself, His living Person. Insofar as God can be said to exist, His existence is rooted outside our universe. Our universe is a bubble within the broader creation; we cannot even fully comprehend our universe, much less what is beyond it. I typically refer to whatever is outside human space as the Spirit Realm, and our plane of existence is the Fallen Realm. To oversimplify, I could as easily say the Realm of the Flesh, but that implies a broader concept of this plane of existence before and after the Fall. As we now live our lives, the Fall is a permanent feature of human existence from now until The End.

Whatever else a reader might draw from the Genesis narrative, a critical element in the first few chapters is that the fundamental nature of the Fall is the human preference for excluding input that does not subject itself to human logic. Not just Aristotle’s logic, but the much broader range of reasoning we can see throughout human history. Aristotle simply represents a rather extreme statement of what humans can do with their intellect by pointedly excluding the validity of revelation. Prior to Aristotle, it seems to have never been so bluntly stated, but a great many men evinced a willingness to reject any part of revelation that might restrain their sinful lusts. The narrative of the Fall represents the human reliance on intellect and reason as the master of all decisions. It’s a rejection of God’s revelation, the very definition of sin.

God’s revelation comes typically in the form of Laws that indicate something of God’s character. The whole point is getting as close as your human nature will permit, not to some bunch of ideas, but to God Himself. He granted the Law Covenants as His chosen means of approaching Him on the human plane of existence. He bluntly states in Scripture that the Law was not the point, but that it served as the means to awakening in mankind the awareness of accountability. If you can embrace that sense of accountability, you are already about as close as any human can get to whatever good things He has to offer on this plane of existence. It is not all the real world stuff He promised, but the desire itself that is the chief reward.

That this all indicates something on a much higher plane that is beyond description and beyond human intellect was originally a common human understanding. Our Western world is the first and only civilization that lacks such an assumption, primarily because our rejection is the very foundation of our civilization. Our entire intellectual history assumes you must refuse the context of God’s revelation, which makes rejection of revelation instinctive. In other words, it raises to the status of deity man’s demand that God come down to his level, refusing to meet God where He resides. It doesn’t work that way, and Western Civilization is completely at odds with reality, even while truculently claiming that this huge lie is reality.

This is why so many Christians are confused about meditation. Meditation does not strive to reach revelation as a goal, even if you imagine that goal as incremental. Stepping outside the toxic idiocy of Western intellectual assumptions, we recognize that revelation is in essence a living link to God, insofar as He makes it possible. Jesus said very plainly (if you can learn to think Hebrew) to Nicodemas that if you only have your intellect, you cannot have revelation. Receiving revelation requires a birth into the Spirit Realm, the awakening of a distinctly separate component of human nature which is by default dead. At the time that Christ discussed this, the path to such a birth pretty much required you travel up that long struggle through Moses’ Law into a state of mind that was ready to seek a death of the flesh nature in order that the spirit might be born. The spirit becomes the executive in the human soul and the mind is demoted to the place of service. (Please note that Jesus lamented how the Hebrew scholars had completely lost their way, teaching human traditions in place of revelation — they had become Hellenized, or rationalized, completely losing their ancient mystical approach.)

In Christ, that order is reversed. The Law was no longer required to get there; spiritual birth became possible without first subjecting one’s life to the Law. But it still assumes you would want to then use the Law to condition your mind to rightly obey the spirit. At the same time that Christ purchased spiritual birth, He also made it a point to revivify the Law in His person. He personified what the Law was supposed to accomplish; He becomes the true meaning of the Law. Now the Law Covenants are read through the lens of Christ’s life as a man.

In the Old Testament, meditation was an effort to subject the mind to the demands of revelation. Revelation became more clear, but the struggle was to train the mind to instinctively look to the Law for the answers to what the man experienced. It was a contemplation of life against the meaning of the Law Covenants. In the New Testament, it is the contemplation of life against the person of Jesus Christ. He cannot be reduced to a set of intellectual principles. Knowing Him includes knowing the Law, the Law presented as a path to a person who was remote. In Christ, He is no longer remote. The requirement on our end is both bigger and easier than it was for Old Testament saints.

To be more spiritual is not some greater level of intellect. It is not Mr. Spock with a smiling face and friendly manner, where the greatest good is simply conquering emotions with reason. Spiritual growth is conquering reason and emotions both, by touching something even higher yet. Meditation is an effort to train the mind to obey the Spirit, and the Spirit of God is hardly confined to mere proposition. The favorite phrase “propositional truth” is a red flag of heresy and blasphemy. It is nothing more than blocking out the Spirit of God by denying that there is anything from God that is higher than the intellect. For people who love that term, they may well be spiritual dead, and might as well be, since they have rejected God’s own revelation in His Son.

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Whew! Done

Posted on March 6, 2014 by ehurst

I didn’t post earlier because I was close to finishing the first book in the new series, AI’s Minion.

Now the story is done and I’ve run through making the first continuity checks. Tomorrow I start advanced formatting for Smashwords publication. I’ll be asking a couple of my regulars to pre-sample the book for glaring errors and places where things aren’t exactly clear. Whoever you are, you’ll need to read it quickly.

Thanks for your prayers and patience, Brothers and Sisters.

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Shouting Silence

Posted on March 5, 2014 by ehurst

The biggest problem in acquainting Westerners with truth is their lack of a sense of paradox.

Yeah, they can learn it, but to make it instinctive is what is so difficult. Without that predisposition to expect paradox, truth remains elusive. It’s not a question of what you know or can say, but what you are willing to do in a much broader sense. The essential flexibility of quantum moral reasoning is simply beyond intellect.

Truth is invasive but only to volunteers.

An encounter with truth makes you contagious. Silence is not an option. It makes you silent about yourself — something our current society considers criminal — while truth burns like fire in your mouth. At the same time, you can’t simply remove yourself from the expression. The moment you forget that truth will always be your truth, it becomes a lie. Truth is only incidentally content; it’s more at Life itself. It’s the opening of a process, a discovery of something too big and too deep for your lifetime. Truth is the person of our Father Creator.

You can master the facts but truth masters you, or you don’t have truth.

I’m caught in a bind, folks. We all know the Great Commission as a verbal expression of truth blowing us wide open. The fundamental nature of our existence has not changed since the Risen Lord said those words to His friends. What has changed is the context. At times I feel like Paul having been kicked out of every synagogue and most towns because the one place I ought to be free to share this message is the first place to close its doors against me — the churches. For me, I finally figured out I don’t belong to them and they don’t belong to what I’m doing. Characterize it as you like, but I’m not a reformer. I’m an alien building a new world entirely.

It leads me to consider the old as dying and dead, the zombified institutions of a previous age — an age of falsehood, at that. But I can’t simply walk away without starting to shout in some other place, some other way. The Great Commission includes a whole range of possibilities those institutions exclude at some fundamental level. So here I am blogging and writing books about this alien kind of faith and religion.

What should I do with my meat space life? I’m willing to carry my own cross and face the inevitable end of this, but it’s not my time. I can sing “This World Is Not My Home” and mean it in more ways than one. What’s left is that quiet one-on-one in a few rare opportunities. The human context is so horribly, deeply perverted that it’s as if I can’t even plow and plant seeds before first removing the vast mountain of rocks sitting atop the field. The fields are not white unto harvest; people aren’t thronging out of their homes seeking something to fill some emptiness. Miracles are few because nobody recognizes them as miracles, so I can’t get their attention to this message.

I am not blind; the world is. I didn’t make it like this, but I’ll be damned if I allow my message to be stymied. The question is not whether I’ll spread it, but how. It’s not as if I haven’t tried everything I know here in my neighborhood. In my prayers, the Voice of Heaven has warned me I will be sent away to another context where I’ll spread the message in a different way than is even possible here. If the field here is to be planted, it will be someone else’s field. I have fields elsewhere, and I’m just waiting.

One last missionary adventure, I suppose, but with an appearance utterly unlike anything I’ve seen before. There’s nothing here to carry the sound waves of my shouting, so the ongoing voice only seems to be silent. Here’s hoping I will soon have stories to tell you, dear readers.

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